#~phoenix

I was taggeded by @worldisfullofcolors​ and @gamezmpskhfreak​

LAST Last drink: A tiny coke can Last phone call: Butt dial from a really cute goth girl Last text message: Talking to one of my best friends about delicious vegetarian lasagne. Last time you cried: I don’t remember (dissociative block - kinda numb right now)

HAVE YOU EVER Dated someone twice: no Been cheated on: no Kissed someone and regretted it: Yes, but only to diffuse a dangerous abuse situation with someone demanding intimacy.. Lost someone special: Yes.. Been depressed: Yes, frequently Been drunk and thrown up: No Made a new friend: All the time! I made friends with a homeless girl a couple of nights ago, sitting in a park chatting for hours about astral projections and how gods work and spirits and ghosts and bipolar and DID and transhumanism Fallen out of love: No I don’t think i’ve ever loved before the thing happening now.. Laughed until you cried: yah Met someone who changed you: Yeah.. some for the worse, one for the very best. Found out who your true friends were: yeah every year or two when I have a severe mental breakdown

GENERAL How many people on tumblr do you know in real life: I know lots of tumblr users irl but I don’t interact with them on this blog for anonymity.. and i kinda ditched my old tumblr account after I made this one Do you have any pets: No, but i’m friends with all the neighbor cats and sometimes go hang out with them on the streets. i want a legal companion cat.. one day i’ll figure out how to get the paperwork for that.. Do you want to change your name: changed it legally once before to distance myself from abusers.. but it’s not.. MY name.. it’s not Phoenix. I don’t know. Probably not. What time did you wake up this morning: 5:30pm Name something you cannot wait for: friend is going to teach me how to take passengers on a motorbike! going to get cuties to hug me tight while we ride off on night time adventures! break in to national parks and gaze up at the stars or out to the ocean. go riding in to the country and camp in the mountains.. before my little bike got stolen, it was my wings for years.. i got so good at riding it, i could dance with it. it was as intuitive as running.. i missed it so much.. but now I have a new bike on loan and it’s like a huge dragon and can take a passenger! it’s scary and so fast and i’m terrified every time I ride it (so far only once).. but soon.. I will be a cool biker!! Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes Blood type: unknown Nicknames: “familiar” to one awesome demon Relationship status: single but often have my fave person in the world in bed with me and we play sometimes. no commitments. just fun nice times when we both feel like it’s good for our heads. Zodiac sign: idk Pronouns: she/her or they, whatevs is fine long as you don’t imply i’m a guy.

Favorite TV shows: Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, Pokemon, Invader Zim, Cowboy Bebop, Adventure Time, Durarara!!, Daria, The Mighty Boosh, Black Books, Firefly, Carl Sagan’s Cosmos and Neil deGrasse Tyson’s Cosmos remake, 

High school: I didn’t exist when body still went to highschool. Hair colour: purple and green stripes Do you have a crush on someone: A bit numb to that emotional world currently, so not sure. What do you like about yourself: doesn’t matter how broken i am, i would destroy myself to help my close friends. my friend family are all that matters to keep me alive. they are why i survive. they are worth saving. worth fighting for. I like that I am very fair to all people, and almost always try my hardest to be excellent. I like that it seems like i’m someone worth fighting for too. Some of my friends have saved me.. so many times. Tattoos: no Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS First piercing: abuser made us get ears pierced, they healed over. no piercings now, but likely the first consentual one is going to be getting tongue split because that seems so fricking fun! or maybe cartelidge upper ear piercings. First best friend: don’t remember First sport you joined: no. First vacation: don’t remember. probably none.

RIGHT NOW I’m about to: get out of bed Listening to: best friend breathing gently beside me Waiting for: a miracle - someone to invite me to live with them, so I don’t have to live with the cockroaches and the horrible people who talk about me behind my back all the time.. to a place with a kitchen that’s safe to use.. Want kids: no. never. no. i will not allow another child to be burdened with a broken mentally ill parent. Get married: probably only for legal perks, like to get someone citizenship. Career: lolno. disability pensioner for forseeable future. if i’m ever healthy enough to work, maybe something in cinema. I love animation. especially stop motion animation. and i’m really good at 3d visual effects. I do some hobby youtube stuff.. but don’t share it here because it’d wreck my anonymity..

WHICH IS BETTER Lips or eyes: Eyes Hugs or kisses: hugs Shorter or taller: taller - i feel uncomfy when i’m the tallest Older or younger: “your age isn’t real and and your body’s an illusion” Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous Sensitive or loud: sensitive Hookup or relationship: friends with maybe benefits.. not formal anythings Troublemaker or hesitant: depends on mood

HAVE YOU EVER Kissed a stranger: No, afaik Drank hard liquor: Yes Broken someone’s heart: maybe? idk Been arrested: No, afaik Turned someone down: Yes Cried when someone died: Yes. I still cry sometimes over my grandma. it’s been years. she was the only person in my family that really loved me. Fallen for a friend: ☑ yes, ☑ definitely, ☑ ABSOLUTELY!!

DO YOU BELIEVE In yourself: sometimes In miracles: idk.. my beliefs are getting all shaken up In love at first sight: no In heaven: no In Santa Claus: no.. 

Tagging: @lexi-rivers @mysemifictionalworld @thelabyrinthsystem​ @ravenstoneuniverse @dissociative--unicorn @personality-glitch @bedheadcrew  @elzypet @runawayalters @meeresdissent​ @tsudereokami​ @ashadowsystem​ @rage-kitty​ @stormcloudsandbutterflies​ @ourshatteredmind​

... didn’t get to 25.. but i’m still getting to know people on here..

Do it if you want to or I haven’t tagged you and you wanna be! If you wanna be untagged or don’t wanna do it you don’t have to!

3. what are your favorite colors?

phoenix: i like purple and green and blackZ: black and redL: green

5. if you could dress any way you wanted, what would you wear?

phoenix: pretty much do tho.. dress like a kid.. colorful with fluffy stuff, always bring toy plushie with me, at least a little one!Z: “spikey goth stuff, blacks, claws and horns and dark make up”L: “I’d like to try out latex”

7. do you any of your own spaces, like an individual blog? would you want to share it/them?

nah they don’t anymore

10. do you have your own private space in headspace? what’s it like?

phoenix: yeah kinda.. headspace is like.. dark cocoon cave kinda foggy space for me, but can find the others but usually am alone.. asked Z and her’s sounds the same.L: “well, it’s kind of like a room with rich red draped fabrics, like curtains from a theatre, and a door, and, there are.. ahem.. toys but not for kids”