#xjulesiscools

Tagged by: @xjulesiscools; (thanks for tagging me, and sorry it took so long to do it. I had liked the post and it got lost in my likes until now lol)

Relationship Status: Ha! Where to even begin... let's just go with complicated. 

Favourite Colour: baby blue, navy blue and silver 

Lipstick or Chapstick?: lip balm

Last song you listened to: Hey Jealousy by Gin Blossoms  

Last movie you watched: Avengers: Age of Ultron 

Top 3 Characters: Jamie Reagan, Kol Mikaelson And Isaac Lahey; apparently characters that have shitty storylines and even shitter love interest lol

Top 3 Ships: tv; Scott x Allison, Avery x Juliette and Danny x Riley  | fanfic; Bird x Jim, Nol x Jamie and Teagan x Isaac + Avery x Derek (I know I picked more than three but I don't even care- it was hard to pick! lol)  

Books and manga you are currently reading: Not reading anything at the moment, but a gotham fanfiction (Wasteland)- which is just as good as a published book if you ask me.  

Top 5 Musicals: I do like some musicals, but at the moment my mind is blank. I'm sure some will hit me right after I post this lol.

🚢: does the idea of the sea provide you with a feeling of comfort or worry?

Comfort. For sure.

🎡: @ seven of your fave mutuals that you'd love to go to a fair with

Can I skip this one? I don’t really have a ton of mutuals besides @xjulesiscools

🎢: what's the best ride you've ever been on?

If we’re talking roller coaster...I dunno, the dueling dragons at Islands of Adventure is pretty cool? Rides vary so much it’s hard to pick a favorite.

🎠: if you had to describe your aesthetic, what would you describe it as?

Flannel and coffee mugs that are so big you need two hands to hold them, blank journals with messy, colorful scribbling, green plants everywhere, kayaking on a quiet river, a couch covered in blankets, oversized sweaters, dark lipsticks.

🏗: what's your preferred method of dealing with stress?

Cuddling my pets, journaling, gardening.

🌁: what's your idea of horribleness?

trying to break someone or make them not believe in themselves. being malicious just because.

🗼: what's one thing you've learned to take as a warning sign in any type of relationship?

always taking and never giving.

🏭: would you consider yourself short tempered or even tempered?

short tempered, but i would like to get more even tempered.

⛲️: what's your ideal dream date?

definitely going into nature somewhere, bringing lunch with us and just being together enjoying the world.

🎑: city apartment or country house?

something in between... i don’t want to live in the country, just a small town.

⛰: if you could go on a road trip with just one of your faves who would it be?

can i just go on a road trip by myself...? if not i’d probably choose ben.

🏔: long drives or long walks?

long drives.

🗻: what are your favourite genres of music?

indie, folk, classic rock, soft pop...

🌋: what's something that pisses you off as soon as you hear even a mention of it?

ugh, i’m too depressed right now to think of anger. sexual assault.

🗾: a lone soldier? a social butterfly? or both?

little of both?

🏕: if you were asked to go on a camping trip with whoever you want, would you?

hell yeah! in an instant.

⛺️: does being without wifi actually worry you?

only when i’m in a foreign country and i need it to communicate, but otherwise i’m not really concerned.

🏞: what are your top six essentials you must carry with you at all times?

uh, wallet, sunglasses, keys, phone, book, journal.

🌅: are you a morning bird or a night owl?

i think i’m more of a morning bird, but really i’m both because i don’t love sleep.

🌄: are you a planner or a improviser?

planner for sure.

🏜: if deserted, what's one thing you'd want to be with you more than anything?

i mean, logically a phone would make most sense because it would get you out of the situation fastest. if your point is not to get out then i’d bring a journal or a companion.

🏖: do you believe in mermaids?

yes (:

🏝: how do you feel about islands?

they’re fun to visit but i think i’d feel confined if i lived on one.

🌇: what are your thoughts on 'city life'?

it’s really not for me. too many people. it makes me feel claustrophobic.

