That Antha Girl

Most people treat Jung like wall art. They underline. Memorize. Rehearse words like “shadow,” “projection,” “individuation.”

But almost nobody asks the dangerous question: What happens when these ideas stop being concepts, and start becoming your actual behavior?

That’s where Jung stops being fascinating.

And starts being terrifying.

Your shadow is not poetry. It’s the version of you that speaks before your conscious mind arrives.

It’s the anger you justify instantly. The jealousy you rename as “intuition.” The attachment you call “love.” The spiritual superiority that hides a fragile ego. The loneliness scrolling silently behind your screen. The emotional dependency dressed up as loyalty.

Jung wasn’t writing for intellectuals. He was exposing unconscious people.

And I write these posts for the same reason. Not to sound deep. Not to collect people who romanticize psychology.

I write because most people are being controlled by parts of themselves they’ve never met consciously.

Every day, someone destroys a relationship through projection. Every day, someone sabotages an opportunity because the unconscious fears transformation. Every day, someone becomes addicted to a persona they built just to survive childhood.

And still, they think the problem is the world.

This is why I keep dragging Jung into daily life. Because psychology becomes useless the moment it cannot enter ordinary human behavior.

If you cannot recognize your shadow during an argument, your shadow owns you.

If you cannot detect projection when you feel intense attraction, your unconscious is choosing your relationships for you.

If you cannot observe your persona when you’re chasing validation, you will slowly forget who you actually are.

Jung’s real warning was never: “Become a Jungian philosopher.”

It was: Become a conscious observer of yourself.

Real shadow work isn’t dark aesthetics. It is catching yourself in real time:

When envy rises, when manipulation leaks out, when victimhood becomes comfortable, when emotional hunger disguises itself as love and when ego disguises itself as morality

That moment of observation changes everything. Because the unconscious only controls what remains unseen.

And maybe this is the uncomfortable truth most people avoid: If a post hits you deeply, it’s not because the words are magic.

It’s because a part of your unconscious recognized itself, before your ego had time to defend.

We built a YouTube channel for the same reason. Because some truths demand more than a post, longer breakdowns, real patterns, the kind of depth that actually rewires how you see yourself.

If you’re ready for the next layer, the link is below.

Carl Jung said the greatest illusion is believing you are living consciously. The truth is, nearly 90% of your life is being driven by patterns from the Collective Unconscious, ancient blueprints you never even knew you were following.

Ask yourself honestly: why does your suffering repeat? The same rejection. The same abandonment. The same quiet rage humming at the exact same frequency for years. Jung called this a Complex, an emotionally charged knot buried in the psyche, more powerful than your conscious will. You want one thing, yet you keep choosing what your childhood wound demands. That is not weakness. That is an unconscious loyalty you haven't yet brought into the light.

And the tragedy deepens when you realize how attached you've become to your Persona, the mask the world praised, the version that kept you safe, the face that earned you love. You wore it so convincingly that the real self, the unfiltered truth, was pushed underground. Jung called that exiled part the Shadow. And the Shadow does not vanish. It waits. It leaks through your unexplained anger, your sudden collapses, your bitterness toward people who did nothing wrong. It speaks through the very patterns you swear you want to escape.

Then, somewhere beneath the exhaustion, another voice stirs. Not your conditioned self. Not your survival mask. Jung might describe it as the Anima or Animus, the inner counterpart that longs not for external validation, but for psychological wholeness. It does not scream. It whispers completeness. And it will not rest until you stop performing and start integrating.

This is the call to Individuation. Not self-improvement. Not spiritual escapism. Individuation is the slow, excruciating process of withdrawing your projections, facing your Shadow, and dismantling the Persona that has suffocated your aliveness. It is the moment you stop mistaking the map of who you became for the territory of who you actually are.

At first, this feels unbearable. The old structure begins crumbling. Relationships built on the false self can no longer hold. But something sacred emerges in that space, not a new mask, but the Self. The archetype of wholeness Jung placed at the center of the psyche. And slowly, you realize you are no longer being lived by your unconscious. You are, for the first time, truly living.

