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You flow through the rhythm, each step gaining pace and sometimes the choreography falls apart just when you think you got it. But you brush yourself off, restart your playlist and try again with a new found burning passion to succeed.

The choreography may look simple and elegant to the outside observer but it takes immense practise to get the counts just right, to allow your heart to beat in time and feel the music flowing through your blood; energising your soul.

Life is like a dance. And if you see it through, despite the difficulty to persevere, despite others telling you the dance is too complicated and to give up, despite what circumstances seem to cloud your path.. if you persist consistently, you will be taken aback by the immense progress you made.

You will be starstruck that you were able to get this far.

i am grateful and happy hehehe x

listening to my intuition has been a major lesson. last night my mind kept telling me not to go out and instead stay at home and be cozy and comfortable. i kept getting a download to just chill and stay put in a relaxed state. however i decided to do the opposite and test how trustworthy my intuition can be.

i didn't have the best time out. lost people multiple times and didn't vibe enough to be comfortable alone. i ended up spending money but not really enjoying myself. i lost my favourite vape. the Uber driver home kept coughing. i broke nails. and now my mental state is off slightly.

hahaha. now, im not upset nor mad that i went against myself. in fact, i am extremely grateful to have been very consciously aware of all my decisions, actions and choices throughout the night. after all, this was mainly an experiment to see how much my inner talk will effect my outta circumstances. but knowing how it went i believe that i want to stand firm in trusting myself whole heartedly and following my natural bodily rhythm

if i get a 'no, i should not do this thing' best believe i won't even touch it, yet alone go do it. if i hear a giant obvious NO, i am going to honour and respect that answer. as there is a reason why im getting it and if i don't trust myself, how am i supposed to live a happy and supportive lifestyle? how am i supposed to commit to my wellbeing if i purposefully ignore it?:")

im honestly at my happiest when im spontaneously living a life that puts no boundaries on myself and allows me to live my most authentic self - exuberating pure confidence, joy and happiness in all that i do

yesterday i spontaneously decided to go out and i posted on socials if anyone has any plans - someone popped up to me and offered me a ticket for this queer rave in east so because it was something ive never been before i said hell yeee!!!

1. lucky thing numero uno - the ticket ended up being for FREEEEE. they didn't want nothing for it!!!

i was scared at first bc i didn't wanna get scammed but i carried on believing in my heart that i was gonna have a great time out

2. lucky thing is that i weent alone knowing no one and immediately in the line the person behind me asked me if i knew a mutual friend and then proceeded to tell me they met me last year at a queer friend's birthday party??? i didn't remember them but they deffo knew me and i immediately went from knowing no one to having a lovely few people to go back to if i wanted a base group! i also ended up meeting such beautiful people from mutuals of that group - extremely lovely energy through and through!!!

3. my first drink at the club was FREE. the bar tender did not charge me! i even told them that i didn't get charged the first time and then they went on to serve someone else even though it didn't work 😳

4. i got stopped SO MANY TIMES by people complimenting me, even when i was standing alone minding my business and taking everything in?? heck whilst i stood alone more than 7 people asked if they could take a photo of me .. That shit had never happened to me before . i felt so famous and loved and everyone was so kind and supportive 😭 it was so surreal

5. got free lets call it 'sweets' if you know what i mean 🤭

6. free shot

7. made so many friends, everyone was soo loving and welcoming bro - the nicest club ive ever went to

8. After the club ended I hung around as I was stuck in east and too far away to get home. Ended up making friends with random people yet again and tagging along with them to an after party. At this point I was honestly too tired to do this but I just continued cause I had a feeling it should be worthwhile. Turns out a lot of us weren't able to get into the party BUUUUUT one person lived 15 mins away from me and I jumped in an Uber with them. I think they liked me cause they were tryna touch up my thigh and move their leg so it was touching mine but bby I'm not on that I'm celibate and have self respect 🥴 I just closed my eyes and pretended to sleep and then he told me he was getting out and meeting a guy !!??? HUHHHHHH he legit jumped out the car half way told me to put my destination in and wished me a good night .. No altercation, no uncomfortable conversation, no drama, no hassle .. and an Uber directly to my house?? For free??? 😭

The thing that makes this last one ultra lucky is that you can never usually get a Uber from East east to south. Drivers simply never do that - it's too far. but the first cab he looked for he got and the driver was honestly lovely, we talked all the way home!

i got my first pair of roller skates today and im so excited!! can't use them just yet as i need to wait for the protective gear, toe guards and skate tool to arrive so i can loosen the bearings but im soooo excited to start and they look so pretty 😭