🌆: do you get homesick easily?

yes, very.

🏙: what's the capital city of the country you're from?

d.c.

🌃: how does politics make you feel?

i mean, they’re frustrating because they can’t fix everything but everyone acts like politics are the solution to every problem. at this point in america they only seem to divide.

🌉: in your opinion, what's the biggest obstacle one can face?

oneself. 

🌌: how do you feel about god?

I believe in Him. I believe He loves me and that He died for me. I don’t know what I would do without His love.

🌠: if you were allowed three wishes, what would they be?

1. for my friends and family to all have mental, emotional and physical health.2. for my friends and family to all know God’s love.3. to be able to overcome/heal from my own mental illness.

🎇: if you could create a day to be celebrated e.g. christmas or eid, what would it be and what would it be celebrating?

national park day. everyone gets the day off and admission to all national parks is free, and there are seminars where you can learn about your local national parks and what you can do to help them.

🎆: do you admire spontaneity or does it annoy you?

i admire it because i’m not good at it.

🌈: what are your thoughts on 'love'?

it’s the only thing that really matters in this world.

🏘: if you could, would you change your upbringing?

yeah. but i also don’t mind the person i’ve become because of it, so i dunno.

🏰: to you, what's the most magical place on earth?

the blue ridge parkway.

🏯: if you could move to any country of your choice, which would it be?

i just wanna live in alaska.

🏟: if you could erase one person from your memory, would you?

yes.

🗽: who's your role model? or what qualities do you think are looking-up-to worthy?

Hey there,Thank you! I definitely need all the thoughts, prayers and good vibes you can send. Haha.At the moment I’m doing okay, but it kind of comes and goes in waves.Just feels like I can’t really start to move on until everything is finished with.My mom wanted to be cremated, but we had a showing and funeral service for her on Friday and so now we’re waiting for the cremation and her ashes so we can bury her.  So I’ve still got a lot going on and need to set up a day for the burial once I’ve got her ashes and yeah… my head is still just spinning and I’ve got a lot left to do that I don’t even want to think about.It’s good to hear from you again.Hope things are well on your end. xx

Woooooow this was super hard and I didn’t even include the videos. But fun!

1: A song you like with a color in the title

Little Green - Joni Mitchell

2: A song you like with a number in the title

7 Years - Lukas Graham

3: A song that reminds you of summertime

We Are Young - Fun.

4: A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about

Hey, Soul Sister - Train

5: A song that needs to be played LOUD

Stockholm Syndrome - Blink-182

6: A song that makes you want to dance

Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap

7: A song to drive to

Keep Your Eyes Open - NEEDTOBREATHE

8: A song about drugs or alcohol

27 - Fall Out Boy

9: A song that makes you happy

Stay Alive - Jose Gonzalez

10: A song that makes you sad

Cough Syrup - Young the Giant

11: A song that you never get tired of

In Tenderness - Citizens & Saints

12: A song from your preteen years

Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

13: One of your favorite 80’s songs

I Wanna Dance With Somebody - Whitney Houston

14: A song that you would love played at your wedding

You Make My Dreams - Hall & Oats (which actually was played at my wedding)

15: A song that is a cover by another artist

Make You Feel My Love - Adele

16: One of your favorite classical songs

Fin - Melanie Laurent

17: A song that you would sing a duet with on karaoke

A Whole New World - Aladdin

18: A song from the year that you were born

I Will Always Love You - Whitney Houston

19: A song that makes you think about life

Wait For It - from Hamilton, performed by Leslie Odom Jr.

20: A song that has many meanings to you

Gravity - Sara Bareilles 

21: A favorite song with a person’s name in the title

Ophelia - The Lumineers

22: A song that moves you forward

Try Everything - from Zootopia, performed by Shakira

23: A song that you think everybody should listen to

It’s Quiet Uptown - from Hamilton, performed by Renee Elise Goldsberry (I think everyone should listen to all of Hamilton, but if I had to pick one...this song moves mountains.)