Because a person who has integrated their Shadow stops leaking power. A person who has removed their Persona stops begging for approval. A person in genuine dialogue with their Anima or Animus becomes psychologically magnetic, not by performance, but by presence.

That is the terrifying and liberating truth Jung left us: the unconscious will either direct your life while you call it fate, or you will make it conscious and finally meet the one you were always meant to become.

Go Deeper:

There is a reason certain people enter your life and instantly disturb your internal order, not because they are your enemies.

But because they arrive carrying a fragment of yourself you no longer recognize.

Carl Jung observed that what remains unconscious does not disappear, it returns through encounter. It appears in admiration, obsession, resentment, idealization, contempt.

The psyche has a strange economy: whatever the ego refuses to include, life presents externally.

That person whose presence tightens your jaw, whose confidence feels excessive, whose ambition feels offensive, whose emotional intensity feels unbearable, before you label them, pause.

Ask a more difficult question: “What structure inside me is reacting?”

Jung did not see projection as deception. He saw it as unfinished self-knowledge. The psyche protects identity by dividing experience into acceptable and unacceptable qualities, discipline stays Aggression is exiled, competence stays desire is exiled. Kindness stays authority is exiled.

But exile is temporary, the disowned returns, and when it returns wearing another person’s face, the ego calls it irritation.

This is why certain conflicts feel disproportionate, because the intensity is rarely created by the other person alone, it is created by contact.

Contact between who you believe yourself to be, and who you unconsciously prevented yourself from becoming.

Jung called the larger movement toward integration individuation. Not self-improvement, not becoming morally superior, becoming psychologically whole.

Wholeness is uncomfortable because it asks you to recover energies you once sacrificed in exchange for acceptance.

The arrogance you condemn may contain your abandoned authority, the freedom you judge may conceal your own denied spontaneity.

The person who occupies your thoughts may be carrying a quality your psyche wants returned.

This does not mean every difficult person is a teacher, it does not mean tolerate manipulation, disrespect, or harm.

It means ask a second question before escape: “Am I facing danger, or am I facing a disowned possibility?”

That distinction changes lives, and Jung never asked people to memorize his words, he repeatedly warned against turning psychology into doctrine.

He once wrote:

“Learn your theories as well as you can, but put them aside when you touch the miracle of the living soul.”

The point was never to worship the map, the point was to become capable of reading your own, maybe the people who disturb you are not obstacles.

Maybe they are coordinates, not showing you who they are, but showing you where you end.

GO DEEPER:

https://youtu.be/_YNVOttNNvA?si=zCDNo57pPOg5Vzb5

Carl Jung once suggested that the greatest escape is not running away from the world, but running away from yourself.

And maybe that’s why so many people stay busy, not because they love the noise. But because silence asks questions they are not ready to answer.

Some bury themselves in achievement.

Some lose themselves inside relationships.

Some become the “strong one” for everyone else while quietly breaking in places nobody can see.

But eventually something strange happens, you reach a point where the old version of you stops working.

You can no longer force excitement, you can no longer pretend connection, you can no longer keep abandoning yourself just to remain acceptable.

At first it feels like emptiness, but maybe it isn’t emptiness at all.

Maybe it’s the soul refusing to survive on performance anymore. This is where many sensitive people begin changing.

They become quieter, more selective,

Harder to manipulate, less interested in explaining themselves.

Not because they became cold, but because they finally understood that being endlessly available is not the same thing as being loving.

Jung believed what we ignore inside ourselves does not disappear.

It waits, the abandoned emotions, the hidden anger, the fear of rejection, the desperate need to be chosen.

Until one day the inner conflict becomes impossible to ignore, and that moment changes everything.

You stop asking: “Why doesn’t everyone understand me?” and start asking: “Why am I abandoning myself to be understood?”

That shift is painful, because awakening does not feel like becoming someone new, it feels like losing everyone you thought you had to be.

