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i swear it sounded much funnier in my head-

ilyt 💞

❝  I... hmm?  ❞   She most certainly didn’t. Did she?!   Of all the Bridgertons, it was Eloise and Hyacinth who were the most likely to sniff out a mystery, relentless when they wished to know the answer. Hadn’t Hyacinth just been saying the other morning that she would find Whistledown and claim Lady Danbury’s offered prize money? None of them believed it was Cressida Twombley, but it couldn’t be possible that the youngest Bridgerton daughter had seen her sneaking into the cab to deliver her missive and somehow put the clues together, surely! Never mind the much more obvious glaringly simple answer that the family had heard already about Colin’s proposal last night. That didn’t even cross Penelope’s mind in the moment, still entirely unreal to her.

Pen’s always been a great believer in love, having watched most of her close friends and/or surrogate family find it for themselves. She just hasn’t ever thought it would be possible for her to find. Even when she and Colin get engaged she is certain he doesn’t love her, but tell herself he likes her and that that is enough for her. There s a part of her that didn’t believe she deserved to be loved, that liked was the most she could ask for anyone. Her mother loved her “in her way” as she alwasy says in her internal narration, but also never believed anyone else wold come to care for her. It really took Lady D pushing her for Penelope to begin to love herself and then Colin’s love for her helped her along the path to feeling worthy. But she has so much love to give and showers it on everyone she cares for, Colin most of all. 

Truthfully, Penelope hasn’t done a great deal of traveling outside of the city and the ton. She’d like to see the world one day, however. Every time Colin comes back from one of his trips she’s read up about the place he’d been and peppers the poor boy with questions, not solely because she wants him to talk to her. She genuinely likes to hear about the world and lives a little vicariously through Colin’s adventures. The most she’s ever really traveled on her own is into the city proper to sneak off and drop emergency publications to her publishers at the church. Beyond that, she’s always stayed in her little bubble. At least until marrying Colin, who happily takes her on his wanderlust adventures then.

Penelope’s gaze lifts from her book to land on Eloise, appraising even despite her smile. How much does she know? She has been taking this business of finding out Lady Whistledown quite seriously.  ❝ Have you solved the riddle already, then? ❞

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