#youdprobablyjustthinkimbeingdramatic

i miss my dad alot.. i wish my family would call me and just say that they love me and wont be that way again. but i know in the depths of my heart that even as easy as that could be its just not going to happen. i feel like my emotional baggage is so heavy lately. i couldnt tell you how often ive faked laughs, smiles, entire dispositions throughout spending time with my friends, at work, at school. how many times ive slipped away unnoticed to let myself let go of the tears that were building up while i was trying to make you laugh and feel like youre having fun with me. i know ill be fine. i know ill be More than fine. but i wish it didnt have to be this way.