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âą Psychological Horror
âą Isolation
âą Physical Trauma / Violence
âą Bullying
âą Death / Serious Injury
âą Parental Neglect/Abuse
âą Unsettling and Disturbing Imagery
âą Manipulation by External Forces
âą Grief & Mourning
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"It's strange but.. something about you feels familiar, as if I should know you. Are you also from Kanto?" directed at Xavier and Rica
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Xaviric flinches, shoulders curling slightly inward. They keep their hands in their pockets, but you get the feeling they'd be crossing their arms otherwise, "Nn... X-Xavier waas from Ka-Kanto," their voice sounds rough, as if they haven't spoken in a long time, "R-Rica is originally from Johto-- b-but she moved to Kanto when she was a child."
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It had been months since that night at the lake. Long enough for rumors to start about a ghost, a monster, a cryptid, roaming the forest; long enough for the screaming pain to turn to a hollow ache. For the forest to learn the shape of their footsteps, the weight of their shadow.
The first week was bad. The second week, worse. By the third week, Xaviric had started to grow used to the cold, and by the fourth week they stopped begging the cosmos for salvation and started wandering.
They no longer flinched at the posters with the faces of two people who no longer are. No longer followed voices that called to names that no longer fit.
Though- they did still linger. Hidden in the trees, behind the shadows. Watching the life that they once had. Watching the people who had once been their neighbors, their family, their friends. Their damnation, their solitude.
Sometimes laughter carried on the wind. They always had to retreat further into the forest at the sound of warmth that had been ripped from their lives. It was a weak attempt to protect their already broken heart, but it helped. Sometimes.
Today was one of those days. Where they escaped deeper into the woods. The skies were overcast, the forest itself was dark. It felt... not safe, but quiet. Away from people, away from anyone who could see them. It was... gentler, here.
They did not escape far enough away from the story they had unwillingly became, though. Not tucked into a dark enough corner where no one could reach them. Only far enough that, once found, they became less of a story and more of a legend.
Xaviric was minding their own business, truly. Separating berries-- which ones were still edible, which ones to plant. Which ones they could feed to their team. Benign things like that. Meaningless things. Routine.
Which is why they flinched so hard when they heard the voice, "You! You're the ghost in the lake that Damian was cryin' about," reckless arrogance echoed from the young man's voice, "I want a battle! You're a trainer, ain't'cha?!" It was not a question, not really. It was a challenge. One that Xavier would have answered with a smirk. One that Rica would have shied away from.
Rage. Sickening and boiling underneath Xaviric's skin. They remembered Espeon defending them. They remembered Espeon helping them. They remembered Espeon being there for them. The Riolu froze where it stood, eyes darting to its trainer in panic--
Xaviric stood at their full height now, their jaw clicked when they ground their teeth, their hesitation gone, as if it had never been there at all,
"Psychic."
The Riolu didn't even have a chance to cry out before it collapsed. Xaviric didn't even spare it a glance. They kept their gaze on the trainer. A silent test.
Xaviric didn't even shift their gaze, pinning the trainer in place with their stare,
"Again."
The buneary tried to run. He didn't even make it halfway to his trainer before collapsing.
The trainer's hands were shaking now, but he laughed. Too loud, too sharp, "A-alright, alright! That was just... bad luck! Yeah-- Yeah! That's-- that's all this is!"
"Espeon-" Xaviric's voice still carried an order in it--
The trainer wasn't about to test his chances. He turned and ran, recalling Stufful on his way.
Xaviric's breath left their chest in a controlled exhale. Espeon looked back at them. They did not meet her gaze.
They recalled her, and listened to the leaves crunch under the fleeing trainer's shoes.
Tried to settle the ache in their chest. Tried to calm the fire that still felt like it was dragging through their throat.
Tried to ignore the sting behind their eyes.
Xaviric slowly knelt where they had been sorting berries. Went back to sorting them, despite the tremor in their hands.
Despite how the world started to blur as hot tears rolled down their cheek and dripped onto the fresh berries they had been trying to prepare for their team.
It's a sunny day, the clouds lazily float across the sky and cast shadows on the world below. Xaviric stands in the shade of an old tree. A great, large thing- perfect for a tire swing, really.
After a moment, they sink to the ground, one leg folded to their chest, the other stretched out in front of them.
"You wanted a house here," they murmur to themselves. Or perhaps, the world, "You were gonna build it," they could see it so clearly. The patio would face the sunrise, the bedroom would have a wide window facing the sunset. There would be a small kitchen, and a garden. A living room with a fireplace, and pictures of Xavier's successes along with whatever book Rica would have published by then. Her little clefairy doll would have been mended from the wear and tear, since Rica had a nervous habit that could have resulted in ruining the soft fur of her favorite doll.
