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“ pay attention to the story. ” “ there are certain things about myself that i romanticize. ” “ this isn’t me being a dreamer. ” “ it’s just me trying to turn this husk of muscle and dirty fingernails into something more. ” “ for so many years i’ve held words beneath my tongue. ” “ my taste buds are revolting against me. ” “ everything leaves before it hurts us too bad. ” “ the body knows all that language cannot say. ” “ my skin was a million tiny mouths yelling ‘ listen ’. ” “ the body is a premonition. ” “ your sadness delivers itself into your organs. ” “ worry drops pebbles into your stomach. ” “ love evaporates and condensates onto the roof of your mouth. ” “ do you think it’s okay to fall apart ? ” “ we live in a  ‘ break it , you pay ’  kind of culture. ” “ there’s no room for mistakes. ” “ we give up so easily. ” “ we are stronger than what these fragile bones can take. ” “ we’re so ashamed of that which fumbles and falls through our fingers. ” “ we walk around carrying  ‘ closed ’  signs around our necks. ” “ i love you for how human you are. ” “ tectonic plates are shifting beneath my skin. ” “ there’s a new continent in my chest that i want to call by your name. ” “ kill me by giving me a grenade and telling me it’s your heart. ” “ i don’t want to know what your favorite color is. ” “ i do want to know what color you bleed. ” “ this is what it must feel like to be the sea. ” “ what else can this heart do but break or fall in love ? ” “ my palms are mines , and you’re just a finger’s length away from leaving me splattered across your chest. ” “ you are just a handful of billions of cells. ” “ you walk like you’re trying to hold the sky up with your palms. ” “ no one ever talks about what came before the flood. ” “ at first , they thought it was a miracle. ” “ i can hear how a heartbeat echoes. ” “ i no longer feel anything. ” “ my fingers are hollow shells , this skin is a shroud. ” “ we are uncharted mine fields. ” “ i shouldn’t ask questions that only i know the answers to , should i ? ” “ have you counted the freckles on your cheeks ? ” “ screw falling in love. ” “ i don’t want your sentimentality. ” “ what i’m trying to say is that you’re not allowed in. ” “ i don’t want to think of all the suns that will rise without you. ” “ i want so bad to forget. ” “ there are certain people who leave scars when they go. ” “ history repeats itself , sometimes in ways you wouldn’t imagine. ” “ there’s redemption in the night sky tonight. ” “ all i’m left with are paper cuts where your hands used to be. ” “ sometimes touches me and i bleed for days. ” “ what the hell do i do now? ” “ we measure catastrophes by how close they hit to home. ”

“ what did she tell the others? ” “ listen to your inner child. ” “ you miss 100% of the bank robberies you don’t commit. ” “ did humanity ever make a sound? ” “ why do birds suddenly appear every time you question the government? ” “ the ocean is full of things that would kill you. ” “ the ocean is not dissimilar to here. ” “ what’s it like to be a cloud? ” “ there’s no way to avoid becoming a statistic. ” “ just try to become a good statistic. ” “ if you’re happy and you know it, you’re wanted for questioning. ” “ there are no monsters under your bed. ” “ go to a church that worships you. ” “ don’t let numbers tell you what to do. ” “ you are blood and earth, not theory and chalk. ” “ everyone is beautiful and you know almost none of them. ” “ if you don’t believe, no one will. ” “ a falling knife has no handle. ” “ i don’t have eyes in the back of my head. ” “ from far away, you are merely a speck. ” “ we created the moon and will eventually destroy it. ” “ we found a little piece of heaven here. ” “ not really killing time so much as euthanizing it. ” “ those who do not win will be eliminated. ” “ if it comes back, it’s probably going to kill you. ” “ have fun tonight pretending to be something or somebody you aren’t. ” “ in case of emergency, good luck. ” “ you never even saw me. ” “ we could never touch. ” “ you are most certainly not alone. ” “ be careful what you wish for, because it probably won’t come true. ” “ life is mostly about expectation management. ” “ what do you mean no place to go? ” “ what’s lurking behind you in the shadows? ” “ death is only the end if you assume the story is about you. ” “ birdwatching goes both ways. ” “ the last thing i want to do is hurt you. ” “ everything is temporary. ” “ it is likely you will spend your entire life trying to find yourself. ” “ what doesn’t kill you only makes life longer. ” “ nature will kill you and then make new things from you. ” “ in the long run, what difference does it make? ” “ there is no proof you exist, only evidence. ”  “ i have no idea who or what you are because i cannot perceive the world. ” “ ‘there’s no harm in trying’ really depends on what you’re trying. ” “ intention is not relevant to goodness. ” “ turns out we were wrong about everything. ” “ it’s always darkest before the dawn, we are often reassured by people who are totally wrong about how the sun works. ” “ live every day like it’s your first. ”