24: A song by a band you wish were still together

Full Circle - Aerosmith

25: A song by an artist no longer living

That’s Amore - Dean Martin (since Jules did Frank, I figured this was a good pair.)

26: A song that makes you want to fall in love

Enchanted - Taylor Swift

27: A song that breaks your heart

Organs - Of Monsters and Men

28: A song by an artist with a voice that you love

Gasoline - Halsey

29: A song that you remember from your childhood

Man, I Feel Like A Woman - Shania Twain

30: A song that reminds you of yourself

1: it's the apocalypse. you lay next to the person you trust and love most, and start talking. you know your time is limited. what is the one thing you want them to know before you two die? that life is a great adventure, and it’s been an honor to go through it with them beside me, but that there is even more adventure to come, and not to despair.

2: you are faced with an almighty spirit. it tells you that you must choose two emotions\feelings - one of them you will never feel again, and the other becomes your most dominant. which two are those? this is really difficult because i can see how every emotion can be vital in certain circumstances. is boredom an emotion? can I choose to never feel bored again? and my most dominant emotion... excitement. just, pure eagerness and enthusiasm for life. like that feeling when i’m standing on a mountainside.

3: what is the one thing you want your best friend to never do? why? how will you react if they do it? regardless of which best friend i’m referring to, i never want them to settle in life. because we only get one of these things and we should really not be rationalizing “the logical thing to do” but instead living it the way we want to live it. but, my idea of them settling might not be their idea of them settling, so if i were to feel like they had settled i would love them through that and support whatever decisions they’d made--while still nudging them toward whatever forgotten dreams they might have.

4: do you have a favorite tv show? why is it your favorite? what is the reason you started watching it, and what is the reason you continued? er...i jump around with shows a lot, so it’s hard to say. i guess my all-time favorite has been grey’s anatomy, though it at its current state is definitely NOT my favorite show on tv. but it’s my favorite because it allows me to feel things, and gives me reason to feel things, that i often don’t get to feel just on a daily basis. it reminds me of hidden things that need to be addressed. or, it used to, before it became all drama. i started watching it out of curiosity, because i was stuck at home in 9th grade and needed something to cry about. i continued because my heart got attached.

5: do you have a favorite musical instrument? if yes, why exactly is it your favorite? can you play it/would you ever? i really like the cello or the violin. it just amazes me that those instruments can make such a wide array of sound, and they’re so full of life and zest and emotion. i don’t know how to play it nor will i probably ever learn.

6: who is your all-time favorite character? why exactly? do you relate to them, and how? all-time favorite character...this is nearly impossible. okay, whatever, this is probably not my all-time favorite but for character development purposes we’re gonna say it is, I’m going with Zuko from Avatar the Last Airbender. His character arc is done FLAWLESSLY and he just represents so much of what and how a person wrestles with finding who they are. I really, truly love watching him grow into his own person, and especially how real it is with the amount of times he messes up or second guesses himself. And yeah, I definitely do relate to him, because he just feels things so intensely and sometimes it’s too much and he literally wants to explode and that’s...me.

7: is there anything you believe in? what is it? why do you believe in it? can you tell us something that explains this belief? I believe in God, and I believe in Jesus Christ, and I do believe that He is the Son of God and He came down to earth and died for all of us so we can have relationship with them again... I believe it because every other option sucks, and because I’ve seen how God has changed me and countless others, and frankly because the evidence points to it being true. Jesus clearly was a man who lived, and most people like to say He was a prophet but not God Himself in human form. Except, Jesus said himself that He’s the Son of God...so He’s either a liar, a raving lunatic, or telling the truth. And men actively chose to give their lives based on the truth that Jesus rose from the dead and is the Son of God. I believe in logic, and the logic of all of that says that Jesus was telling the truth. And why be afraid of that? If he was telling the truth that means there’s a loving, forgiving, desperate God out there who wants to KNOW me and love me and take care of me. Why would I want to convince myself that that’s not true?