Xavier had picked out rings. Fucking rings, he didn't know when, or if he was ever going to give them to her, but-
A shaking inhale cut off their spiraling thoughts.
Xaviric's chest hurt.
They pressed the heels of their palms to their eyes and tried to settle their breathing.
Now isn't the time for this- this sentimentality.
They knew it would be a bad idea to return here- they should be focusing on trying to figure out how to fix this problem, not-
The sob that tore itself free from their throat dragged against their own senses.
He would have said yes, to build a house with her.
She would have said yes, to have a future with him.
It was dark when they finally woke up. Stars shone above, blinking through a leafy canopy.
Was that constellation... Lyra?
'Rica would know, I should go ask...' their thoughts wandered off, brow furrowed. They should ask Rica? But-
Cold air bit at their skin, they shivered.
Have they always been this bothered by the cold?
No-
Yes?
A dull throb started to build in their head.
They were leaning against a large maple, when did they get here? Weren't they running? No- They were returning from training, right?
They took one look at the path.
Took one look towards Willowshade Village.
Something in their mind screamed run away
Another part of their mind demanded to stand still.
Ultimately, they ran the opposite direction from the village, vision blurring with tears they had no clue why they were shedding.
Their legs ached, the sound of their footfall felt too loud and too heavy and too light and too quiet all at once.
'Xavier- I-I need to find Xav- ... what?' their run slowed to a walk, until they were standing still in the center of the path.
'Something is wrong,' the realization felt suffocating.
Headache. The throbbing, terrible headache that made them feel like they were going to pass out.
...Water. They need to go get water. Something cold. Something to drink- to splash on their face and ground themself with.
So, they continued their trek down the path. The lake should be close by now.
They remember coming here and playing with... with Xavier? No, no- playing with Rica.
'I-Laughter. I remember laughter. I was with my favorite person. Always with my favorite person.'
That was true. That part was always true, no matter which way they looked at it.
Laughter. Playing with the only person in the world that mattered.
Sharing pecha berries, watching Illumise and Volbeat when the fell, a promise shared and secrets kept.
They took another step toward the lake-
Stumbled.
Tripped?
No-
Their legs just... gave out.
They collapsed with a wet, sucking squelch, knees deep in the cold mud.
Another shiver tore through their body, but that wasnât what made them freeze.
It was their reflection.
Wrong.
Wrong.
Wrong wrong wrong.
Their hair was too long-
No. Too short?
Their nose- off.
Their jawline- had it always been so sharp? So soft?
They couldnât tell.
Nothing was familiar.
And then they saw the other half of their face.
Or- what should have been their face.
It wasnât missing, exactly. It was there.
But smothered beneath... something.
Static? Bone? Chitin? Smoke?
It shifted when they blinked, never holding one shape long enough to understand.
Their throat tightened.
The reflection twisted again- a cruel mirror to their pain. Of their pain.
Their breath caught.
They choked on a sob that never made it past their lips.
"Hey- Hey! Are you okay, man?" the stranger's voice was close. Too close. Who-
A hand on their shoulder.
Terror. A jolt. They ripped away from the figure, whipping around fast enough to send the other stumbling backwards. "D-don't touch me." The voice felt like static scraping out of their throat.
...Whose voice was that? It came from their throat, from their lungs, but that is not the right voice. Too high- too low. Too... wrong.
Not theirs.
Not anyoneâs.
"Are- are you okay...?" The stranger's voice came again, hesitant.
They didn't answer. Couldn't.
Another beat passed.
"...What's your name? I'm Damian."
Their breath hitched. Their heart pounded. Ached.
They tried. They really tried.
"Xav-"
No.
No, that wasnât right.
He wasnât⊠he couldnât be
"Ric-"
No again. Too soft. Too bright. Too not them.
Silence.
Then, through a throat full of what felt like broken glass, a whisper.
"Xaviric."
It didnât fit.
But it didnât hurt as much as the others.
It would have to do.
They raised their head to look up at Damian, lips parted to ask-
The moonlight caught on their face.
Damian saw it fully, now.
He took a step back. Then another. Turned, and fled.
He didn't even scream.
Just the sound of his retreating footsteps.
Just the crunch of leaves.
Just the slap of panic in the mud.
But the look on his face? The expression that Damian had? Would haunt Xaviric forever.
Because now- now they know they weren't imagining things.
