Hi yes hello. Why is smallville still driving a KNIFE THOUGH MY HEART ABOUT LEX AND CLARKS FRIENDSHIP. I finally got past the gut wrenching part of season 5 where things were super strained (Clark's defeated "I defended you, guess i am naive" and lexs face after in aqua haunts me🥲 and made me stop my rewatch for way to long🥲) and i thought "oh at least now that lex is mostly on the antagonist side of things I dont have to worry to much about being hurt by it all even if i do still adore lex."(ive never been big on the defending horrible actions and that is ALL lex has been doing rhis season and distaste for him has been growing quickly)(especially with the Lana of it all FREE MY GIRL SHE DOESNT DESERVE THIS😭 LANA BABY RUN YOU DESERVE THE WORLD NOT THIS SHIT😭)
But NO episode 19 comes are starts beating me again. Because why are we trapped down here with clark at his weakest and hurt in everyway possible, with lex who has been doing some fucked shit but seems to genuinely think its what he has to do to keep someone he thinks lives him(hes fucked in the head so bad🥲)(I would care more if he wasnt evil but well....😅) AND THEN THEY HIT ME WITH THE FUCK ASS
"Were we ever really friends"
"I dont know. I have nothing to compare it to. Your the only real friend I had clark"
OR Lex still so clearly being hurt that clark never told him his secret and (in lexs eyes) not trusting lex and AAAHHHHH IM GONNA SCREAM I CANT DO THIS FREE ME FROM MY PRISON THIS IS WHY I ALWAYS STOP MY REWATCHS I CARE TO MUCH ABOUT THIS FUCKING GUY AND NOW HES JUST STRAIGHT UP A VILLIAN WHO IS DOING HORRIBLE SHIT AND I CANT EVEN FIND IT IN ME TO STOP CARING ABOUT HIM😭 PLEASE STOP I DONT WANT IT. I SPENT TO LONG THINKING ABOUT HIS CHARACTER SOMEONE KILL ME IM GOING TO BE SICK😭
