#yourboybucky

I know right, so funny as well. 

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Oh bless you!!! :D  I will happily talk ALL things about the Barnes & Rogers series and Everything Is Safer Now in particular:

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

It’s actually my friend Ignipes’ fault. She & I were having a discussion via email last year (right after TWS came out) about how much we liked that the glue holding Steve and Bucky together in the MCU was how well they argued and gave each other shit, but also how that spoke to just how well they knew each other and the depth of love it conveyed.  And somehow that evolved into me promising her a fic about Steve & Bucky arguing out their feelings.

And I knew the fic, when I wrote it, had to be part of the Barnes & Rogers series, because that’s essentially how those two communicated in In The Blur Of Serenity and The Smell Of Sunshine. :D

2: What scene did you first put down?

This bit in Part 4 was the first part I wrote, a year before I wrote the rest of the story:

"Everyone else always thought they had a handle on what made you tick, but me and you, we always knew the score.  And it wasn't your sense of fair play or your fucking moral code and it sure as shit wasn't that you had some pretty, chivalric notion of the world."

Steve's eyes flashed a darker blue, rage bubbling just under the surface of his skin despite how still he was holding himself.  "And what is it that drives me?"

"Anger," Bucky said, because even if he'd forgotten every other single thing about Steve, he knew that much.  He knew Steve in his DNA, in his bones, and he'd always known what made Steve tick.  "Anger at the injustices of the world, anger at everyone who thinks they're above the law or beyond consequence, anger that no one ever saw you for who you are, and anger that no one still can see the real you behind the shield.   Well, I do.  Ya tiebya vizhu. I always saw you.  And I always will."

"Buck –"

He clamped his hand over Steve's, flesh to flesh, bone to bone, grinding them together.  "You don't gotta pretend with me.  Not now, not ever.  So stop trying."

"I will if you will."

3: What's your favorite line of narration?

It’s tough to choose, but if i had to, I’d say this entire bit between Bruce and Bucky:

"You think going out there and covering point and throwing yourself on every grenade will somehow be enough penance for what you've done."

Getting pissed at the man who could turn into an indestructible wrecking ball wasn't the best idea ever, but Bucky couldn't help the brusque, sharp tone.  "You don't get to lecture me about penance.  You have no idea the things I've done."

Far from getting angry, Bruce just looked at him with a terrible sort of pity that made the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.  "I'm the only one even remotely qualified to lecture you about penance."

"Why?" Bucky asked.  "Because you'll Hulk out on me if I don't see reason?"

"Because I know exactly what it's like to be a weapon of mass destruction and I know what it's like to have to live with all that carnage and all that damage every single day."

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

You know, I have no idea.  I’ve been playing around with the same themes where Bucky & Steve are both concerned for awhile, but that might be the first fic where I had a chance dig into all of Steve’s considerable rage.  He’s got SO much anger boiling inside him, and it’s not a quality you see explored a lot in a good many fics. That tends to be reserved for Bucky.

14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

I dunno, maybe that it’s okay to write both of the guys as raging assholes who communicate by fighting?  That sometimes love isn’t soft or sweet or gentle, and that’s okay.

15: What did you learn from writing this fic?

That I could write Steve as a seething bundle of anger and temper and still make him a good man. That I could write a warts and all story about two very flawed men and still make it a love story.

That is the stupidest thing I've heard. Some people man...