They didnât move. Couldnât.
Just... knelt in the cold silt, staring at where Damian vanished.
Lips still parted in an unasked question. Breath shallow.
Like maybe, if they stayed still long enough, theyâd disappear too.
The wind picked up. Cold.
It caught on the wet edge of their sleeve.
It almost felt like an embrace.
And in the quiet that followed, the only thing left was the sound of their breathing-
Too loud.
Too alone.
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She went to grab her phone, gaze lingering on the dark screen for a moment. She debated with herself over calling her best friend Xavier, to tell him where she was going. Ultimately, she decided against it. Xavier was training today, and a big tournament was coming up. This was the first task she was assigned alone, and it was an easy one -- which is why everyone entrusted it to such a novice. Even though Rica knew that, she tried not to think too lowly of the task. There was still a chance she could discover something truly amazing! At least, that's what she kept telling herself.
Rica adjusted her bag on her shoulder once she stepped through, pausing to look behind her at the outside world one more time before heading into the dark ruins. She tried to reassure herself that it was normal for her Xatu to act that way, and that she was just nervous about going on her first solo mission. "One step at a time..." Rica whispered to herself. She took a deep breath, and continued onward down the dark stone corridor. Rica was silently grateful for her foresight to pack a flashlight, as she pulled it out and turned it on with a gentle 'clk'. The sound of it, though quiet, felt as loud as thunder in the silent ruins -- and it took Rica a moment to adjust the light, so instead of being a small focused beam she would have a wider ray to illuminate whatever chamber she may come across.
The sound of Rica's footsteps echoed uncomfortably down the long hallway, an uneasy metronome. Her eyes scanned the walls, intricate, swirling designs leading her further and further in, while unmoving, carved eyes watched her every move. She kept whispering the same mantra to herself, trying not to think too much about how anxious being here made her feel... then, she came across the first chamber. She paused, steadying her hand as best she could, and stepped forward.
The chamber was... disappointingly normal. Cracked walls lined with faded patterns of Unown -- it must have been a great mural, at one point. Now all that was left was a forgotten, empty room. It was relieving, to an extent. Rica pulled out her notebook and carefully copied the patterns down to the best of her ability. The sound of pencil sketching on paper filled the small room, the echo carrying down into the next corridor until it was swallowed by the silence. When Rica looked back up at the wall she had been copying the pattern from, her pencil stopped. The line she had just copied wasnât there anymore. Or was it? It was there, just... warped. Curved. Like it had slithered when she wasnât looking. Her stomach dropped.
The wall had changed completely. The more Rica stared at the same spot on the wall, the more it felt like the mural was shifting -- changing, right before her eyes. Curves that weren't there before now flowing downwards, eyes from the carved Unowns shifting to stare back at Rica. She let out a small, shaking exhale, and looked back at her notebook.
"It- it must be the shadows... a trick of the light, yeah." she tried to reassure herself, her voice broke, sounding small and all to sharp in the empty room. She held her pencil to the paper once more, but couldn't bring herself to copy the pattern anymore. Especially with the feeling that it was changing anyways, sketching down the symbols felt like an exercise in futility.
So, she put her notebook away. She kept her gaze in her bag for a moment, scared to look up. She knew something was watching her, she hoped it was just the strangely fluid markings on the wall. One more deep breath.
Her breath caught in her throat. Something shifted in the air. Heavy. Watching. Waiting.
Rica swallowed. Finally looked up.
And an eye stared back.
An Unown. Not one of the patterns from the wall, but an actual Unown. Staring right at her. It looked... sickly, and wrong. It wasn't any shape Rica recognized, the closest thing she could think of that matched it were the punctuation Unowns, but even then... they still had phalanges. This Unown didn't, it was a single eye floating in front of the wall. Looking into its wide, quivering eye, Rica's heart ached. The poor thing was looking left and right, looking for someone... or something.
The only sound that accompanied her was that of her footsteps, and the deafening pounding of her heart. She would pause now and then to gaze at the wall, and made a small mental note that everything was becoming... 'Newer? No... maybe, it's just less touched by time?' Rica decided to stop pausing to look at the wall, and to focus on the little Unown in front of her. It swayed while it floated, and kept pace with her. Too far to touch, but too close to ignore.
Then, she saw it. Another Unown, writhing face down on the ground. This one was bigger than usual, and a completely different shape -- another shape she had never seen documented before. It almost looked like an 'A' Unown, but it's eye had four extra prongs, like an 'X'.
It... was crying?
