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the thing about self-diagnosis is that to have an official diagnosis you HAVE to self-diagnose yourself first and write down all your symptoms and then present them to the psychiatrist like you are defending it on trial otherwise if you go to psychiatrist unprepared and just say you feel miserable all the time and don't know why they will say "ummmm uhhhhh you probably have anxiety. probably just stress from your work lol"

I haven’t rewatched Voyager in some years, but I'm thinking about guest character Ensign Lon Suder and how in a slightly more interesting version of the show, maybe he could have stuck around for more than a couple of episodes and we could have dug into some interesting stuff like dealing with the kind of difficult mental illness and recovering from that, and reckoning with the things you did and harms you caused while your condition went untreated (and we can dig into how Starfleet does - and doesn’t always - deal with mental illness) because even if you weren’t really in control of yourself when you did those things, you still did them, and maybe even how recovery isn’t always a linear path and sometimes treatments that work for a while stop working or need to be adjusted later on, and also at bare minimum we get to have Brad Dourif show up for a couple episodes a season being a neat, weird, creepy little dude. I just think that would have been fun

about 90% of fanfiction takes place in a utopia where men are thoughtful and unsure of their place in the world

no because the second I feel like I'm "bothering" anyone I'm out