lazy in the day, heavy in the night

Avan Jogia in Now Apocalypse, season 1 episode 1 “This Is the Beginning of the End” (2019) dir. Gregg Araki

Honestly, just looking at him makes me dizzy.

Avan Jogia as Ulysses Zane in S01E01 of Now Apocalypse

“Ice Cave” by Georgia O’Keeffe and a photograph of an ice cave.

We’ve been roommates since college, and we kinda drunk messed around once freshman year.

vanityfair The 2019 Vanity Fair Oscar Party portrait studio by @MarkSeliger is officially open—and Selma Blair is here to kick it off. #VFOscars

I’ve always had a simultaneous fear of, and attraction toward, the unknown. And in these fucking dark and scary times, it’s easy to adopt a “What difference does it make?” attitude. So I often find myself in these situations where my heart’s pounding so fast I can hardly breathe. And I can’t tell if it’s excitement or terror or both. It’s not like I’m brave or anything, it’s more reckless stupidity, an adrenaline fix, throwing myself into the void to see what happens.