Stuck Somewhere In A Dream

hobbies: giving myself unnecessary anxiety

Whenever people try to give tips on madd and say like “avoid triggers” its so bizzare to me as someone who first noticed signs of their madd at like 9 years old. since I was so young I never “grew out of the imaginary friend phase” and I have a two different day dream modes, one where im fully immersed and seems to be the more common/talked about style but the other mode where its basically like a kid with an imaginary friend like im really never not day dreaming. Even if im with friends or shopping my paras are ‘there’ with me laughing at our jokes or looking at clothes with me. Its just such weird advice to avoid triggers when literally existing is my trigger

also with the “avoid triggers” thing like literally anything could set me of i could see a flower and i’m like “oh my para would like that” and then i want to daydream about them. or if i see any type of art it’s like “i can make a daydream about that”

you can never forget that moment when it clicked that you’re not the only one who daydreams excessively and there’s actually a name for it

Depression and Anxiety is like radiation. There’s always a little bit of it in the background but not enough to kill you. Then once in a while you get a free trip to Chernobyl.