Your old identity begins collapsing, old desires stop fitting, old relationships start feeling unfamiliar.

And for a while, you stand between two versions of yourself, too aware to go back.

Too unfinished to move forward.

Jung called this individuation, not becoming perfect, becoming real.

And maybe true peace begins the moment you stop performing and start returning to yourself.

What if the person you’ve been searching for, was the version of you hiding underneath survival all along?

Do Deeper:

Carl Jung once wrote that people will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own soul. And the older I get, the more terrifyingly true that becomes.

Some distract themselves with endless noise, some hide inside ambition, some disappear into relationships, some spend their entire lives performing strength while secretly collapsing inside.

But every human being eventually reaches a moment where the performance stops working. A strange emptiness appears, not because life is failing, but because the soul is starving.

I think this is the stage where many empaths begin changing in ways other people can’t understand.

They become quieter, harder to impress, less emotionally available to chaos.

Not because they’ve become cold, but because they finally realized how exhausting it is to betray yourself every day just to remain emotionally acceptable to others.

Jung believed the shadow grows dangerous when ignored, and maybe that’s why so many sensitive people spend years feeling internally divided.

One part of them wants peace, another still craves validation, one part wants truth, another fears abandonment, one part is deeply intuitive. Another is still addicted to emotional survival patterns learned in childhood.

Most people never notice this inner war.

They just keep running, but some people eventually stop, and when they do, everything changes.

The need to constantly explain themselves fades, the hunger to be chosen softens, the obsession with proving their worth slowly dies.

Not because they “healed perfectly” but because they became conscious of the unconscious patterns controlling them.

That’s the painful part nobody talks about, awakening is not beautiful in the beginning.

It feels like watching old identities collapse in real time, the people you once resonated with begin feeling unfamiliar, the version of you built for survival starts suffocating you, even your old desires no longer fit the person you’re becoming.

And for a while, you feel lost between two worlds, too awake to return to who you were, too unfinished to fully become who you are.

Jung called this individuation, the process of becoming psychologically whole, not perfect, not spiritually superior, just real.

And maybe that’s why certain people develop such a powerful presence with age.

Because after years of confronting their own darkness, they stop needing masks to feel valuable.

There’s something deeply unsettling about a human being who no longer needs external approval to remain connected to themselves.

You can feel it immediately, their silence becomes calmer, their eyes become heavier with depth, their energy no longer chases, no longer performs, no longer begs to be understood.

And strangely, that’s often when they become capable of truly loving others for the first time.

Not from attachment, not from fear, not from loneliness.

But from wholeness.

🎥 Full psychological breakdown here:

Most people think healing turns you softer.

Carl Jung understood something far more unsettling: Real healing makes you impossible to manipulate.

There comes a stage in life where an empath stops begging to be understood.

Stops shrinking themselves to keep others comfortable. Stops explaining their pain to people committed to misunderstanding them.

And slowly, something changes. The same sensitivity that once exhausted them becomes psychological armor.

Not because they stopped feeling, but because they finally understood human nature.

They begin noticing things they ignored before: the people who only loved them when they were easy to control, the ones who disappeared the moment they stopped over-giving, the smiles hiding resentment, the kindness that existed only while benefits remained.

Jung believed every person wears a persona, a mask designed for acceptance.

But age forces some people into a painful awakening: you cannot spend your entire life performing a version of yourself just to avoid abandonment.

That realization changes an empath forever. They stop fearing silence, stop fearing solitude, stop chasing validation from emotionally unavailable people.

And that’s when they become dangerous in a way the world rarely understands.

Because someone who is no longer terrified of being alone, cannot easily be controlled anymore.

The older empaths become, the quieter they often grow, but it’s not weakness.

It’s depth, like the ocean at midnight:

still on the surface, yet carrying entire storms underneath.

And perhaps this is what Jung truly meant by individuation, not becoming perfect,

but becoming whole enough that your inner world is no longer at war with itself.

Most people spend their lives trying to escape themselves.

