âA secretary?â Perfectly sculpted brows rose in surprise but her mouth betrayed her disappointment. âOh my poor Alyosha,â her voice dropped low so those around might not hear, and she slipped into Imperial Russian, a language sheâd always felt belonged to him. âHave you become so neglectful of your abilities you can no longer keep track of your own time? Those mundane little mortals you favor will do that to you, I believe Iâve told you this often.â
It was a scolding designed as concern, and maybe a part of her genuinely was concerned. With the seemingly unending amount of time sheâd been gifted Charlotte had sought all the magic and knowledge that that been denied and suppressed in her mortal life. Sheâd learned things in the centuries since that Alyoshaâs professors at school couldnât consider in their wildest day dreams. What a pity it was, that heâd wasted his years as a lapdog for a slowly crumbling dynasty.
âWe certainly have,â Charlotte smiled serenely, âhe has the most darling son who absolutely adores us both, Iâd almost forgotten how much I love children.â There it was, the tiny hint of sincerity she deployed like a weapon to see how much of their time together heâd blocked out. Would he remember how she spoke of her own daughter, her own flesh and not just blood, taken from her far too soon? Or simply see the sinister monster he wished to believe she was?
âYou have nothing to fear from me, nor I you.â The Russian was back, harsh against the smile on her face. âItâs time to clear the air, donât you think?â
It was an insult. It may have been spoken with concern, spoken in a language and a pitch just for him, but it was an insult. But of course, itâs what came from Charlotte, with her preferences, with her apathy, with her disdain for mankind. Even if Alyosha shouldâve expected it, the red hot coil that flared in his stomach shouldâve been equally predictable to her. When he spoke, her switched to the same Imperial Russian, flawlessly at home on his tongue. âI am merely busy. I have work, I have commitments, and I have things to do. We maybe be immortal, but even our days are still limited to twenty-four hours.â
What would she know of work? What would she know of getting lost in proposals? Of having a never ending block of meetings, one after the other? She would scoff. She wouldnât want to know. Or at least, that was how heâd always understood Charlotte. She was freedom as much as she was chaos. And just as heâd rebuked her definition of chaos, he rebuked her definition of freedom. His time was scheduled. His hands were bound by the laws he made. But he had chosen then, just as he had chosen to take her offer of immortality so many years. Just as he had chosen not to be her lapdog, but someone elseâs â as she would say, probably.
His nose crinkled when she mentioned her new pet had a child, but any biting retort he might muster died on his tongue. Charlotte was chaos and cruelty and some shade of evil. But he remembered dark nights alone, quiet, candlelit where they spoke in hushed tones of their vulnerabilities, their dreams, and their truths. Of her past, too. (His was meaningless in comparison to hers. Short. Insignificant.) It was there in his mind to suggest sheâd do some untoward to the boy. To hurt him as sheâd hurt countless. But he didnât. âYou did,â he said, measured. âI have not forgotten.â
Did he not? The doubt glinted in his eyes. He glanced from face, smooth, pointed, pretty to look through the crowds. His guests paid them no heed. âMust it be tonight?â he asked looking back at her. He allowed his features to soften. Allowed sincerity to show on his face and in his words. âCan I not have a peaceful birthday?â