yedam as your boyfriend;
yedam x reader
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so i just have this big idea with yedam where heâs got the vibe of like. pining??
i feel like if he liked someone heâd be too nervous to ever tell them so heâd end up having that aesthetic of cute boy in your class that you occasionally catch staring at you but you never really know why
you think âeh maybe heâs just zoning out and i happen to be sat in the spot he looks at when he does that :// no big dealâ lowkey youâd wish he was staring at u because he liked u but u just feel thatâs unrealistic because omg itâs bang yedam
but no. no. omg does he like you a whole lot.
heâd write you lil dated letters whenever he was having a lot of feelings about anything (example: heâd get stressed out by training and so heâd write you a letter about how he was feeling and how he wished he could be with you to help him feel better, or heâd get some really good news and heâd write you a letter about how happy he was and how he wished he could share that feeling with you)
and theyâd go between being like lil notes that just said âdear ___, iâm really stressed and i wish you were here with me.â and being like two double-sided pieces of paper long that included him going off on 40 different tangents
after a while heâd have to start keeping them in a lil box because thereâs just so MANY of them and heâs all âomg this is the most embarrassing thing iâve ever doneâ as he continues to add more of them to his collection
honestly? heâs not entirely sure why he keeps them because heâs convinced heâll never ever tell you that he likes you. he thinks maybe heâs doing it so he can look back on it when heâs older and be like âwow remember that crazy time!â
and then he starts writing songs about you and then he realises that oopsie maybe this isnât something heâs gonna just gradually get over
his songs abt you are either so sweet and cute and are like âi am: in loveâ or theyâre ANGSTY and are pretty much just him artistically saying that he thinks you donât even know he exists
which i mean?? you definitely do. heâs Bang Yedam Himself. you know youâve had a crush on him since you first got into the same school as him. you just assume heâs way too cool n pretty n smart n talented to ever even realise you exist
your pining level might be a tad bit lower than his to be honest?? you know you like him, you probably doodle his name in the corner of your notebooks with lil love-hearts around them sometimes, you know, to cope. and maybe youâve daydreamed about him for a vast majority of the time youâre supposed to be focusing in any given class. but itâs all very contained, only you know you do this
but with yedam itâs like. all of his friends know. every single one of them has noticed or been told that yedam is absolutely whipped for someone heâs spoken to about four times
he writes you songs and people who know him ask who theyâre all about, and he never knows what to say. he writes you letters almost daily but at the very least weekly, and keeps them hidden away that he would defend with his life if someone tried to read them. he gives you heart eyes in class that your classmates just kinda look at like â?? how have they not noticedâ
speaking of him getting a chance to talk to you,, heâs so flustered he probably only says a maximum of two sentences
and itâs always his friends whoâre like â___! hi! this is my friend, yedam, you remember yedam, right?â
every single time you get a lil bit flustered (but youâre keeping it #well hidden (even if everyone but yedam can gather that you totally like him)) but you say that âyeah!! of course, how could i not?â yedam swears his heart stops beating for a second
tbh, your conversations have never really gotten past that point, which really upsets yedam because he wants to know so much more about you!! he wants to hear you talk about things heâs asking about instead of just hearing bits of your conversation from classes and when he âaccidentallyâ passes you five times in the hallways
and he knows that if he likes you this much from just the things heâs gathered about your personality from this and subtly asking different people about you, then his âlittleâ crush is gonna get so much worse once he actually works up the courage to befriend you
but heâs just so :(( because he doesnât know how to get to that point with you so he just avoids it altogether and goes about his daily life thinking heâll have to eventually get over it
then. heâs walking down the hallways one day when everyoneâs getting out of class to move to their next one and he sees you with your friends and you look. incredibly distressed
so he swerves to walk a lil bit closer bc his heart just went â:( hhhhhâ at the idea of you being upset. and he hears you talking to your friends about how youâve just been feeling pretty down recently and you canât manage to cheer yourself up and how itâs really bothering you
and even though yedam can hear your friends actively attempting to comfort you over this heâs still panicked because :(((( he hates the idea of you being upset and feeling like that and he just ?? doesnât know how he could help you feel better
so when he gets home that day, he writes another one of his usual letters, except he really goes off in this one. it gets pretty long and he ends up, a. confessing his feelings for you, and b. going off about how perfect you are and how you deserve all the happiness in the entire universe
except, he doesnât sign this one off with his usual, âall the love, yedam.â and instead chooses the anonymous version of this with just, âall the love.â
the next day, heâs gonna rush to school to make sure he gets there nice and early, and he drops it into your locker and would probably literally run away
so youâd open your locker when you got to school and youâre all â??!! wowieâ when a piece of a paper with your name written in cute lil handwriting on is right there
and youâd open it and read it right there, but then youâd get a lil embarrassed because now youâre blushing and maybe your eyes are watering a little bit too
you know, obviously, that itâs like omg secret admirer!! because thereâs no name saying who itâs from. but you really wanna know!! youâre all soft for them already and you donât even know who it is yet!! Â
yedam, who has been very inconspicuously pacing the hallway near your locker until you got there and read it is like aha!! mission achieved theyâre smiling and they look happy!!
