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Chapter 51, pages 34 and 35.

Seeing as how we’re now going into chapter 89.2 this is old drama by this point but...There are so many conflicting emotions around this.

To start with- Hiyori wants to be with Yato. That’s clear as day. This chapter only pushes that closer and closer to our face. The fact that, deep down, Hiyori sees that the only way she can truly stay with him forever, is to become his shinki. (or regalia if you’re an anime nerd like me I always say regalia its easier for me to say lmfao)         But the problems arise with knowing that is what she wants. 

That’s what Trash Dad wanted him to do. 

“Make Hiyori your shinki. I’m sure she’d be elated by that...Kill her and summon her soul to your side. But if you can’t handle a tainted soul like hers, I could lend you the koto-no-ha to make her do whatever you want. So be a good god and grant her wish.”

Yato himself did not realize that to be Hiyori’s true wish, and he might have done what she wished if it wasn’t for these few reasons...

His existing connections with her.

He would have to kill her.

She looks so much like Sakura.

If he did kill her, he’d have to watch himself killing her when he names her.

He would have to name her something, and then not ever call her Hiyori for the rest of their existence.

She probably wouldn’t be the same once she became a regalia shinki.

She wouldn’t have any memories of her life. 

Who’s to say she’d even remember him as a shinki? (ow my feels)

He would absolutely slip up and call her Hiyori. He knows he would.

The fear of losing her if he were to call her Hiyori...and spark memories.

It could turn out just like with Sakura and he’d never forgive himself.

If it did turn out like with Sakura, Yato would get faced with this: “Why did you kill me, Yato?”

Yukine would also have to not call her Hiyori again.

Yukine could be the one physically killing her.

Hiyori would have to die...

If Yato weren’t to kill her and someone/something else does, he’d have to see how she died and would more than likely get really pissed and go after whoever killed her. (might lose his mind a bit)

He loves her too much to kill her and to take her away from her life.

The reasons he said in the chapter.

He does not want to hurt her. 

HE LOVES HER.

I can go on. And I will go on.

If she were to die, and since her soul is tainted, no other god would want to take her in. Yato would be left with the choice of either taking her himself and dealing with all the above struggles, or leave her to be consumed by the other phantoms and having to kill her that way.

If an other god were to take her in, he’d be upset with himself for not taking her in, and having to see her under a different god.

The other conflicting problem with Hiyori wanting to be his shinki, is that...You can only become a shinki if you die but still want to keep on living. In Hiyori’s case, she wants to do both. She does want to keep living so she can be with him, but she wants to die to be with him longer. Not to mention the fact she’s half phantom/ayakashi. It would be like naming a regular phantom right? Which is why TD suggested using the koto-no-ha on her. That would still be hurting Yato. Look what it did to Ebisu.

Yato does talk her down and comfort her by telling her that he can’t do that. Not only for his own reasons, but also for her well being. She has people who would miss her, people who love her, people she’d never see again... 

...but does that really still change the fact that she truly wants to stay by his side, indefinitely?

I don’t think so. But there really isn’t a way around it...

YATO - GOD OF WAR

FROM NORAGAMI

Yukine: What do you have?!

Yato: a KNIFE!