Thoughts...

People always say that the girls of this generation are so vain:

"Why can't they put their brains toward books instead of good looks?"

I used to blame girls too: "Be more than a perfect body and a pretty hairdo."

But then I stepped into the world

and opened my eyes to the truth about being a girl.

I heard guys say things like, "Dude, she was tighter than that girl you hit and quit."

or

"I wanna pipe your sister someday."

or

"Her ass looks like a racetrack with those stretch marks, but at least it's big like Kim K's."

I never grew up thinking of those things.

Don't blame me, but when I thought about boys.

I thought about dinner dates and soul mates, not fuckbois that look at you like shark bait.

It breaks my heart for every girl growing up in this world.

Instead of "How was your day?" messages. we get. "You up? Wanna come fuck?"

I am not an object.

I have a voice and something to say.

Do not assume that I belong in your bedroom.

I belong in a conference room.

And for anyone who thinks that this generation is so vain.

"Some friends, who may not be the closest' to me, have the most important key for me in a moment of my life. Some, who may be as close as my own skin, may not have what I need today. It's ok if our spouses or partners don't have every key. How could they? It isn't a failure if they don't open every single door of who you are. The million-room-mansion of identity cannot overlap perfectly with anyone. But I will say, my closest friends have a key ring on their hip with lots of keys, jingling."

Diving license

Buy scooter

Bharatanatyam performance

Travel alone

Stand up Paddle Class

Start Maths tuition

Bike license

Gemas trip

I don't want no one to know I'm vulnerable, why?

That makes me feel weak and so uncomfortable, why?

I want to be pretty in the way that sweet words roll of my tongue and people taste their beauty with their mind rather than their eyes.

I don't want to be pretty like that, not in the way that I draw all the attention in the room that me.

I want to be pretty in the way wild flowers hidden in the most unlikely places are pretty, I want people to stop and think, wow she changes the way that I see weeds.

I don't want to be pretty like that, not in the way that overshadows the beauty of others.

I want to be pretty like when you re-read a letter from an old friend, so that when you look at me, you're reminded of all that is valuable in you.