and so, much to your surprise, this becomes a daily occurrence. you get to school, open your locker, and thereâs always another lil note, sometimes a whole letter!! and theyâd be so sweet and cute and heâd probably write one where heâd be like âis this weird?? i get so nervous about making you uncomfortable sometimes :///â and youâd be like? well how am i supposed to tell them that itâs not at all weird if i canât respond to them
so, in a lil bit of a risk, you write them a letter back, and you leave it hanging out of your locker just enough for it to be visible if someone was in front of it. and you donât know who to address it to, so you just write, in the tiniest handwriting possible, âall the love,â on the edge so theyâd know it was for them
and when yedam goes to leave you another note he sees and heâs like xovofeiv so he takes it and reads and he swears heâs having a real heart-attack this time
the letter would really just be you saying, âthis whole pining, slow-burn thing is real romantic and all but i wanna know who you are :/// i think i really like you too and if youâve liked me for this long you should totally just tell me!!â
so yedam scraps the note he was gonna leave you, and instead gathers every single ounce of courage he has inside of him to write a really messy one that just says, âok so this is gonna sound really weird but trust me!! can i have your address? i have a gift for youâ
n you find it so youâre like âokâŠ..hmâŠ.ok well letâs just do it and hope for the bestâ so you leave them another lil note with your address on and then head on home at the end of the day
and youâre pacing around your room wondering if you should take a sneak glance but then you think theyâre gonna tell you who they are whenever theyâre ready so :// you should just wait
so yedam just gets the box of letters from his house. and leaves it by your front door. he knocks and then literally sprints away.
and so you open your door to see this box?? and itâs got a lil note on the top that says your name and has his classic âall the loveâ written on the top so youâre like â????!!!!! ok weâre doing this huhâ
so you take it inside and go to your room and get yourself comfortable for this experience. and, oh my god?? you read every single one of those letters, and you realise the dates go back for ages, and theyâre all signed off from yedam. by the time youâre done tbh youâd probably be crying because heâs just so lovely. and youâre literally getting to see different emotions and events in his life all at the same time that heâs expressing this Big Love for you and youâre just like. ok. this: hurtS Â
and so when you go to school the next day you immediately go and find yedam, obviously. and heâs with his friends so youâre like âhi uh yes please may i talk to you :)â
for a second i think yedam would think heâs done something wrong but heâd still agree because!! he wants to know what youâre thinking about it
when you tell him that youâve actually liked him for a while, too, heâd be so excited but heâd also be a lil bit sceptical,, like he doesnât want it to feel as if youâre being pressured into liking him back because of it
so youâd show him one of your notebooks with his name doodled on and heâd dsfpvob have a genuine, serious heart-attack like youâd be a tad bit concerned really because heâd visibly react and look so!!! shocked
however, yedam does say that he wants to still do things properly because you deserve so much!! so heâs immediately like âcan i take you on a date??? a whole date???â
and so! (after he has discovered a romantic and cute way to do it) heâll ask to officially be your boyfriend because he has a big soft spot for classic romance things. like. they just. have a very special place in his heart
and hhhhh omg heâs such a great boyfriend??