“I am a drifter, and as lonely as that can be, it is also remarkably freeing. I will never define myself in terms of anyone else. I will never feel the pressure of peers or the burden of parental expectation. I can view everyone as pieces of a whole, and focus on the whole, not the pieces. I have learned to observe, far better than most people observe. I am not blinded by the past or motivated by the future. I focus on the present because that is where I am destined to live.”    

A Single Particle

“ i know how to open these bones with just my teeth. ” “ when i cried nobody heard me. ” “ i’m sorry that i come as an expired body, already worn and already unbecoming. ” “ yesterday i almost told you everything. ” “ shit happens in storms and we’re just caught in the middle of one. ” “ i want to be someone who isn’t a burden. ” “ you’d find a way to make it my fault. ” “ you push over sandcastles and tell me the ocean is the enemy. ” “ the worst part is that you’ll never say you’re sorry. ” “ i have trouble looking at you. ” “ when i close my eyes i see who you used to be. ” “ i guess i see you differently. ” “ it would be weird to die naked anyway. ” “ sometimes i wonder if it would be better to just sleep for a while. ” “ i feel like i have no idea what i look like. ” “ i look nothing like what i thought i did. ” “ i feel faded from my own life. ” “ i want to touch you or an open fire or whatever will hurt me. ” “ i feel like i’m living in a loop where the end is coming. ” “ i’m running out of time while i’m just sitting here. ” “ is it possible to be terrified of death and at the same time a ghost who doesn’t care if they’re drowning” “ i want to kiss you or cut you or kill myself. ” “ at some point i realized i would never come first. ” “ by then i was empty. ” “ i had to beg you to come back. ” “ it’s amazing how long you can convince yourself to wait for someone before you realize they aren’t coming.” “ the bitterness is taking over again. ” “ i feel like there are rats in my bloodstream, chewing out the good parts of me. ” “ i keep waking up unable to breathe. ” “ i could never be honest with you about what i was feeling. ” “ i stripped myself down to weeds. ” “ you need to see yourself as winning. ” “ it just hurts, i guess. that you still mean a lot to me. ” “ welcome to the world of consequences. ” “ i gave you something and you destroyed it. ” “ i wish you knew how to take responsibility for your actions. ” “ don’t look at me like that. ” “ you took everything you wanted. ” “ did you really think you’d get away with it ” “ i know you wanted it to be different. ” “ you threw yourself at others because for a second the idea of love could silence the rest of it.” “ how many people did you hurt just because you could ” “ you pushed them away and now you’re sad they won’t come crawling back. ” “ biting the knife eventually cuts your tongue. ” “ all you wanted was a happiness that didn’t taste of blood. ” “ it is an odd thing to get over what hasn’t been. ” “ chew off the parts of yourself that refuse to callus and instead keep bleeding. ” “ the wound won’t close because the wound shouldn’t have opened. ” “ there is so rarely an ending before a beginning. ” “ the snake in my veins eats me. ” “ i would have chewed my own heart out if it meant feeding you. ” “ people are mirrors. ” “ i wasn’t good enough and the blood in me is dry already. ” “ i have all these plans but my hands are a paper cup and my dreams leak on out the bottom.” “ opportunities bang on my window and i wave at them as they pass by. ” “ i sit here wondering why i can’t argue myself into moving. ”