8: you are locked in a room until the day you die, and have a choice to spend this time with one person. will you choose someone? if yes, who is it? why? Okay, well, can I choose Jesus? If I can’t choose Jesus (which would be stupid and I totally choose Jesus) then I think I probably have to pick my cat. OR a character from Harry Potter because that would just be entertaining. Also, both Jesus and an HP character could get me out of the room so...going with them.

9: what is the book that got you into reading, if there even is one? what was so special about it? when did you read it? I dunno, either the HP series or the Magic Treehouse series. Dope stuff.

10: what is the song i have to listen to so i could know you better? Stay Alive by Jose Gonzalez.

11: do you prefer being outside when its sunny or when its dark? When it’s sunny.

12: do you like the rain? why? do you prefer storms or light dripping? I do like the rain, but I prefer the weather either cold or warm sunshine, so rain isn’t my favorite. If I had to choose I’d rather a storm, so it makes it dark inside and you feel like you should light candles.

13: hot chocolate with cinnamon, marshmellows, both or none? Marshmallows.

14: do you like tea? why? if yes, what is your favorite kind? The only tea I’ve really enjoyed was the English Breakfast Tea I had in London when I went for afternoon tea. That stuff was addictive.

15: do you enjoy coffee? if yes, do you drink it for the taste or for the caffeine? COFFEE <3 I drink it for the taste. Shots are for caffeine.

16: what is your perfect playlist for studying? where is the perfect place to listen to it? I like the productive morning one on Spotify, or the soft jazz. In a coffeeshop.

17: what is your favorite color? why? what is your least favorite shade of this color? So I like gray, green, and pink. Gray can be any shade. Green needs to be a darker green or a like...almost camo green? Anything that’s a more faded shade or forest green. Pink, gotta have it blush or soft pink or salmon or something. NOT hot pink.

18: think of a person you love. now describe them, using only stuff that only you would describe them with. (for example - my person would be described by reading a new book while there's a storm outside.) Eating burgers and fries after playing little league baseball.

19: what is the song you feel like you HAVE to know to play? I do not fully understand this question but it is my goal to learn the full Titanic theme song and be able to play it with TWO HANDS, like accompaniment and all.

20: do you like writing? do you prefer to write on a computer or in a notebook? I love to write. And it depends on what I’m writing. Stories are better on the computer, thoughts and journal things are better on paper.

21: shuffle your playlist until you get to a song you will never skip. what is this song? why do you never skip it? do you recommend it? Boston, by Augustana. It feels like it was written for me. And that piano riff, I can’t skip that. Yes, obviously do recommend, especially if you’re feeling nostalgic. 

22: do you like stargazing? why? Yes. Because I love realizing how small I am, and how little my worries matter, and how little my decisions matter, and that there is this entire universe out there and yet God loves me and takes care of me. It strips me of all my fears.

23: what is your favorite hour of the day? I think I enjoy early in the morning, right after the sun has come up.

24: what is your harry potter house? did you get sorted on pottermore or do you think it represents you better? Slytherin. I did get sorted my pottermore, yeah. And before that, I didn’t really know where I belonged. I thought my Ravenclaw or Gryffindor, but I see now why Slytherin fits and I wouldn’t belong anywhere else.

25: what is your patronus? A brown owl (:

26: do you want to write a book? if yes, did you start already? Yes, I do, and if by having started the first few pages that means I started, then yes.

27: what is your favorite smell? Christmas trees :D or just the woods in general.

28: picture yourself at ease. now describe what exactly did you picture - with who you are? where? what exactly put you at ease? I’m in a field laying on a blanket, the sun is warm on my face, I have a good book and my journal with me, I can hear some water nearby so I can go play in the river when it gets too hot, and I’m alone. I’m at ease because I’m in nature, but also because I’m free of any responsibilities.

29: you have the option to forget one book/series completly and reread/rewatch it from the start. what book/series is it? Avatar the Last Airbender, for sure.