so empathetic and caring he just has this magicians trick of understanding your emotions on a whole other level
youâre sad?? he can just Tell whether you wanna talk about it or whether youâd rather just be comforted by his actions instead
youâre stressed and tired?? he knows you want your space and heâs completely okay to give it to you
at first iâm not sure if heâd be great at expressing his own feelings though? i just feel heâd struggle to be cohesive and exact about it instead of getting upset
but if you sat him down to explain that itâs okay to not know how he feels all the time, and itâs even better if he wants to consistently talk about what heâs thinking and how things make him feel, heâd be so, so grateful
keeping to his new-found aesthetic, heâd keep writing you little notes and heâd write you long-ass letters on special occasions
heâs also just super chilled out in general when it comes to your relationship? he knows that it depends on both of yours respect and effort for one another and he also knows he has plenty of both for you so heâs not really concerned
might have some issues with getting jealous at first but just because heâs actually pretty insecure when it comes to you. heâd have the belief for quite a while that you could do better and eventually you would just find someone better than him
and heâd really try and express this to you (even if it made him emotional) so you wouldnât think being jealous was a big part of his personality
but he really would work so hard on bettering that aspect of himself!! heâd make sure to communicate with you what was bothering him so you could either go through it and help him rationalise it or if it seemed like a legitimate concern then youâd talk about what the both of you could do to change it
and i mean heâs all for doing that when you get jealous too but honestly itâs so clear to you now that he is, a. not the type to ever do something to break your trust and b. ?? so, so in love with you
however! once he got over his insecurities, he would really rarely ever get jealous lol
as soon as he learns to understand that itâs him!! you love him!! and even better, you love him because heâs himself!! what a concept
but yeah as soon as he learns that heâs just so unbothered by the things that used to make him nervous or worried
i mean someone could literally flirt with you in front of him now and heâs just like â:) lol anywayâ because he gets it now,,,
i also donât think heâd be an overly protective type? heâs just concerned about how youâre feeling in every situation so heâll check in with you when youâre out together and stuff but overall heâs quite a big believer in letting you solve your own problems
and thatâs not to say heâs dismissive because if you came to him with an issue and wanted his help then he seriously wouldnât hesitate to give you advice/do what he could to help
but if you didnât come to him, heâs gonna try and let you work out for yourself because he knows you can do it !! and he doesnât want you to feel at all like youâre being underestimated by him
yedamâs 100% the type to do the lil shoulder nudge thing to get your attention and then lean in to give you the teeniest tiniest cheek kiss before heâd mumble a lil, âyou okay?â when you were out in public together
yedam is just That Boyfriend too!
he loves the idea of wearing matching clothes!! heâd get matching shirts and colour-coordinate with you before youâd go out to make sure it was a Cute Look even if it was just a matching print jumper and black jeans
traces lil circles and love-hearts on your hand with his thumb when youâre holding hands with him in public and in private
in private though, heâd routinely kiss your knuckles if you were holding his hand because oh boy!! he hasnât reminded you that heâs thinking abt you in a couple minutes he doesnât want you to forget
takes candid pictures of you ((does yedam have a phone yet sodfbdi)) and has a folder of them in his phone that he looks at when he misses you
has a picture of you as his lock-screen too
all of your friends are like â??? where tf did you find him??? heâs so Good???â
and tbh you honestly donât know. like. heâs like ridiculously perfect in a relationship. you feel like something bad was gonna have to happen because it just doesnât feel like he can be real
if you ever wore his clothes, heâd freak out so much because !!! wow thatâs his baby!! and heâd think you looked so cute. heâd like âwowie picture time :,)â
ok and full offence his favourite types of kisses ever are forehead kisses. you have like fifty (50) forehead kisses every hour because you do anything and his first reaction is âyou know what you deserve for that? a kiss!â
but heâd be too shy to initiate kissing you on the Lips for quite a while lol
even after youâve had your first kiss heâd be a little nervous about because it still makes him blush afterwards
so forehead kisses are an easy alternative ((even if youâre taller than him. heâs not afraid to lean up to kiss your forehead. heâs a bad bitch.))
