#yancee

This time I’m staying far tf away lol.

No conversation needed.

No closure needed.

It’s beyond dead.

The worst part about this is…

I look at you with so much disappointment

I shouldn’t have even came back to someone

That I knew would never ever change 😂

But atleast I’m not angry this time.

I’m at peace with it.

I don’t even wish bad.

I was willing on my own.

I am tired of unnecessary chaos..

You can get the truth and you can heal without making a choice to be chaotic.

Now, I see the importance of being in control of emotions.

Forgiveness just becomes more difficult when you include unnecessary entities..

It isn’t about you. It was about us.

That’s the issue.

When you add someone into an equation that’s already sensitive & painful and requires a healthy solution, why would you purposely choose to be destructive???

Choosing chaos was a choice you made

When I was already creating a healthy way to speak to you..

Even when upset there are lines and things we shouldn’t cross/do..

I’m so glad to have broken free of you.

You were the worse parts of my life.

& now I’m completely free

Thank God I am done.

I should have learned before, but I have learned now.

Im leaving with a busted lip, hand marks on my neck, & with bruises.

War wounds to never go back to you.

Enjoy the finger bite.

I’m free.

From your arms being wrapped around me vishisly to now in the arms of another love called self love.

U will forever be the worse person I have ever dated on my life. And you deserve the title I gave u.

Goodbye demon.

And a fucked up shirt.

Goodbye. And please. Never the fuck come back.

Tonight, less than 48 hours of a mf crying on my phone... this same mf put their hands on me to ight first and made everything that hurt me about them.

Lesson learned.

This entire time... I was right..

She literally screwed me over after flying me back to Houston from NYC

She lied to me

Had another woman the same woman that sat in my face and smiled

She lied to me and everybody knew

The moment i jump out of a moving car because u aren't listening..

because you antagonize me... Belitting my feelings and over powering how i feel instead of loving me how u expect to be loved.

It never fucking fails...

And this is the moment i know that you...are my best...but the absolute worse person I could ever be with....

My mental has been drained...

I feel so hopeless with you..

I feel so low with you..

I stopped sharing who I rlly was with you.

You don't appreciate me.. It shows..

You think I owe you... It shows..

You don't know what real love is.. U dk how to love.. Never did..

You aren't ever emotionally available.. Ever..

U just held me as I cried and listened to another empty promise u make me..

You're never there for me when I actually need you...

You and I... Just aren't it...

Wish you the best.

But you aren't The person I need you to be for me the way that I try to be everything you want...

We just aren't meant to be in my book.

I want someone to grow me...

Not build me up and knock me down whenever then pick me back up then knock me right back down... I progress just to go back fifty more steps...

This has never been healthy since day one.

After tonight...

I no longer want this.

I want a spouse who makes me better period...

Manipulating me..

Never ever cater to my feelings..

..In the most genuine purest way.