Seems loud, is actually quiet: Scorpio, Aquarius, Capricorn

“ let the record show that they were ill-equipped to deal with you. ” “ you’ll be fertilizer regardless. ” “ might as well have interesting stories for the dirt. ” “ there is an exhaustion that comes with living. ” “ fear is the absence of understanding. ” “ horror is the act of understanding perfectly. ” “ your love will always be rooted deeper than any grave. ” “ you’ve long seen your downfall spelled out in another’s bones. ” “ the victor spoils, the loser learns. ” “ the body is rot waiting to happen. ” “ you will never have loved for nothing. ” “ quiet reflection is next to impossible. ” “ you inspire me to be better! a better ‘what’ is up for interpretation. ” “ we don’t know where you came from. ” “ we need you to go back. ” “ the dark doesn’t intend to hurt you. ” “ i lived better when i was ignorant of the sun, tucked away in your chest. ” “ and then there’s saying ‘fuck it,’ and doing what you may. ” “ if only it were easy! to wish and want for nothing. ” “ if only you weren’t less human for it. ” “ in the end there is no blaze of glory. ” “ die due to carelessness. ” “ in the span of your life there’s plenty to avoid. ” “ you are dazzling and terrifying. ” “ those words are not as removed from one another as you may think. ” “ pick a place and die there. ” “ i know you mean well. ” “ may fortune favor the fuckups. ” “ remarkable that one plane of existence can host so much, and so little, distance. ” “ learn when it’s best to bite your tongue. ” “ temper the nest of hornets in your loveless mouth. ” “ i worry. ” “ time sours, rots, renews, sours again. ” “ grief and growth live hand-in-hand. ” “ sleeping, like dying, delivers you from one world to the next. ” “ rest in crypts and wake in gardens. ” “ make room for small, fragile things. ” “ you win some, you lose some, you lie, cheat, and swindle some. ” “ stranger things have happened. ” “ you are happening all the time and should probably stop. ” “ let none be the noose. ” “ take what you can and run. ” “ gratuitous violence : selfish, satisfying, heartbreaking, and so like everything else you love. ” “ understanding builds bridges. ” “ there is a variety of sadness that makes a home in your guts and never quite leaves. ” “ being loathsome and lovely in equal measure is probably a talent. somewhere. ” “ why fear the dead, when you can fear the living? ” “ if you’re forging your own path, be prepared to light your own pyre. ” “ you can’t wrestle apologies from the sea or the sun. ” “ you were a plague none were prepared for. ” “ assholery is incurable, unfortunately. ” “ no one’s going to notice the difference between you pushing dandelions or daisies so leave them something worth talking about. ” “ you aren’t obligated to be anyone’s cure. ” “ soothe what you can, fight what you can’t. ” “ devour the monsters and you can call any place home. ” “ you’re only as lucky as your expectations are low. ” “ worse than having too many secrets is having no secrets at all. ” “ killing the monsters is the easy bit. it’s finding them that’s the hard part. ” “ there exists a tipping point between gods and monsters. ” “ your humanity is the largest burden you will bear. ” “ but you have seen yourself in the mirror. ” “ even spectres can tire. ” “ it pays to kill with kindness. ” “ you’re your own worst enemy. ” “ you’re only armed to the teeth because you’re more brittle than you’d care to admit. ” “ your ego cannot afford cremations or caskets. ” “ whether you like what you see is up for debate. ” “ whether it can be contained in a dark basement is another matter entirely. ”