also for a while after your first kiss (which again, heâd make romantic and extra) heâd always ask before kissing you like that because he doesnât wanna make you uncomfortable with him
and. tbh. arguments with yedam just seem literally impossible to picture? the boy is so fuckign nice and sweet and considerate that heâd struggle to argue with youâŠ.
i mean when he gets in bad moods itâs mostly because heâs tired or stressed and heâs already gone off in length about how wants to be with you when he feels like that so he just seeks you out to be like âitâs your favourite boy and heâs in need of Affection :-///â
and he doesnât really get angry,,,, he gets frustrated but you can never really make him angry and + why would you try to, u know
if you snap at him, it just upsets him because heâll think heâs annoyed you or done something wrong, he isnât gonna argue with you about it
he honestly just hates, hates, hates arguments and tries so hard to avoid them at all costs, even if heâd end up not voicing something because heâd be worried it would cause you to get angry with him
youâd notice this though!! and always try to remind him that he has to tell you things and if he communicates it with you like he always does youâre not gonna be angry with him over it!!
and, like everything else, he works? and puts serious, genuine effort into making sure he does this.
after dating him for a while, heâd probably notice little behaviours like his own more ânegativeâ ones in you sometimes and heâd talk to you about them to so you could work on them!!!
everyone around would think your relationship when you first started dating was impressive, but it justâŠkeeps improvingâŠit never stops getting betterâŠ.
yedam also really loves just Talking about everything with you. he likes to know about what youâre thinking and what your future plans are. he likes to know about weirder things too like what your opinions on aliens and ghosts are. he just loves to sit, be really comfortable, have soft music playing, and ask you about every single thing he can think of
i think a relationship with yedam would just very quickly turn into something you could tell was never going to hurt you?
like. sure. maybe some time in the future you and yedam could break-up. you donât want that but you understand that it happens. but you can just tell that youâre never going to regret being with him you know?
youâd probably mention that to yedam at first and i mean, heâd be glad that you knew he was never gonna be a heartbreaker for you. but heâs also :( because he doesnât want you to ever believe that you two werenât In It To Win ItTM
tbh you really couldnât picture ever having a reason to break-up with yedam either because?? you just never seem to be able to get bored with him, and you ((to be honest, if youâre honest)) feel like youâre falling a bit more in love w him every day
n heâs really just your biggest fan. he just adores you so much in everything he does.
you two are attached at the hip!! if you donât particularly want there to be time when he gives you your space then omg youâre gonna be with him pretty much 24/7
yedam, as secretly as it is, loves having his hair played with and loves playing with your hair
he tries to do something cute w it sometimes but usually he just plaits different sections together or just runs his fingers through it really
also, yedam, cuddling enthusiast, remains the almost completely consistent little spoon
he is babey!! he loves being curled up next to you and feeling all warm n safe!! especially adores when he gets to wrap himself up in a blanket and be cuddled by you bc he feels like heâs on a cloud :,((
side note: if you give him nose kisses while he does this. heâll just combust. he genuinely cannot handle the Feelings.
the only time he isnât a little spoon is when you two are like. lazily cuddling when watching tv. heâll just have his arm draped around you so you can have your face smooshed against his chest
also, donât test him. if youâre sprawled across the sofa and he wants a cuddle and you wonât move. heâll just lay on you. what r u gonna do about it other than move so heâs the little spoon again? nothing!
i think. i should stop here before i Go Off too much about what dating yedam would be like so hmmm
to summarise, i think any relationship with him would really just be the purest softest most healing experience there is?
and itâs so detached from reality too because heâs genuinely just such a good person,,, no one understands how heâs just so pure,,, and too good for this whole world,,, pls treat this boy Right itâs all he deserves











