Without bandages
After that failed training, Leithan and Zeres didn't talk to each other for so long time. Usually it takes one week or two to get back to normal, but this time it was not like this. Even my words didn't help the situation, no matter what i use, no matter how deliciously food is made by me, no matter what actions i did. I was anxious and worried about them for 3 months. Even our pirate stuff didn't go well since that silly training. I wish i was not insisting into it. Maybe Zeres was right: i was not made for fight. I'm just a cursed child after all. And yet....something was still bothering me. The desire to be stronger at least in something. I still wanted to prove everyone that i can be strong and defend myself. And today....i started my own training. What kind of training?....To keep my eyes closed without bandages.
For two days i was inside my room, closed. I closed it myself, so that nobody could disturb me. Well, Leithan tried, but with morse code i could communicate to him and tell him that i was fine. And yet, no matter how i tried, i still kept opening my eyes from every noise that could distract me, even the smallest one. Maybe i got used to bandages so much that i forgot how it is to use other sensory organs. And yet i kept trying and trying. I did it so much that on one of the days i forgot to close the door to my room.
I was sitting on my bed, focusing on sounds with closed eyes. For the moment, i thought that i succeeded, and this time i did well. But suddenly, i felt someone's presence. I got scared for a moment, i thought i was alone in this room. But when i heard familiar voice, i felt a relieve, even though i jumped and opened my eyes.
Leithan: Eya? What are you doing?
I looked at him as hesitated to tell him. What will he say to me if i tell him what i was doing here. I wanted to prove that i can control my eyes, that i'm able to at least control my powers. I told him that i was just meditating. He looked at me puzzled and....suspicious.
Leithan: Why doing such useless shit? You're not a monk or something. You're a pirate. What are you doing for real?
I got nervous. I tried to persuade him that it's what i was really doing. But captain knew me too well. I would never do some kind of monk things or religious one. Pirates don't believe in God. He sighed deeply as held my hands.
Leithan: Dear....you know that i don't like when you're lying to me. What if something happened to you and you need help? I can do my best to help you. Just say a word.
I shook my head. He got surprised, but i started to explain him everything, what i was doing, why i was doing it, and how i want to achieve it. I didn't care if he finds it stupid or useless, i wanted it myself. I wanted to be better at something. Leithan listened to me carefully. I was not sure if he was surprised or confused. When i was about to finish my telling, he held my cheek and looked at me, as i looked at him.
Leithan: Dear, how many times i have to tell you that you're already amazing, incredible and....beautiful? You don't have to prove anything to anyone. No matter how much you do it, these bastards will still not believe you. But i do.
I listened to him attentively, trying to understand each word he was saying. At this moment i wanted to cry. How can my love be so sweet to me? So...kind to me? My desire was still inside me, but....in such moments i just want to hug him tightly, to feel being protected by my love.
Leithan: And yet, if you still want to try to do it, let me at least help you with it. It's not like training on weapons. Just know that no matter what, you're still incredible for me.
I couldn't hold my tears anymore. I did needed help, i was just afraid to tell. I hugged Leithan tightly as he got surprised a bit, but still hugged me tightly back and petted me.
Leithan: Shhh, it's okay, i'm here. Sorry...i didn't mean to make it too emotional. I was just worried about you when you were closed in your room for 2 days. Please don't do like this anymore, okay?
He kissed my forehead. I nodded to him as looked at his eyes. Maybe he is a skeleton, but he is the only person that can truly see me, look at me. What about me? I'm just a monster who can't even fight properly. And yet i'm still here, with my love. My only love.
He caressed my hair as hugged me again.
Leithan: Want to start training tomorrow? Zeres will go for hunting, so we can have all day to train your powers.
I kept hugging him, cuddling as nodded slightly. He petted me, caressed my head and kissed it kindly.
Leithan: Okay. Then, let me help you to bandage eyes for now. We found another island that we can explore and we need you to be ready too.
I dried my tears as nodded. Even though i could resist bandages, i still accepted his help. While i can't control, i have to use them. And yet, i believe that one day i will be able to control my eyes.
Maybe i will even be able to see one day?
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And that's another story of Kaizokutale^^ Hope you will like it^^
Leithan and Zeres belong to @cosmosdream-world
Eya belongs to @wildstarfan and @milasartblog (both me)
Kaizokutale belongs to @cosmosdream-world and @wildstarfan