But the strongest souls eventually do the opposite: they turn inward, face their darkness and return carrying a calm that unsettles everyone who still depends on masks.

Maybe that’s why certain people become unbreakable with age. Not because life stopped hurting them.

But because suffering finally taught them who they really are.

🎥 Full deep psychological breakdown here:

THIS QUESTION HAS SHAKEN MILLIONS OF PEOPLE AROUND THE WORLD.

Many people are asking,

“If God knows everything, why did He create the devil?”

“If God already knew Lucifer would rebel, destroy lives, spread evil, tempt humanity, and become Satan, then why create him at all?”

“Wouldn’t a loving and all-knowing God have stopped evil before it even began?”

Some people have become confused because of this question.

Some have become angry at God.

Some have even started doubting the existence of God entirely.

But here is the truth most people have never been taught.

The existence of Satan is not proof that God failed.

It is proof that free will is real.

And until you understand free will, love, holiness, obedience, and justice, this question will never fully make sense.

Now let us go deep.

LUCIFER WAS NOT CREATED AS THE DEVIL

This is the first truth many people miss.

God did not create Satan evil.

Lucifer was created holy, beautiful, wise, powerful, and glorious.

Ezekiel 28:12 to 15 describes him as full of wisdom and perfect in beauty. He was an anointed cherub that covered the throne area. Verse 15 says clearly,

“You were perfect in your ways from the day you were created, till iniquity was found in you.”

Notice that carefully.

Iniquity was not created inside Lucifer by God.

It was found in him through pride and rebellion.

Isaiah 14:12 to 14 reveals what happened. Lucifer became lifted up because of his beauty, position, and glory. He desired to exalt himself above God.

This means evil was not something God manufactured.

Evil was the corruption of something that was originally good.

Just like darkness is the absence of light, evil is the corruption or rejection of God’s goodness.

GOD CREATED BEINGS WITH FREE WILL

This is where the hidden truth begins to unfold.

God did not want robots.

He wanted beings capable of genuine love, worship, obedience, and relationship.

Real love cannot exist without choice.

Think about that deeply.

If a person is forced to love you, that is not love.

If a person has no ability to reject you, their acceptance of you has no meaning.

Love only becomes real when rejection is possible.

That is why angels had choice.

That is why humanity has choice.

Deuteronomy 30:19 says,

“I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing. Therefore choose life.”

Joshua 24:15 says,

“Choose this day whom you will serve.”

God created beings with the ability to choose Him freely.

Lucifer abused that freedom.

Adam and Eve also abused that freedom.

And many humans still abuse that freedom today.

But the existence of choice is not proof that God is evil.

It is proof that love is genuine.

IF GOD KNEW LUCIFER WOULD FALL, WHY CREATE HIM ANYWAY?

Now we enter the deeper mystery.

Yes, God knew.

Isaiah 46:10 says God declares the end from the beginning.

Nothing surprises Him.

But foreknowledge is not the same as causation.

Knowing something will happen does not mean you caused it to happen.

For example, a parent may know their child is stubborn and may eventually make terrible choices. Yet the parent still gives birth to the child because the possibility of love, growth, redemption, and relationship is still worth it.

God knew rebellion would happen.

But He also knew redemption would happen.

He knew sin would enter the world.

But He also knew Jesus would come.

Revelation 13:8 speaks of Jesus as the Lamb slain from the foundation of the world.

Before humanity even fell, God already prepared salvation.

That means the cross was not God’s emergency plan.

It was already part of His eternal wisdom.

THE EXISTENCE OF EVIL DOES NOT CANCEL THE EXISTENCE OF GOD

In fact, many times it points toward Him.

Think carefully.

If people say evil exists, they are already acknowledging that objective morality exists.

But if there is objective evil, then there must also be objective good.

And if objective good exists, then morality is not merely human opinion.

It points to a higher moral standard beyond humanity.

Without God, words like evil, justice, wickedness, and righteousness lose ultimate meaning because everything becomes relative.

The very outrage people feel against evil actually reveals that deep inside humanity there is an awareness that good and evil are real.

