Robbyâs barely had any time to process anything. He hasnât processed that heâd been near death, he hasnât truly processed that heâs now a vampire. In the small span of time heâs in the bathroom, he realizes that this is something heâll have to sit with and process later.Â
For now, all that matters is getting the fuck out of here before he loses his damn mind. He feels like if he stays here any longer, he will. He should have thought about his sensitivity to sounds but when he was dying, he wasnât exactly thinking about much other than surviving. That had been the pure primal instinct that he had focused on. He hasnât processed that, either. That heâd thought he wanted to die but instead heâd begged her to not let him.Â
When she comes back, itâs not hard for him to tell sheâs been crying. Sheâs his daughter, no matter how good she is at hiding it from everyone else, she can never really hide it from him and now that heâs a vampire, he can smell the salt of her tears in the air, he can almost taste it.Â
Robby hesitates because heâs unsure if she wants him to bring it up. Asking if sheâs okay sounds like a pretty stupid question, so he wonât do that. Neither of them are okay right now but....maybe they will be. Maybe in time, they will be.Â
Hunting. Will they end up having to kill someone? Will he finally break his do no harm vow? Fuck â he hopes not. Robby didnât think about this kind of consequence, the idea of killing someone seems to make him visibly uncomfortable. No one needs to know what heâs thinking when his body tenses and speaks loud enough for him.Â
His eyes zero in on her limp and the guilt starts to claw inside of him. Guilt is an awful beast, one that he struggles to contain on a daily basis, one that renders him silent. He wants to ask, opens his mouth to do so, but he canât quite find the words right now as if the guilt has stolen his voice from him. He decides, instead, to let it go. Â
Heâll keep an eye on her limp as they move. Itâs more pronounced than it usually is. He did that, didnât he? He forced her into that kind of pain because heâd forced her to be overexerted from her magic.Â
Is he really this goddamned selfish?Â
Heâs thankful the radio is low. It fills the silence yet isnât an overwhelming attack on his senses. Heâs out of her car and inside her house in no time, with a gentle. âHey, Iâm okay. Youâre okay. Itâs going to be fine.â As his parting words, though he doesnât know how comforting that is.Â
Once heâs inside, it feels like he can finally breathe again. Not that he needs to do that anymore, he thinks, but being in her house makes him visibly more comfortable than he had been before. Not quite as tense as before, though still somewhat uncomfortable because of how hungry he is.Â
He recalls her saying that thereâs blood in the fridge, so he makes a beeline for it. He takes a bag out and settles at the counter, using his fangs to tear the plastic open so that he can down the blood. He does it fast, like he canât quench his thirst fast enough. He doesnât care if he makes a mess of his face, blood staining his lips and dripping down his chin like the messy eater a new vampire is expected to be.Â
Robby hears her come inside and once again hesitates, wanting to check on her, but unsure of what to say. She doesnât pay attention to him, likely giving him some privacy to down the rest of the blood bag, which he does and tosses carefully in the trash.Â
It is only when he hears âhey dad?â that Robby actually looks up and in Evvieâs direction, crossing the distance between himself and the room he finds her sitting in. He should have probably cleaned the mess from his face but heâll worry about that later.Â
He walks over to the protection charm to pick it up. It doesnât burn or hurt with the change from silver to gold, and he looks over at her, tilting his head at her with fondness in his brown eyes. The affection he has for her is always there.
âThank you.â Not just for the protection charm, either. âFor everything. I know this had been....difficult on you.â Thatâs an understatement. âIâm sorry I even put you in that position.â Getting shot may have not been his fault but asking to be turned had and heâs unsure how she feels about it.Â
They havenât exactly talked much about it on the way here.Â
He puts the protection charm on and suddenly all the loud noises arenât so loud. He doesnât hear the birds fluttering about in the trees, or the dog consistently barking three houses down, or the laughter of children four houses down. Itâs a relief.Â
âIâm okay.â Sort of. âHey. No.â Robby shakes his head quickly. Heâs sure Maddie is great at dealing with newly turned vampires but thatâs not who he wants. He doesnât want someone he doesnât know to teach him. Unless...Â
âIf you want to call her, you can, but....I rather you teach me.â He trusts Evvie, he canât say the same for Maddie, a woman heâs never even met before. âYouâre not going to let me down.â That, Robby is certain of. But, he does have questions.Â
âThis hunting thing.....weâre not going to kill anyone? What if I lose control and kill?âÂ