Ghost

Does anyone else not have any siblings or close relatives their age so they constantly look for familiar roles and every friend they make? Made friends with the girl a grade below me in math? My little sister now. Made friends with a caring manager from work? My older brother in my mind! I look for found family everywhere. I rarely find it, but when I do, I hold those people SO close. I'm constantly referring to my friends as my family. Anyone else?...no? Just me? Whoops.

I saw your potential, who you could've been. For that, I apologize. I see you now, and I see that we aren't compatible.

I'm never enough for anyone or thing. But that's fine. I'm enough for myself and that's all I fucking need.

GUYS I MISS THE OWL HOUSE AGAINNNN

I have mourned so many things that I am intimately married to dealing with death. Whether it be actual death or a metaphorical death, I've experienced so much of it. I am numb to it all by this point, yet I still find myself crying alone at night over the silliest of memories, the dumbest of videos.

That moment when the autism mixed adhd won't let you stop fixating on something so stupid and dumb that even you yourself are tired of thinking about. And it's so cringe to be so fixated on this one topic so you can't talk to anyone about it in fear of judgement so your stuck going crazy alone until your brain finally clicks to another thing for weeks at a time. Haha, crazy right?

It's the way goth/emo/grunge styles are influencing me again full force (except this time I'm happy LMFAO)