And that moral reality points toward a moral Lawgiver.

WHY DOES GOD ALLOW SATAN TO CONTINUE?

Another painful question people ask is this,

“If God is all-powerful, why not destroy Satan immediately?”

The answer is because God is not only powerful.

He is also just, patient, wise, and purposeful.

God is allowing history to unfold so that the full consequences of rebellion can be revealed before all creation forever.

Sin must fully expose itself.

Pride must reveal its destruction.

Rebellion must show its end result.

One day nobody in eternity will ever be able to say,

“If we rebel against God, maybe it will lead to something better.”

The history of sin has already proven otherwise.

Romans 8:28 says God works all things together for good for those who love Him.

Even what Satan meant for destruction, God can turn into testimony, growth, deliverance, and redemption.

Look at Joseph.

Look at Job.

Look at the cross itself.

Satan inspired betrayal and murder against Jesus.

Yet through that very cross came salvation for the world.

THE CROSS REVEALS THE DEEPEST SECRET OF ALL

Here is the hidden truth many people overlook.

God did not stay distant from human suffering.

He entered it Himself.

Jesus came into this broken world.

He was rejected.

He was betrayed.

He was beaten.

He was crucified.

The God people accuse of allowing suffering stepped into suffering Himself.

And through the resurrection, He defeated sin, death, and Satan permanently.

Colossians 2:15 says Jesus disarmed principalities and powers and made a public spectacle of them.

Satan’s defeat is already guaranteed.

His final judgment is certain.

Revelation 20:10 reveals that one day the devil will be thrown into the lake of fire forever.

Evil has an expiration date.

THE REAL QUESTION IS NOT “WHY DID GOD CREATE LUCIFER?”

The deeper question is this,

Why does humanity continue rejecting God even after seeing the consequences of sin throughout history?

Every war.

Every hatred.

Every corruption.

Every act of wickedness.

Every oppression.

Humanity keeps proving what happens when creation tries to live independently from the Creator.

Yet even after all of this, God still offers mercy.

That is the shocking part.

He still forgives.

He still calls people back.

He still saves sinners.

He still transforms lives.

That is not weakness.

That is love beyond human understanding.

BIBLE VERSES TO STUDY

Ezekiel 28:12 to 17.

Isaiah 14:12 to 15.

Genesis 3.

Deuteronomy 30:19.

Joshua 24:15.

Isaiah 46:10.

Romans 8:28.

Colossians 2:15.

Revelation 20:10.

TEACHING SUMMARY

Lucifer was not created evil. He was created good but chose rebellion through pride.

God created angels and humans with free will because genuine love and obedience require choice.

God’s foreknowledge does not mean He caused evil. Knowing something will happen is different from forcing it to happen.

The existence of evil does not disprove God. It reveals the reality of free will, morality, justice, and humanity’s separation from God.

Jesus Christ entered human suffering, defeated Satan through the cross and resurrection, and will one day remove evil forever.

So the next time someone asks,

“If God knew Lucifer would rebel, why create him?”

Remember this.

The story of Scripture is not merely about the rise of evil.

It is about the triumph of redemption, the power of love, and the victory of God over darkness.

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Let us learn together.

Let us grow together.

And let us pursue truth with humility and wisdom.

Start by pulling him out of the fire and

hoping that he will forget the smell.

He was supposed to be an angel but they took him

from that light and turned him into something hungry,

something that forgets what his hands are for when they

aren’t shaking.

He will lose so much, and you will watch it all happen

because you had him first, and you would let the world

break its own neck if it means keeping him.

Start by wiping the blood off of his chin and

pretending to understand.

Repeat to yourself

“I won’t leave you, I won’t leave you”

until you fall asleep and dream of the place

where nothing is red.

When is a monster not a monster?

Oh, when you love it.

Oh, when you used to sing it to sleep.

Here are your upturned hands.

Give them to him and watch how he prays

like he is learning his first words.

Start by pulling him out of another fire,

and putting him back together with the pieces

you find on the floor.

