#zsimon

I have only said those three words to one individual outside of my family. There was not a grain of romantic feeling behind those words. You genuinely changed my life for the better. Now I am trying to change my own life for the better. I live mostly day to day, but that is alright with me. I want to say those words to someone else, but a few small things hold me back. Firstly if I don't feel it romantically I feel I would be doing an injustice as you set the bar so high already. Secondly, I'm not sure I could ever say it romantically. I used to believe in true love, in romantic love. Nowadays I feel like a realist. Nothing lasts forever... and romance belongs in storybooks. I can not see how pledging yourself to someone else forever was ever a good idea in the first place. We evolve and adapt daily as a person and a species. How can two people be compatible until death without giving up some of oneself in the process? I loved you and you set the bar high. But you no longer hold the bar for me anymore.

Fuck The sun's coming up And though my head has hit the pillow There will ve no sleep while it's dark Dreamland will arrive after the sun is high Shadows the only reflection of night. Let not the day be wasted As rest is important to ones health This habbit must end in a timely manner For nothing good comes of lost daylight

To dewll on the inevitable is pointless. Yet, also brings a strange comfort. Death is a certainty for all of us. All we can hope for is to go peacefully in our sleep. My grandfather was a strong man - in spirit he is stronger than ever His muscles have begun to betray him A fight with time that can not be won. He is still the man I want to be most like And his legacy will live on These last few months have been hard on him And he has begun to look his 84 years. I am blessed to have my grandparents Fairly healthy in their 80's All alive still; quite honestly it will be strange when they are gone

I am the toxic friend no one wants around I carry all my problems and I am vocal Yet I cant seem to be comforting or involved when it comes to others problems. I used to... I dont know when it changed. Maybe I only thought I cared. Maybe thats why they all left. Maybe even those I did not voice my problems to drifted for that reason. Friendships are supposed to come and go. And we never wish to put the blame on ourselves. But I was the toxic friend and I am sorry. But it's too late You are gone and you have moved on. Toxic until the end was I. I see it now. Goodbye.