Don't touch the tea

It’s a dangerous weapon to hold, an instrument.

Because music tells a story in and of itself. Words aren’t needed when a melody is enough. It captivates. It snares. It scrapes your ears and the rush of the chords seeps deep into your core.

You know words without meaning. Have heard them all your life, have even said some of them with your own lips before.

Oh, but music? Music on its own... a melody that grips your heart, changes its beating and bares your soul: that needs nothing else. You could build empires, you could leave them in ashes, change the mood permeating a room with a swift move of your fingers. You could even change the course of history, if you wanted.

And yet...

It tears your heart. And yet you know heartbreak isn’t the same for you as for him. Because your love and his love are different. 

His love, from what you see, is the same as what yours used to be for others: sudden, naive, burning with desire. A flash of gunpowder and in a moment gone with the passion it held. For you, that kind of love never left anything behind. And yet here he is, clinging to the ashes, trying to fuse them with his skin when you had let so many others get brushed off by the wind.

But yours? What is this thing you call love now? 

You recognize by the way your heart fights to beat inside your chest and the coldness of the blood running inside your veins that what you used to call love wasn’t love at all. Because this time his words hurt more than all the hits and the open wounds and the bruises life has given you through the years.

Because whatever you called love before didn’t rip your chest open when they said goodbye the same way his voice does as it reaches your ears. Because they didn’t pull at your heart the way you feel with every step you take away from him, your limbs heavy, imploring you to stay. Because every fiber of your being begs you to take it all, because this pain that crushes your ribs cannot compare to the pain of being without him...

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