#zibs

It’s now been a year and five months, I was diagnosed in early October 2020- but I’ve been asking Doctors for answers about the pain and troubles since I was 12 if that counts for anything.

I’m sorry you had to have a big event happen like that but it sounds like you got through (with a little help from the docs good stash 😉)

I just saw Red Shoes and the seven dwarves with my family.

I really loved the body positivity elements- which is the whole point of the movie is loving yourself. Whatever supposed bad portrayal of the film years ago, its not true. Its fantastic and well worth watching. SPOILERS FOR THE MOVIE IF you KEEP READING:

Something that is bothering me personally is that they got to go back to being their old selves in the end. That being said, I like how the movie ended. I dont think it should be changed, is it my own personal problem given my own personal experiences.

Since October, while my health has been at its worst, I’ve lost a fair amount of weight.

In the movie, Snow White is a big strong girl and she gets turned into this dainty, “pretty” girl. Something she struggles with is the loss of her strength. She was happy being who she was and even preferred it to the daintier version she was turned into.

I also preferred myself with more weight. I felt sturdier and stronger on top of liking how I looked. There’s no magic for me to go back to that.

So I loved the movie but its also bumming me out.

But the message is really for people to love themselves. You are not just the way you look. Its awesome! Again, to be clear, I’m not critiquing the movie. This is my own inner issue that has sprung up in connection to the movie’s specific subject matter.