There is so much to forgive, but you do not

know how to forget.

When is a monster not a monster?

Oh, when you are the reason it has become so mangled.

Here is your humble offering,

obliterated and broken in the mouth

of this abandoned church.

He has come back to stop the world

from turning itself inside out, and you love him, you do,

so you won’t let him.

Tell him that you will never know any better.

James Hollis, Finding Meaning in the Second Half of Life.

James Hollis is an interview on the Keep Talking Podcast - on being a recovered nice person, and stepping into roles for oneself..

He says: "many of us were raised to be nice all the time, and nice means accommodating whatever is demanded in your environment. If you are nice in all directions and its a reflexive niceness - sooner or later it will violate your own personhood, and sooner or later is will violate the expectations of your own soul.

Just the capacity to say no to someone "no I do not want that", or "no I am not going to allow you to do that to me" - are moments where one is not being nice, but one is being very real, one is being authentic.

The opposite of a reflexive niceness is not evil - its called authenticity. Reflexive niceness is a protection, an old protection, its what we actually call co-dependence. There is a power differential, and the power is always in the hands of the other, never within me, and therefore I don't have the right to say no I don't want to do that. I have to co-operate with you.

As Jung said: "Neurosis is the flight from authentic suffering", so suffering either way - if you have inauthentic suffering, you will be hit with a depression that comes from the unlived life. If you risk and step into life more fully, you will have a lot of anxiety, but thats preferable to depression, because depression ultimately steals from us our capacity to engage life, and to grow and develop. We can stay stuck in all our patterns, our avoidances, but sooner or later something shows up and pathologises."

“Each morning the twin gremlins of fear and lethargy sit at the foot of our bed and smirk. Fear of further departure, fear of the unknown, fear of the challenge of largeness intimidates us back into our convenient rituals, conventional thinking, and familiar surroundings. To be recurrently intimidated by the task of life is a form of spiritual annihilation. On the other front, lethargy seduces us with sibilant whispers: kick back, chill out, numb out, take it easy for a while . . . sometimes for a long while, sometimes a lifetime, sometimes a spiritual oblivion. (As a friend advised me in Zurich, “When in doubt, administer chocolate.”) Yet the way forward threatens death—at the very least, the death of what has been familiar, the death of whomever we have been.”

The daily confrontation with these gremlins of fear and lethargy obliges us to choose between anxiety and depression, for each is aroused by the dilemma of daily choice. Anxiety will be our companion if we risk the next stage of our journey, and depression our companion if we do not. Anxiety is an elixir, and depression a sedative. The former keeps us on the edge of our life, and the latter in the sleep of childhood.

That we’re “too much,” “too sensitive,” “too emotional.”

They paint us as the storm — unpredictable, dramatic, destructive.

But they never talk about why those storms start.

They never admit how often the people who call us “crazy” are the ones who fed on our empathy.

They don’t mention how often borderlines end up tangled with narcissists —

people who crave adoration but can’t return it,

who see our depth and think it’s something to control instead of something to cherish.

Here’s the truth they don’t tell you:

The only people who tend to “hate” borderlines are the ones who can’t survive honesty.

Because when you love someone with BPD, you don’t get surface-level affection.

You get someone who sees everything.

Who can read you faster than you can lie.

Who feels your energy shift before you speak.

To the emotionally dishonest — that kind of perception feels dangerous.

To the narcissist, it’s intolerable.

But for people who are kind, grounded, and capable of empathy?

Loving someone with BPD isn’t chaos — it’s connection on fire.

Because once we’ve done the work, once we’ve learned our peace,

we love differently.

We love bravely.

We love with eyes open.

They say we “fall too fast.”

No — we just don’t pretend.

We don’t play it cool when we care.

We’ve spent too long feeling invisible to ever hide our truth again.

When we love you, we mean it.

Completely.

They call us “clingy,” but what they really mean is present.

We notice things most people miss.

We remember what you said when you were half-asleep.

We care when you think no one’s watching.

