#yr2013

im so READY FOR 2014 LIKE READY TO JUST LIVE AND DO ALL THESE MISTAKES THAT TURN INTO VICTORIES AND JUST LEARN HOW TO BE A FRIEND AND LOVER AND DAUGHTER AND SISTER AND SO MUCH TO LEARN AND BE HAPPY ABOUT!!!

Being completely honest with you, 2013 showed me how much of an asshole I am to people. People who really don't need my melodramatic, selfish behavior and insensitive actions but instead a goddamn friend. 

2013 let me burn a genuine friendship bridge. Actually, maybe hire the internet and it's popular blogging site to do it for me.

2013 sent me the greatest ache for love, intimacy, some once-in-a-lifetime romance that would make the Gods jealous.

2013, yo, that damn year had me break down so many things and myself.

Yet, beneath these really fucking old ashes are some cute greenlings. For example, my lack of friends and hatred for life somehow let me get closer to my cousins and family.

I can actually consider myself a family person most of the time.

I know I've fucked up a lot and I probably treated precious people, like you, with a very discouraging side of myself. I'm sorry, I'm only beginning to figure out myself. You can leave, because I'm rerealizing that it's okay to leave. Even if you're not completely sure why, it's OK to do it. Sometimes it's better to make a mistake than to wonder what your journey would have been if you had just done it. 

The greatest thing though was realizing that I can be happy, I can succeed, and as long as I get up and try I know there's a better tomorrow.