Augustine

I'm not gonna lie that sure I'm terrified of what lies ahead but I'm sure now I'll be great wherever I'll be.... That anxiety is no more within me....

And I'm living my life to the fullest now...

It's that time of the year again

9th Sept. 2025

Today marks exactly 2 months since I've completed my master's degree!!

Question from my 2023 self - Will this degree be worth it? Am I doing the right thing?

Answer from the present self - Yes, you'll not regret it a bit.... Never!! You're doing the absolute right thing... You'll surely excel in this degree....

But,

I'm just frustrated after this degree ended.... It's been 2 months since I'm just sitting and trying on getting any internship or job opportunity.... Unfortunately I'm not getting any of them......

People just keep on saying that I'll get it eventually.... And as the days are just passing by, I'm getting more and more frustrated at those people too.... I've gotten rejected in so many places.... I've got a chance in one of them but there's no accommodation facility which made me just reject it!!!! It hurts more than hell now.....

And now today I'm just done with everything!!!! I just can't get anywhere I know it now!! No matter how much I prepare, I'll fail in those exams..... I know this!

Exam season started.... It's my first day of exam... And I'm not feeling that exam feeling within me idk why lol....

It's not that I haven't studied... Yeah I did a lot but still not getting that feeling

I was watching Power Ranger Samurai and Super Samurai these days..... And I again went crazy after I saw Antonio....

Oh god he's been my crush since I was 12!!!! It was the same feeling again the moment I saw him now....

People say crushes fade with time.... But in this case I would say it's timeless....

Not a hater, but I was a super swiftie since 2012

But I lost that connection with her music now..... Her recent album - The Tortured Poets Department, I can hardly relate to two to three songs in that whole album.....

Her themes throughout all her eras are all the same.... The only time I found some uniqueness in her is during the Reputation, Folklore and Evermore era.

I loved her country albums too... The game totally changed when she came into the pop world.... That's where she started to become basic.....

Her music now became like - someone broke my heart due to my own reasons and here's a song I wrote about it....

I am really tired of her music now....

I no longer have any interest in what's gonna be her next brand new album other than the re-recordings.... I'll be really happy if the Rep Tv comes out soon but I am not interested in her new albums anymore ..... Cuz now it'll all be about football and that's what she does... She changes her lifestyle and all according to the guy she dates.... And then make a song about it.....

I'll say grow up comeon, you're 30 above now.... And you're still writing the same songs about breakups like you used to write when you were 16 or 17....

Her songwriting is really on another level.... I'm not gonna lie but please invent some really good themes mannn.....

I don't even consider her like a real artist.... She's indeed a smart business woman....

✅ not gonna prepare for ugc - net exams

✅ gonna improve my computer skills more and more

✅ have to work on myself more and more

✅ if you feel ignored in a room full of crowd, then that room isn't for you!

✅ not all classmates are your friends, keep them as 'classmates'

✅ enrich the bonds which values you most.... The bonds which made you a real person

✅ need to work on my anger issues by doing meditations regularly

✅ to gain much more patience, passion in the field I am studying

✅ have to do a strong comeback after falling apart in my career in the last semester and last internal exam of this semester

✅ developing the habit of consistency and discipline in studying habit daily