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My biggest accomplishment so far in this year was to look out after myself. That me and only myself should be the highest priority.
On my short vacay, through one of the wisest man I would also call him as someone who was the closest rolemodel as a father to learn from. I gained so much, big mind explosions and unbelievable thankful for nourishing me with new perspectives. Opening my eyes, learning and getting further in life just throu talking.
Going tru my old thoughts here, all I am guessing is that perspective change and they need to in order to grow. being able to be empathetic enough to understand not only your dimension but also dimensions of others. But the feelings you feel or what people let you walk throu should not necessary eat you up. Feel them, breathe them, live with them and stand with them feelings on your own; when i accepted that, instead of fighting against them or trying to hide them or not doing what others might please, my mind got clearer and it took me awhile but i got strong enough to let them feelings go; its not about just feelings letting fading away, it is this headspace you created around those feelings/actions/words from others. Acknowledge them. not shutting them down but being able to go through stages and overcome these. And somehow it is not constraining or scaring you off, that headspace just extended a lot wider and you start building doors and windows, put plants into it and watch them slowly grow
As a result, while writing this down should help my future me to see how i've grown and what i've been through. That everyday is progress. Even tho as i am writing, i've done nothing than laying around for at least two days but still i notice change and my surrounding starts shifting and most important as well as my thoughts
For my past me, you're better now. It always gets better.
Still growing on your speed.
The gate's open but taking action and how you respond or deal with your life right now should always be in the most healthiest way with and for you and only yourself depending on your mental health in forefront.
a letter to me. you are doing good. it is okay to take time. Be the energy you want to attract. Remember Eduardo once in a while and just follow your guts and what you are passionate about
Love,
your younger self
