Find your freedom

Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if it didn’t go the way that it did. It’s interesting to think about what could’ve been my life if I never left. Would I still be masking the pain you caused me? Would I still be lying to myself that I was truly happy? Feel diminished or traumatized by the fact I couldn’t let the pain go even after years loving you? Would I have been wondering what life be like if I chose me? I was happy, I knew I was happy with you. I thought I was able to get through it and forget it. But yet, I felt like I was missing a huge part of myself. Almost like I didn’t recognize myself after you took a part of me away. Was forgiving you what caused me more loss?

Not me crying realizing today is the day of the show and I’m now processing the fact that I’ll be moving to Massachusetts alone for grad school in a month. I’m not ok.

Itching for more tattoos 😭😭😭

The amount of women Ive discussed issues of SA and trauma with have been an eye-opening experience for me. I hope for women so be empowered. Hoping that eventually both men and women have a clearer understanding of what it is to be aware, and therefore, finding your friends at the most uncomfortable times to make sure they’re in a safe place. Mostly, to avoid further experiences of sexual harassment, and sexual assault. But also, to have women stop feeling guilty, ashamed, or afraid to speak up. Especially me