Kiana Khansmith
Game of Thrones Daily
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Today's Document
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art blog(derogatory)
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Origami Around
Misplaced Lens Cap
Xuebing Du
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
One Nice Bug Per Day
Keni
"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
NASA
wallacepolsom
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
noise dept.
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@the-apex-system
I made a system pride flag! Hope you like it! Feel free to use
Brown = How shit the experience is
Purple = A nice blend of colors like the blend of alters
Green = Growth and recovery
Red = Love sloping down into
Blue = Sadness
(this is a joke)
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we’re so inactive here, because so much hurts. there’s so much going on. we’re kind of calling apart, and yet still somehow seeming to hold it together. i don’t even have words for how wonky everything is. it’s all just wrong.
maybe one day we’ll be able to remember to post here more often.
i hope you heal
this is just a vent, with more venting in the tags.
we got discharged by yet more mental health professionals for being “too ill”. the mental health services that would be better suited to us don’t want to touch us because we aren’t ill enough (read: we aren’t, to my knowledge, actively suicidal). we’ve been out of work for a year, most parts refuse to sleep due to nightmares, and when we do sleep, we’ve found evidence that at least on of the littles wake the body up. our memory is non-existent, and we’re not coping. but go off about how we’re fine because we’re not trying to die, i guess. sure. you know, it’s not like we need some sort of help to have any hope in the world of getting back into work and trying to be a functioning member of society. someone else will probably take this down when they realise i’ve been on here. i’m just fucking tired of this shit.
one of the most important things i’ve learned in therapy is that when you’ve experienced prolonged trauma in your childhood, pleasure feels uncomfortable. like, not that you don’t feel it, but that when you do feel it there’s an impulse to make it stop, because it’s extremely unfamiliar. and pleasure can mean many things, as simple as feeling cozy, and as complex as feeling loved. the neural pathways for feeling good have not had a chance to develop, and the neural pathways for feeling bad are quite practiced. feeling good, too, takes conscious practice.
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learn the difference between your intuition guiding you and you’re trauma misleading you
if you are recovering from a very dark moment in your life, regardless of what it might be or where you are in your journey, i want you to know i admire all the strength you have had up until now to start all over again. i know it must be scary to acknowledge all of the work you need to do in order to get better, but the fact you already want to get better, move on and feel healthy means the world and nobody should underestimate that. not even you.
Your trauma is not a sign of weak character; your trauma is a reasonable response to the experiences you went through.
tell ur persecutor alters that u love them 💖
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"Weird energy in here today" I say, referring to the inside of my brain.
my sleeping pattern ain’t even a pattern anymore it’s a freestyle that’s on shuffle
DID is not a game or a fantasy. alters are not like characters or spirits- they are NOT separate from you! this is a traumagenic disorder similar to PTSD and alters are all parts that make up a collective whole. alter information is personal information, and often it is also trauma information. this is you and your system’s shared life, history, and trauma. every single piece of information about an alter is also connected to you and every other alter as well, whether it feels like it is or not. it is not a game or a fantasy. it is reality.
things i realized in therapy:
i am allowed to be angry with people when they hurt me, even if they are sensitive and cant cope well with being told they did something wrong. their sensitivity does not mean i have to bottle up my feelings & their lack of coping skills does not make me expressing my anger abusive.
shocking, i know. truly shocking.
“I wonder how much of what weighs me down is not mine to carry.”
— Unknown
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you are not beyond help.
you are not beyond hope.
you are not beyond happiness.
wish i could like. forgive myself for being a person