Our sensitivity is not weakness — it’s our superpower.

They call us “intense,” but what they’re really saying is:

“We’ve never been loved like this before.”

Because our love doesn’t whisper. It roars.

It doesn’t fade over time. It deepens.

We don’t do lukewarm.

We are all-in or not at all — and that’s terrifying to people who live half-alive.

And that “fear of abandonment” everyone loves to mock?

That’s not manipulation. It’s memory.

It’s the residue of every time we gave love that wasn’t returned.

Every time someone promised safety then left without a word.

But when we find someone who stays — who listens instead of judges —

we heal.

And our love becomes the kind that can make someone believe in love again.

Narcissists hate that.

Because they thrive on confusion, not clarity.

They want to be adored but never truly known.

And we — with our x-ray hearts and sixth sense for truth —

we see right through them.

That’s why they call us “crazy.”

Because we notice what they’re trying to hide.

Because we won’t play their game quietly.

But for those who meet us with compassion, for those who are real —

loving a borderline is extraordinary.

You’ll never feel invisible again.

You’ll never question if you matter.

You’ll never experience love in half-measures.

We’ll make you feel seen.

We’ll defend you when you’re not around.

We’ll love the parts of you you’re scared to show.

We’ll look at you like you invented constellations.

Because to us, love isn’t a performance — it’s purpose.

So no, we are not the monsters people make us out to be.

We’re survivors.

We’re feelers.

We’re healers who learned to love in a world that called us too much.

And if someone tells you horror stories about loving a borderline —

ask who they are.

Because it’s usually the ones who couldn’t manipulate us anymore.

We are not the storm people run from.

We are the calm after it —

the proof that love can be passionate, loyal, raw, and still safe.

Loving a borderline isn’t dangerous.

It’s divine.

Because when we love you —

we love you like it’s sacred.

And we mean every word.

— author : unknown

She rests her cheek upon her fist as though holding her skull in place, as though the bones beneath her skin are itching for permission to fall apart.

Her eyes are vaults where sleepless nights have gone to rot.

They flicker with the half-dead glow of someone who has memorized the architecture of madness and now sketches it idly on the back of her mind.

She is tired... not the soft kind,

but the kind that drags its nails inside the skull and whispers that gravity is a suggestion, and sanity is a rumor.

Her thoughts shuffle like inmates in a ruined asylum, pacing, pacing, pacing each one convinced it deserves the throne.

And she?

She leans forward with the languid grace of a creature long past fear, long past hope,

long past the tedious chore of pretending she's human.

She taps the table once.

A signal.

A summons.

A dare.

Something inside her answers not a shadow, not a ghost,

but the version of herself that speaks in cracked lullabies and feeds on the hours she loses staring into nothing.

It coils behind her eyes, stretching,stirring,smiling.

She feels the shift that exquisite tilt

where the mind unbuttons itself

and lets the dark in.

And she waits,

bored, beautiful,

dangerously patient,for the moment the last barrier breaks...

and the thing she's been keeping out finally takes her hand and sits beside her.

Not to replace her.

Not to possess her.

But to whisper the truth:

She was never alone

in her unraveling.

She was the one

who started the pulling.

The longest journey most of us have to take is from the head to the heart.

~ C. G. Jung

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As stated in our marriage book:

A wife will do well to understand that Eve’s struggle may very well be hers. And, if Eve in her perfection was grappling with being unthankful, how much more will women with wayward flesh and an imperfect husband do the same?

To be honest, a great deal of our talks, posts, and counseling today seems to fan the flame of discontentment for women. Though there are certainly many cases where women need to show strength in the face of dysfunction, there are many women that would do well to recognize that an unthankful heart is a bottomless pit. As Spurgeon said, “To whom enough is never plenty, plenty will never be enough.”

In normative situations, a woman has a choice: love the man she has or chase after the mirage of what she wants him to be. In such cases, a woman will often find that the lenses of thankfulness have a way of beautifying her marriage.

- Dr. Raymond Force III

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I’m here to be remembered.

