#zero.

For my birthday evening I am trying a live resin edible for the first time (it was disgusting. let’s see how I feel in two or three hours.) and watching a western (don’t know which one yet, taking suggestions) and having a slice of my birthday cake.

you like calling it a booty call (i've noticed you call it that more than once) to spite shane so you can defend ilya's behaviour from fans who judge him harshly. spite is fine but it doesn't make it true. not in the show that's on tv. it's clear it meant a lot to shane at the time just by how he reacts after. smiling after ilya goes to shower. he said it was fucking hot. and when ilya asks was it worth the wait shane kisses him gently and it's clear that it spooks ilya. it's not a booty call when ilya spent years trying to have sex with shane. it's not a booty call when ilya spent so much time making sure shane was comfortable and feeling good. btw you've called ilya's behaviour in the texting harrasment or predatory. if ilya fans speak of him this way then is it surprising that others do. i also don't agree about shane doesn't know he's gay so how can he want more bit of your analysis. before they have sex two different times he asks to talk. and ilya ducks. shane clearly wants kisses and softness and emotional intimacy right after sex. he brings up ilya's parents on the stairs. he talks about we didn't even kiss after vegas. he asks with who at vegas. how can he be jealous if he doesn't want ilya's time and attention on himself. he's crying in the bathroom about ilya not texting him back. he clearly wants more that he's getting. and some of these things he's gotten before. in tampa he says tuna melt felt good and it felt like we were more. that's before his coming out. he might not want a full blown relationship before tampa but it's clear he wants something and he's not getting it and it's hurting him. and him recalibrating during my moon my man (are you still mad about vegas? im not mad about anything.) to not asking for more is why he reacts that way during tuna melt. he's getting more without asking and suddenly he's very aware what more looks like and he spooks in a major way.

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