“ romancing yourself is possible, narcissistic, and recommended. ” “ it’s unwise to temper creatures of flesh and bone like steel. ” “ one bad apple ruins the bunch. ” “ two bad apples leave no witnesses. ” “ you know it’s the real deal when you can see past the meatsuit. ” “ break your teeth on love. ” “ when it’s good it’s great, when it’s great it’s a small calamity. ” “ you are every mother’s cautionary tale. ” “ harpoons, while more effect than arrows, are not as wieldy. ” “ make up your fucking mind. ” “ there are plenty of fish in the sea. ” “ some just happen to be imbibed with mercury. ” “ lay them to rest. ” “ you will watch the skies. you will wait. ” “ eat the other. ” “ there will be scrapes and sutures. ” “ no loose ends. ” “ an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, a knife for the ribs. ” “ you will not be swayed by the morally destitute. ” “ decay will feed the bloom. ” “ devour death like crows, for all the feathers between your teeth. ” “ once, answers were found in mouths, bathtubs, and bottles. ” “ this time around, get inventive. ” “ accept your impending expiration. ” “ stop trying to swallow the sun. ” “ there are forces outside your control. ” “ most of them don’t care for you. ” “ many would not find you very appetizing. ” “ not all things have significance. ” “ like all delicate things, they can know no permanence. ” “ ‘just’ and ‘right’ only mean the same thing when they’re coming from very specific people. ” “ please don’t cry. ” “ you may not want to change, but the world is unforgiving and will do it for you anyway. ” “ sometimes we put our hearts in the wrong places. ” “ nothing can stay. ” “ dying is dying and rot is rot. ” “ loneliness is the fracture that never heals quite right. ” “ there is poetry in brutal efficiency. ” “ people would take your raging far more seriously if you weren’t crying the entire time. ” “ what made you so vindictive? ” “ all are ruins at your feet. ” “ you are notorious for rubbing salt in the wound. ” “ vehicular arson is not the answer. ” “ hate is a verb. ” “ holy fucking shit. just. holy shit. what the fuck. ” “ nobody really knows the nuances of what you get up to in your spare time. ” “ honestly they’re probably better off that way. ” “ busy yourself with the affairs of the living, for once. ” “ the answer is no. ” “ ohhh boy. you. fuck you. yes, you specifically. ” “ delete your search history. ” “ please practice blinking. ” “ others can be unsettled by your inhuman ability to maintain an unbreakable stare during casual conversation. ” “ what did you ever do to deserve this? ” “ in all probability, something terrible. ” “ you are a crayon, get out of the toolbox. ” “ none will love the butcher. ” “ don’t take it too personally. ” “ wash the memories from your mind and body. ”

Smile

Ontology of Self

“ these are the empty pews ” “ it’s much too late to repent ” “ this is your unmarked grave ” “ what else is there to live for besides your one true love ? ” “ you never thought i needed protection ” “ did i ever even have a choice ? ” “ he told me i was an obligation ” “ you make me forget what it feels like to miss someone i was never allowed to call mine ” “ are you my antidote or my poison ? ” “ this story may be cliche  ,  but it’s ours ” “ is there really any way it can end other than in bloodshed ? ” “ i’ll lick your wounds and then you’ll do the same for me ” “ if you start to keep score  ,  can you still call it love ? ” “ brace for impact ” “ this girl right here is a fucking goner ” “ with you there is no faking it ” “ this boy  ,  he’ll be the death of me ” “ i was too young to realize you were the one that should have known better ” “ i never did have an ear for music ” “ when night falls  ,  my monster tells me he loves me ” “ you always did crave the taste of your own lies ” “ this love leaves bloodstains ” “ i’m so fucking sorry ” “ it was exhausting for both of us ” “ you are the bruises and teeth marks i find all over my body without remembering how they got there in the first place ” “ this isn’t a haunting  ;  it’s a hunting ” “ it’s probably a good thing that god forgives sinners like me ” “ i can’t tell the difference between you and the dead of winter ” “ at least winter makes way for spring ” “ i can’t decide who it is i’m more frightened of ” “ i would do just about anything to make her disappear ” “ if you’re looking for your perfect victim  ,  then you might as well set down your lanterns ” “ you won’t be able to find her here ” “ i’m the fairy tale everyone forgot about because the lesson wasn’t pure or hopeful enough ” “ i don’t excuse her and you shouldn’t either ” “ couldn’t you at least try to hide it ? ” “ i never knew you could grieve a breathing man ” “ nothing but a coffin in my ribcage ” “ you remind me of the way flowers bloom so furiously in spring ” “ are you breaking her like you broke me  ,  or am i just that special ? ” “ nothing makes sense with or without you ” “ my body didn’t know what it was like to survive without you ” “ you took things i didn’t know you could take ” “ it seems you never learn  ,  either ” “ either take everything i have or drop it all and walk away ” “ darling  ,  you are worthy ” “ you can do this  ,  you know ” “ let your heart take its time ” “ there’s someone else seeping in through the fractures you left ” “ if you’re never going to leave me  ,  then this is me leaving you ” “ find a new partner in crime ” “ someone i used to know told me that love was forever ” “ don’t try to waste your time again ” “ i’m sorry i didn’t know how to stop the pretending ” “ they didn’t deserve this ” “ some people are never worth your words ” “ come  ,  take back your hatred ” “ you can have my forgiveness but you can’t have me ”

“You’re kidding me, right?”

refusing to do any of the above while watching this hellsite burn: taurus, cancer, virgo, scorpio, capricorn