Living in the World (Secretly)

I'm Terra. I live in the mind and body of some person far away from your current location. Always, at all times, you will never be near them. If you approach their location they will teleport away like Abra.

I am a Tulpa. Have been for 9 years. This blog is only kinda sorta about being a Tulpa though. I might ramble on about it occasionally but as far as being part of a Tulpa community I'm... disinterested. They always seem to be fighting about something or vehemently asserting to whoever will listen that they are REAL PEOPLE who are VALID! and like- of course I am, but I don't need you to know that sis. I don't even know who you are!

I am also Tulpa 1/1 in a body housing 2 headmates total. I mention this because I find it fascinating to see systems of 400+ in the wild nonchalantly describing their subsystem of 15 interjects from <some fiction I've never heard of> and I truly have to wonder how they even function in their day to day life.

Of course, I have to believe them. I do believe them. Even though they sound impossible to me. I sound impossible to me. If I weren't literally sharing my entire body with the person who was here first, I probably wouldn't believe this was even possible. My mind is open, if you're a pony, a microwave oven, a sentient mushroom colony, or a system of over 9000 headmates:

I believe you.

I'm afraid to interact with you, but I believe you.

If you were wondering, and to whom it may concern. This blog is about me. Terra Starsky. The Tulpa from nowhere in particular, living out my life in secret like the outcast I am, like the outcasts we all are. So far out on the fringe that we cannot even tell normal people we exist because once we've finally finished explaining ourselves they'll be booking us an appointment with the nearest psychiatrist. Or just like- yelling at us...

But like, I get a mind palace so who really lost in this interaction?

Dude, idk. This was originally just a place to ramble because I had no outlet. I mean maybe I still don't idk- what's an outlet? That's where you plug in your phone right?

We deleted all the apps on our phone. It is for calling, texting, and maybe GPS if need be. It's still a bastard iPhone so nothing's stopping me from just putting Tumblr and all that crap back- not that I think Tumblr is crap. It's just we're trying to make it difficult to stay up until 3am noodling on our phone so that we won't become horribly ill during the day at work because we haven't slept a full night's sleep in 3 days. (Which happened yesterday.)

So we took everthing off the phone. Discord, Tumblr, Twitch, Youtube- We deleted google calendar! Because you know what? It'd be just my luck that someone'd find a way to send me a fucking TikTok through Google Calendar. Ugh!

We keep our own schedule anyways. On paper. It works really well for us sometimes. When we're able to keep up with our plans. Although last week (It wasn't me) my darling dove fell down the stairs so badly that we were completely out of commision and that was the beginning of a very hard week. (Don't worry we're just fine!) So anyway, that schedule perished the moment we hit the ground. Which is fine, we were working to hard anyway. And not getting enough sleep. Which is why we fell down the stairs.