"Do you miss it?" Was the sudden inquire, hands pausing in their diligent decoration of the pastry to be served later that night. "The life you led before-- do you?" It might have been too personal a question, but he never stated she needed to be specific. //xltruistic
Ā Ā Ā His question drew her attention away from the fridge, her hand still lingering on the door. It was kind of an oddĀ question, she thought ā unexpected, in itās seriousness. She supposed, though, that she could understand where it came from.Ā
Ā Ā Ā It wasnāt an unfair question. She and Seto came from rather different places, after all ā not to mention, until sheād started at the company, she had quite literally lived a different life. Plenty of people had asked her about it, of course, but⦠none of them had ever asked if she missed it.Ā Ā Ā She supposed, none of them had cared. Or, they couldnāt imagine why she would. She lived at the Kaiba estate now, with a great job, a partner, a familyā¦
Ā Ā Ā Slowly, she closed the door, holding a water bottle loosely in her hand. Sweeping her bangs away from her face, she made her way over to the counter he was working at, leaning beside him against it.
Ā Ā Ā āIt⦠may sound silly, considering everything I have now, but⦠yeah. I do.ā She admitted, in a quiet voice.Ā āI used to work with a man named Zak. If you google it, thereās a lot of trashĀ about him online, but⦠heās a wonderful person. He took me in, when I didnāt really have anywhere else to go, and I⦠miss seeing him, every day. Plus, my job was different. I was his assistant, more than his secretary. When he travelled, I went with him, and I worked on all of the projects personally⦠I really liked what we did. It was⦠pretty devastating, when he told me that I couldnāt continue with him.ā
Ā Ā Ā Her brow furrowed, as she thought of it - the strange, fuzzy feeling memories of their conversation, which always seemed to slip just through her fingertips. She remembered how it had felt, of course. The denial, anger⦠and the hurt. It had been so unexpected, it had felt like a slap in the face. But⦠why had it been unexpected? Business didnāt work like thatā¦Ā Ā Ā She blinked, and shook her head, trying to chase that nagging feeling away.Ā
Ā Ā Ā āā¦and sometimes, I miss my dad.ā She murmured, tracing her fingers along the cap of her bottle. She stared hard at it, barely noticing Ryouās reflection in the smooth metal - if he was looking at her, she had no idea. Her dark eyes were distant, lost in memories that surged forward, demanding her attention.Ā
Ā Ā Ā It felt strange, to keep admitting so much - she hadnāt even meant to mention her father. It had just⦠slipped out, though, without a second thought. Like a landslide, following the deluge that had come by just saying Zakās name. When was the last time sheād mentionedĀ anyĀ of themā¦?Ā Ā Ā Once more, she tried to reach memories which slipped away, her hands falling still as she fell silent. The harder she tried, the more it all seemed to flee - specifics of what she did, of why she leftā¦
Ā Ā Ā āI almost⦠feel like somethingās missing.ā She said, her voice dazed, and small.Ā āSomething I canāt quite put my finger on. Isnāt that strange..? Missing something, when you donāt know what it isā¦āĀ