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is he uhhmmmm.. like dead ewww

Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim

1). Menjadi hamba ALLAAH yang senantiasa diridhai ALLAAHU 'azza wa jalla

2). Wafat husnul khaatimah di Madinah dan dimakamkan di pemakaman Baqi

3). Hapal AlQuran ikhlash lillaah dan mutaba'ah Rasulillaah shallallaahu 'alayhi wa sallam

4). Mengamalkan AlQur'an (dan syariat Islam) & dzikrullaah ikhlash lillaah dan mutaba'ah Rasulillaah shallallaahu 'alayhi wa sallam di setiap detik dan inci kehidupan

5). Menjadi pengajar AlQuran dari tahsin, talaqqi, tahfidz, ilmu tajwid, ilmu tafsir, hingga bahasa arab secara ikhlash lillaah dan mutaba'ah Rasulillaah shallallaahu 'alayhi wa sallam

6). Ditawarkan surga dan masuk ke dalam surga dari pintu manapun yang aku inginkan

ALLAAHUMMA AAMIIN..

Allaahumma shalli 'alaa muhammad wa 'alaa aali muhammad. Kamaa shallayta 'alaa ibraahiim wa 'alaa aali ibraahiim. Innaka hamiidun-majiid. Allaahumma baarik 'alaa muhammad wa 'alaa aali muhammad. Kamaa baarakta 'alaa ibraahiim wa 'alaa aali ibraahiim. Innaka hamiidun-majiid.

Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim

Rencana 5 Tahun (2020-2024) insyaa allaah, adalah sebagai berikut:

1. Hafal 30 juz AlQuran

2. Hafal 5 hadits pertama Arbain Nawawi (aqidah) & 2 hadits tentang shalat.

3. Kuliah&lulus Arabic Intensive Program di IOU

4. Mengambil sanad ilmu tajwid / berguru ilmu tajwid

Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim

O Allaah.. help me..

I’ve been thinking about my body.. and my face. And i keep getting whispers about how i dont like it. And how i dont feel comfortable in it. Subhaanallaah. It is all because of my fault and sin. For the past 6 years i’ve been neglecting gadhul bashar excessively. Like i literally saw women’s faces all over my screen for hours, not in pornographic way but in daily pictures or motion like vlogging or instagram posts. Subhaanallaah. And that led me to compare what Allaah ‘azza wa jalla has given me to what Allaah ‘azza wa jalla has given to them.

Astaghfirullaah wa atuubu ilayh.

I like what Allaah ‘azza wa jalla gives for me.. O Allaah.. alhamdulillaah bi’nimatihi tattimmushshaalihaat.

As for being uncomfortable, it is because i torture my body with great torment this past year. I kept stuffing my face even when i wasn’t hungry. I kept eating food that triggers uncofortable feeling in my body and they are: sugar and refined flour. I used to eat so fast and so many my stomach would feel like bursting. Wal ‘iyaadzubillaah, tsumma na’uudzubillaahimindzalik.

Astaghfirullaah wa atuubu ilayh.

O Allaah.. help me.. Help me to get out from this daarkness o Allaah...

I feel beaten by the nafs by the hawa i said yes too often to..

O Allaah help me to overcome them..

O Allaah help me and make ikhlash..

Allaahumma aamiin..

Allaahumma shalli ‘alaa muhammad wa ‘alaa aali muhammad

kamaa shallayta ‘alaa ibraahiim wa ‘alaa aali ibraahiim

innaka hamiidun-majiid

Allaahumma baarik ‘alaa muhammad wa ‘alaa aali muhammad

kamaa baarakta ‘alaa ibraahiim wa ‘alaa aali ibraahiim

innaka hamiidun-majiid.

Alhamdulillaahirabbil ‘aalaamiin.