If Your Wings Won’t Find You Heaven

Is it permanent? This time, Probably.

I’m tired of these cat and mouse games. You’re either in my life or out. But this constant punishing me for slight mistakes, something I said, something I did out of necessity, for my safety. It’s toxic. You can’t claim to care about me and then throw a fit when i inevitably make a mistake, or when we have to keep myself safe.

You never explained why any of my ‘mistakes’ upset you, or why what I said is wrong. It was just immediate blocking. And we’re tired. We can’t play games anymore. It’s draining and we have enough going on.

And at this point. I care so much for you… but I think it’s time we just say… we can’t apologize for protecting myself. At the end of the day, if you care about me, you’d understand that we have to protect myself first and foremost.

I wish you all the best.

STAG

-Doe 🤎

And

At the end of the day I am still the one who holds the depression and negative emotions, including what my Host felt every time you blocked her for doing something you deemed as wrong.

I do not forgive you for that. And I’m going to make damn well sure she doesn’t know that you’re back to this game again, because she has enough shit going on. She explained why.

It was for our SAFETY. And you don’t get to throw a tantrum over her putting our safety first. Like it or not, you are someone on the internet, not in our family. Her loyalty is to us first and foremost and our safety is paramount.

You know who you are. This isn’t the first time, but it is the last.

~Atlas 🌊🪼

(This is what I’m doing at you, by the way. How fitting that it’s my Dad)

Falk? You're still alive?

I love fish, and the ocean and nature. And the mooooooonnn! And vampires! And music! And ironically enough… BTS. (STAG does too.) STAG has a dual bias of Suga and RM, while I’m a JK bias. I think he’s cute, especially when they were first debuting. I’m watching old stuff with STAG, he was precious when he was young!

I am a depression symptom/negative emotion holder of my System! We don’t have a collective name yet!

But our host is STAG, and she runs our main account, @the-local-metalhead and one that she hasn’t used in over a year, @sleeptokenandghost

I’m ageless (I think?), but act young sometimes, I don’t think I’m a little? I just like being cute and nice.

I am very attached to my source, and adore all things sleep token. I consider Vessel and II to be my dads as they are the creators and writers of my source, and will call them as such. Don’t like it? The block button exists.

I do also adore III and IV, and they will also get lots of love on this blog, I promise!

Stag and I usually blur because our system has a core and facets, but when stag is asleep me and doe, our other facet, can play! So we’ll try to add signoffs if Stag is also with me!

Tags are:

#🪼🌊.re -> reblogs

#memories of the past -> source stuff

#Dad Vess -> my dad Vessel

#Drum Dad -> my dad II

#whispering waves -> me yapping

#scaled friends -> fish

#Atlas OT7 -> BTS

#Bias across an ocean -> my bias, Jungkook

#Shine in the sky -> moon and star pictures

#the fair forest -> nature

MAW

Lookie at the piccies Stag has of my Dad!

~Atlas 🌊🪼

hi atlas lovely. deeply sorry for taking so long to get back to you :( not been ignoring you purposely i promise

i'm personally a big fan of him in blue lighting :) kinda fits you come to think of it lol. i'm also just a sucker for their pretty lighting in general (also a big sucker for vessel at all hksgjfkjsg </3). i am EXTREMELY fond of him doing heart hands too… cute cute 🫶

My Dad does look pretty in the blue, doesn’t he? And yeahhhh! I like looking at him in blue because it’s meeeeee!

Yes, Dad doing heart hands is cute cute! Even when they are potatoes hands instead. 🤭

And a tag would be nice! Stag made me a personal tag from a line from source!

I know things are so hard.

I know you miss Vess.

I’m not going to say it’s going to get better, because so much is always so uncertain.

I will say though, you aren’t alone. You have us. And as long as we are alive, you will always have us.

We know it’s nowhere near having Vess back, and we understand that, nor do we want to ever replace it (or even suggest it). But we do want you to know that no matter what. We are here when you need us. No matter when that is, be it now, tomorrow, 5 days, or five years.

🫂🫂🫂