Through the ashes I watch you burn

Gonna be straight to the point here. I don't want to be alive anymore.

I will never be fully content with life knowing there is so much more than can only be experienced by fucking the brain around with Chemicals.

Fed up of fucking everything, in a shitty mood and there isn't even any cause of it, I just want to disappear :(

Why is everyone talking to me like shit today? I'm already in a terrible mood and people seem to want to make me feel worse, hugs are needed :'(

I have shitty feels where I'm really upset over nothing specific and I just want to stay at home and not see anyone or do anything D:

Almost in Leeds! Off to Damnation Festival to see some great music and some good friends.

>Tfw want to learn Tool on guitar but I'm not a rocket scientist or a mathematician :'(

I thought I was feeling happier and more confident about myself and my life, and I thought things were looking up, but tonight I'm just feeling like shit for no reason, I just want to cry.

:'(

Really, really worried about my health now :'(

This is the second night in 3 days when I haven't slept at all, for no reason other than my brain wants to be a cunt and do this shit to me. Fucks sake.

Today was a good day, I found out I have a job interview next week, got Tusk by Fleetwood Mac on vinyl cheap, and found a cheap copy of Great Expectations, I've not read it so felt I had to pick it up. Good vibes all around :D