look at the fucking clouds

When i tell you i did not get a lick of sleep. i had a nightmare every time i closed my eyes nothing even to do with the movie mind you. my chest hurt and i kept waking up sweating and my anxiety was SPIKED

Mark i don't know what you did but i wish that Simon guy didn't die and I fully understand this bloodymary stuff now bc damn i want that boy to have a happier ending

Simon is in his "Final Girl" outfit (the one with his hair tied back and his bandages on, after he cleans himself up with the medkit) with both arms when he gets "blipped" by the Anomaly. He hasn't begun to mutate yet at this point, but he does fall on his ass and crack his brother's pendant, and he's throwing up blood:

I have seen many Bloodymary fics use the Anomaly as a "he got teleported to the PHM universe" plot point, and then proceed to make him half eel with one arm. If you want to be a stickler and keep that continuity going, this is the state Simon's in!

This doesn't count towards people who already know this and are just wanting some disability rep and/or monster!Simon tropes. Both are cool!

But I did want to put down a continuity note just for reference purposes! Here's some more images:

He is in extreme distress, crying, dirty, with the beginnings of the blood eating through his arm. He also has burns on his face, and he'd be mourning that pendant for a hot minute. I mean he sobs over it.

He also has the memory of seeing The Red-Eyed God burned behind his eyelids, and has pretty severe flashbacks of it at the mere thought. Note the thousand-yard-stare:

This is most likely the cause for his mental decline we see later on. Simon can also see the God staring at him through the reflection of the blood, which is mentioned in my PTSD masterpost as something he'd have an immediate severe aversion to (both blood and reflections).

See here for more on Simon's mental health after witnessing the God, if you want angsty whump ideas.

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Inventory time!

Missing- arm, sapling, large amounts of radioactive human blood

Accounted for -unmutated Simon, the iron lung black box, clothes and sheath

When I’m happy I forget my ex religion exists.

They spent so long telling you that you’ll only be miserable when you leave but Im the happiest when I forget about it. Because it was a point of pain for me and I strongly think it was painful for Simon too. For a little bit I was thinking of it when I didn’t have anywhere to go every morning before school or Sunday and Wednesdays. The freedom was foreign but Simon got out of Eden and stayed in the COI prison for a while. So he would think of how strange his freedom is as a convict not an Eden Survivor.

But often I see him turn to religion in moments of joy in fics but… I really don’t think he would. If the religion operates on shame and fear tactics, he would remember it when he’s scared, when he’s lonely, when he’s confused. When he’s trying to understand his trauma and he turns to guilt and repentance because Eden told him that would redeem him. Prayers to save him during and after nightmares. Reminders of the Father when he feels judged. Feeling controlled and contained like he was at Eden when Grace or the Eridians try to study him or keep him from danger.

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Markiplier threw the first punch.

bloodymary parallels make brain go brrr

"You found the SM-8...?" "Yeah, I did."

this is mostly for me for when I finally write my fics,,

Personality notes

Simon's fear response is not fight. Its Freeze. He can fight, sure, he can choose when he needs to protect himself. But before the Horrors™️ kick in, everytime hes faced with something freaky or beyond his comprehension, he freezes. He goes absolutely still, only really moving his eyes as if his peripheral will show him if something is behind him. When he sees the first Freaky Ass skeleton. When the blood splatters on his face. He's absolutely still.

Those big anger moments I see people base his character on are ONLY when he is At his Breaking point. (I.e. SHUT THE FUCK UP- which was so fucking good oh my God- only got to that point bc of all the SHIT going on with the hallucinations and the Hull Breach and the fire, of course the repetition was going to make him snap. But thats not his go to nor his default.

He comes back to his apologies again and again. He keeps trying, keeps bringing it up, possibly until he feels better or until the person forgives him.

He haaaates someone being condescending to him. He doesn't like people thinking hes an idiot.

Comfort! Items! Comfort! Items!!! He's has a very clear nervous tic/self soothing touch. It was of course the thing his mom gave him, but I think it also switches to the seed. I need to see him getting attached onto things and not wanting to let them go.

Pats things in thanks. I think it only happened once but he gave something a little pat pat when it worked the way he needed it to.

Acting choices/ physicality

He tilts his head when curious, or when looking at something he doesn't understand its so cute thank u so much mr. iplier

He has a very closed mouth way of talking when casual. Really only opens his mouth for full words in those big emotion moments.

His face scrunches up when feeling things!! Like it almost physically pains him.

Quick Eden note

It seems like Simon Never believed the shit Eden was trying to teach him. "Whats more likely?" // "They say they're gone but we can See Them." // "I didnt choose either."

Definitely has his quirks from growing up there- Reverence for the seed, calling the unknown convict "brother" despite it all, "when we die, our bodies will become the soil."