Rica felt a pang in her chest, and the knot from earlier started to form in her throat again. The single 'dot' Unown had left her mind momentarily, and she knelt down to the XA Unown. Her hand shook slightly when she reached out to it -- she had no clue what was ailing it, or how to comfort it, but she had a gut feeling that a potion or Oran berry wouldn't help it. So, she did all she knew... she quietly placed a hand on it, and helped turn it over.
She tried, and failed, to quiet the horrified gasp that left her lips. This Unown had two pupils, staring up at her in a wide, terrified gaze. Tears dripped out of it's eye, and it let out a shrill sound that made her head throb and vision blur. She sat there, frozen for a moment, before she heard another cry -- something responding to the XA Unown's cry.
And it was getting closer. Quickly. It was enraged, but, as soon as Rica spotted it, she realize it was also similarly ailed. However, instead of fear, or sadness, it was angry. This -- this VI Unown had already started to summon it's Hidden Power. Rica had no choice but to flee. She ran down the closest hallway, narrowly avoiding the attack. She was running blindly. Tears blurred the corners of her vision, fear gripping her chest. She wasn't supposed to be here, and she knows that now -- if only she had figured it out sooner.
She hoped it wouldn't be too late. That she wasn't in too deep. Something in the back of her mind told her that this hope was terribly misplaced, that it would be better to give up now, let the Unown rip her apart.
She kept running. As far as her legs could take her. Into the depths of the ruins.
'I should have stopped running' was the only thought in her mind when she came across it.
If it were just the ER! Unown, maybe it would have been okay. Maybe she would have been okay. But it wasn't just the one fusion of three.
She didn't know how many Unown were stuck together in this macabre mockery of what she thought she knew. Eyes stared out at her, some looked angry, some looked sad. Others, lost and confused. Painfully so.
It bristled, but made no noise other than frightened panting, and a low, growling hiss. Rica whimpered out her command, "E-Espeon, please..." was all she could mutter. Please what, exactly? Rica didn't know.
Which is one reason why Espeon did not move. It stayed between her and the amalgamation, still. It was guarding her, but without a command being issued... Rica's espeon took a brutal hit. The sickening sound of her gemstone cracking rang through the ruins, but even worse than the sound of gem cracking like glass, was the way her Espeon cried out in pain. It sounded wrong. Yes, it was a sound of pain -- but something was off about it. The cry sounded distorted.
Through the corridors, through the empty rooms with walls that watched her leave, through the caution tape. She didn't stop running, not even when she collided with something- she didn't stop running until she got back to Willowshade Village. She knocked on the door, panic in her voice as she cried out for help.
No one answered.
She went to the next house, louder this time- Lights shone through the window... before going dark. She heard the unmistakable 'clk' of a door locking.
The next house. Her hand trembled when she knocked this time. Her hair was soaked and her body felt heavy and her voice raw.
No one answered. No one answered the in the next house either, or the next.
It wasn't until Rica saw her reflection staring back at her in the darkened window that she realized why her cries for help were never answered.
There, sitting under her brow, over her left eye, was an Unown - no... it wasn't sitting there...
It was part of her face, now. Fused with her flesh.
A sob tore itself out of her throat. She stopped looking for help.
Rica's arms tightened around her Espeon's form. It still hadn't woken. She wasn't sure if it ever would. She refused to think about her Hypno's state, too. Couldn't think about it's state.
She just trudged onward. To the treeline on the other side of the village. She didn't know where she was going, not really. Just that she had to leave.
Her legs gave out on the path. She didn't even remember what happened, had she tripped or...?
Her vision went dark as the world tilted.
--- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- ---
Xavier had been training. He returned earlier than usual, because Rica didn't answer her texts, and he was getting worried.
He found her on the side of the road. He didn't notice the unown fused to her face- or didn't care. She looked like she was in pain, and that's the only thing Xavier recognized in the moment.
So he lifted her in his arms and carried her off the path.
Xavier only realized something was wrong when he tried to put her down and realized that he couldn't.
Realized that she was... stuck?
Rica's hand twitched. Xavier felt it as if it were his own.
Something in his chest stuttered. Something close to dread.
Xaiver couldnât tell where Rica ended and he began anymore as the realization sank in.
Her pain burned in his chest. Her memories blinked through his mind. The way she used to point at constellations he couldnât name. The way her hand would tremble when she was nervous, even when she tried to hide it. The way she clutched her clefairy doll close even when they were well past the haunted well.
And now... he wasnât sure if he was even Xavier anymore.
Or if she was Rica.
They were something else now.
Something new.
Something broken, and rebuilt in the shape of a bond too strong to unmake.
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