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ON PROMISES

They keep saying “Promises are made to be broken.” As if it is a fragile glass you need to put in a box with full of papers and styro to keep it from breaking. As if it is a new born baby you need to carry with all tenderness and care. Well, I do believe in that anyways. That promises are made to be broken. Aside from the fact that it was said repeatedly and I was convinced that it is indeed that way, I’ve already experienced it a lot of times, I am experiencing it and I think I will continue to experience it in the future.

Since I am a believer that promises are made to be broken, I don’t make promises that easy. Other people say the word “PROMISE” as if they are giving away coupon for free. As if they are throwing stones in the water and see how far it can go. But when I say PROMISE, it is always half whispered. Because I am so scared that it is fragile and I might break it the moment it comes out of my mouth. Promises are made to be broken and its broken pieces are made to cut through the heart of the one who received it.

When I was in high school, me and my friends PROMISED  that we will keep in touch and we will not forget each other. They are my favorite people in the world. They know me inside out. I am always scared of losing people. I always say that to them. And then they will say in return, “I won’t be gone in your life, PROMISE.” Sometimes with the word promise or if there’s none, they make it sound as a promise. Then I will say, “I’ve heard that a lot of times but it doesn’t work that way.” Then they will say “I am different from them, I won’t be gone.” Then as stupid as it is, I will believe them. I will believe that at least, if I won’t see them, everything will still be the same. How we treat each other. How we shared stories and stupid thoughts. How it will not be awkward and silent when we see each other again after a long time. But the universe doesn’t favor you always. It doesn’t work that way.

People will always come and go to your life. People will make you happy for a while; you are hoping you did the same thing to them. People promising they will never leave you but they always do all the time. People promising they will never forget you but always do whenever something new was served on the table. People promising to keep you but always throw you once they are done on you. People promising to accept you but always push you away when they don’t benefit from you anymore. People telling you they love you but making you feel nothing after they lost their interest on you.

People make a lot of promises without thinking of their impact. They will reason out and say “Promises are made to be broken” but they never thought that people will be broken as well. Promises are supposed to be a friend to lean on but in the end, it turns out to be an enemy. It is a friend disguised in good words and temporariness of things. It is a traitor that in return will break itself and turn its back on you. The tiny shards of the broken promises are dangerous. It cuts though the different part of a person. It might cause wounds and scratches that will leave scars later on.

Sylvain Reynard, Gabriel’s Inferno (via thequotejournals)