when I go inside an on-going event at Church, (Mass, FNL, etc.). This is probably the side of me that is the fakest. I'm not trying to be a dick. I just don't. It's weird. Especially during Mass. I'll see familiar faces but I'll casually make it seem like I didn't even notice them. I think it's cuz since the event is already happening, I need to zone myself in it & get in the Spirit of it. If I don't, I miss out on a lot even if I am paying attention well. It's the same thing when I write poetry, I don't like people being around me. I even ignore my sister or tell her to get out when she comes in my room while I'm writing poetry; unless she's crying. These times are just too sacred & too special for me. I need to isolate myself the way I do to be at my best for God & for when I write.(I just ingored my sister right this moment because I am again in that zone). So if you've ever seen me at church or something & you know we made direct eye-contact but I didn't respond to your waive, you now now why. I love you all, thanks for acknowledging my presence & waiving. I promise to waive back at you as soon as I can.
