#prettyruse

Pen’s always been a great believer in love, having watched most of her close friends and/or surrogate family find it for themselves. She just hasn’t ever thought it would be possible for her to find. Even when she and Colin get engaged she is certain he doesn’t love her, but tell herself he likes her and that that is enough for her. There s a part of her that didn’t believe she deserved to be loved, that liked was the most she could ask for anyone. Her mother loved her “in her way” as she alwasy says in her internal narration, but also never believed anyone else wold come to care for her. It really took Lady D pushing her for Penelope to begin to love herself and then Colin’s love for her helped her along the path to feeling worthy. But she has so much love to give and showers it on everyone she cares for, Colin most of all.