I didn’t walk through the void

for five years

just to dilute

my light

so somebody else

could swallow it easy.

I didn’t break myself open

just to make my truth

palatable.

If my words sting,

that’s your reflection talking.

If my tone feels sharp,

that’s the edge

of your own truth

scraping to GET OUT.

I am NOT the comfort,

I am the MIRROR.

I’m the pause

BETWEEN

who you WERE

and who you’re BECOMING.

I’m the FRICTION

that pulls the LESSON

out of your BONES..

It may seem harsh,

but it’s realignment..

TRUTH

tuned to the frequency

of your

NEXT LEVEL.

I pour from FULLNESS now.

I’ve been the empty cup,

the overgiver,

the one who bled empathy

just to prove

she was worthy..

I’ve been the soft place

that EVERYONE landed on

while I was CRUMBLING

beneath

their weight.

NEVER AGAIN.

Now

I pour from a place

of OVERFLOW,

not OBLIGATION.

I learned how to pour on purpose,

how to flavor my water

with DISCERNMENT.

If you come with CHAOS,

you’ll sip IRON.

If you come with HONOR,

you’ll taste HONEY.

Because I AMPLIFY energy,

not ego.

I MIRROR frequency,

not flattery.

I am HOME to many,

but a TRIGGER to most

and I’m okay with that..

My field doesn’t beg

to be understood;

it just

IS.

My page isn’t for the curious.

It’s for the CALLED.

They’re not following a person.

They’re following

the FREQUENCY

I UNLOCKED

through everything

I SURVIVED.

It’s for the ones

who’ve walked through silence,

who’ve swallowed their roar

for

FAR

TOO

LONG,

and are FINALLY READY

to come back

to THEMSELVES..

I am a walking frequency shift.

Every word I write

REARRANGES

timelines.

Every post

is a MIRROR

held up

TO THE SOUL.

I’m not here to perform.

I’m not here to fit a mold.

I am here

to share from my ESSENCE

from my SOUL,

not my surface.

If you love me for that?

Beautiful.

If you like me for that?

That’s grace.

But whether I am liked

or not,

I will NOT

filter or water down

my frequency

TO FIT IN.

I WAS BORN

TO STAND OUT.

I speak TRUTH,

and truth

doesn’t always come

wrapped in pretty.

Truth is my love language.

Sometimes

it cracks the SHELL

so the LIGHT

can POUR in.

I am just being

MYSELF

fully,

deeply,

UNEDITED.

That’s it.

That’s the gift.

That’s the offering.

If you read my words

and flinch..

GOOD.

That means they’re WORKING.

That means the part of you

that was HIDING

just looked up

and saw the LIGHT.

I don’t need to convince

anyone

of my purity,

my power,

or my purpose.

I AM the proof.

And my frequency

will filter the rest.

So no,

I’m NOT

for

EVERYBODY.

I’m for the ones

READY TO COME HOME

to THEMSELVES

UNAPOLOGETIC,

UNDENIABLE,

and UNFILTERED… 🧩🧬

To fear the fall

is to fall

in your mind

again and again,

before the edge

ever nears.

You grip tomorrow

like a blade,

thinking worry

will soften the blow.

But it cuts today instead.

What hasn’t happened

haunts more

than what has.

You suffer twice—

once in dread,

Once in truth,

If truth ever comes.

Doobie - Beauty in the Boogeyman

Thinkin' of the memories & photographs; I can't recall; living too fast. Drunk on drugs & higher than a whiskey cask. History of miseries that all taught me that you got to go through it to get through it; to know where you fell.. I done did it; I've been through it.

Sometimes I scare myself 'cause I know what I'm capable of. It's getting harder to tell who the hell have I become, so I look at the monster inside me when I need reminding of who I am. I'm never going back again.. That's the beauty in the boogeyman.

Another bottle, another battle, another road, they just want it.. Another smoke to pull me over, another night I want to give in..

Go through it to get through it; to know where you fell.. I done did it; I've been through it.