Lotus🌺

Did I really move on?

Am I really over the love of my life?

crosses my mind everyday,

but here I am sleeping with another man every night, holding on to another man tight,

telling another man that I love him..

Talking about my future with another man,

& times I put NOTHING else above him & times I spent my LAST on this man...

I mean, is that even possible?

Is this even real?

Is a 20 year old college sophomore really capable of loving a high school senior?

This is more than lit, but the questionable part is if it’s REAL LOVE...

I know what real love is or at least I was so sprung off that fake love, I never got a feel for the real..

I used to get sick to my stomach thinking about losing the Real love of my life

But I realized I lost him the day I met him

& I realized that if I didn’t leave him my happiness and life itself wouldn’t be right.

Maybe I don’t even know what love is period and I’m wasting my time period because I’m 20 and I should be living my best life period ! 🔓