#wuschwusch

I'm not crying, you're crying. These two stupid soulmates. Honestly, the fact that Donna is visibly in physical pain just thinking about confronting Cam...relatable.

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a - age: I was a tween in the mid 90s, you’re welcome to do the math if you are so inclined

b - birthplace: NYC

c - current time: 1:22 am EDT

d - drink you last had: pineapple grapefruit seltzer 

e - easiest person to talk to: the internet lesbian film nerd friends I text and video chat with

f - favorite song: Part of me is all ‘I’ve been studying music for 20 years, how rude?’ But another part of me is like, ‘It might be “Like A Prayer” bc it’s a masterpiece’. The choir, Prince, the use of a relative major and minor key, the way it pretends to secretly be about sex when it’s actually secretly about Madonna’s faith and relationship to God/Catholicism/grief/trauma...idk. I hadn’t heard it in awhile but it seems to be following me around this year, and I always cry when I hear the bridge. If it’s not that it’s “Light Rail Coyote” by Sleater-Kinney, and if not that then “Good Luck in Jail” by Drive Like Jehu

g - grossest memory: ...a few years ago I was rehearsing Bikini Kill covers for a one-time benefit cover show thing and I sneezed really badly all over the microphone while we were practicing “In Accordance to Natural Law”. Like, really badly. Like you would not believe how much (apparently infected) snot got all over the place, but mostly on the microphone. We disinfected as best we could but one of my bandmates is a school teacher and we only had one microphone and we all got sick/kept getting sick/stayed sick for the two dead of winter months we worked on it. But somehow were all okay for the show? Punk rock, yalce!

h - horror yes or horror no:  No. I’m too soft for it, honestly.

i - in love?: Nah.

j - jealous of people?: Sometimes I’m profoundly jealous of people who aren’t orphans. Who have partners and roommates and bandmates and friends, whose parents are alive, and who seem like they have nice, normal, functional, emotionally full lives.

l - love at first sight or should I walk by again?: I’m gonna say no? I feel like ‘love at first sight’ is usually not so much ‘love’ as it is...trauma bonding.

m - middle name: Nope. My mom told me she didn’t see the point in middle names? My family is Catholic, we have confirmation names instead.

n - number of siblings: 0

o - one wish: To be free, in the Nina Simone sense. To be free of fear, to not have any reason to be afraid when I go outside by myself. Either that or to not be an orphan anymore/have some kind of family again at some point.

p - person you called last: my abuela, to let her know what time I’d go to her house for dinner

q - question you are always asked: ‘Hey, so how’s grad school going? Are you a doctor yet?! lol’

r - reason to smile: Recently had a birthday and actually enjoyed it; I’m no longer surrounded by people who make me feel like I’m hard to love; I finally have gay women friends and feel like a decentish future is maybe possible

s - song you last sang: "Edge of Seventeen” came on the radio when I was in my car before and I went to town with it

t - time you woke up:  Sometime between 1:30 and 2pm

u - underwear colour:  black

v - vacation destination: I don’t really like traveling for various reasons, but I’d like to visit Havana, and I always want to go to Puerto Rico and visit relatives that I never got to know. I also always want to go back to Yosemite, because it might be the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen.

w - worst habit: Can I say, ‘having an anxiety disorder’? If not, perfectionism, and putting off doing things if I don’t think I’ll do them ‘perfectly’, thinking my life is over and that I’ll be unloveable if I’m not ‘perfect’, etc

x - x-rays: Only for dental work, I think?

f - favorite food: arroz y habichuelas, tamales/most Mexican food, omelettes/breakfast food

z - zodiac sign: Virgo

This gifset is so cruel. I feel like someone is punching me in the heart.    

@wuschwusch/everyone -- if the CamxDonna Defense Squad had a coat of arms with a motto or house words on it, that motto would be ‘I feel like someone is punching me in the heart’, right?

  - I finished the game. - What game? - Your game....

Also. RUDE.

I feel so attacked right now 🤣🤣🤣                    

How do you win?

        You just - just use your knees and stuff.

I mean, there's still so much to talk about. Apart from annual rewatching marathons... For now it's grief counseling. Also, I might just be tweeting from San Junipero since this has all been a lot. I might have also tried to deal with my grief by binging a serial killer tv series mostly because of Anna Torv. I'm dealing...somehow. 😭                    

There really is so much to talk about, though? I could barely keep up with season 4, and that’s before we even get into the finale and how gay it really was, amirite?

💗💗💗 let's have another hangout soon. Sigh. We will never stop talking about Donna 😍 That is impossible.