#wtgttb asks

sometimes, life has a funny way of letting you know that there's so much more to it than what our brains gaslight us into believing. i've been going throught a rough patch in my life these past months, too. nothing makes sense, i'm feeling lost—keep asking myself everyday what is my purpose in this life if every thing i try to built keeps falling apart or where i f'cked up so bad because i'm not where i'm supposed to be at this point in my life. i didn't want to leave my bed, cut all contact with everyone and i even stopped working hard on the business that i own.

i knew i was sinking and i also knew that, if i let it get worse, i wouldn't be able to pull myself out of that anymore. so, one day, as a way to keep my head afloat, i started to write a story i had in my head for literally months. i even remember once telling a friend i made here about it, and how writing for azriel scared me a little. i used it as a way to try and wake myself up—to start using my brain for other things instead of letting it rot. And that turned into WTGTTB.

now you might understand a little bit more why this was hard for me to answer without getting emotional (and even now i'm tearing up). when i read this beautiful message, it blew my mind the fact that, a story i used as a life jacket—and never thought it would reach so many people,—helped you to keep swimming (as dory said), it just makes me so. damn. happy. so, THANK YOU for considering me worthy to know this, it is such an honor 🤍 i know it's never easy to be vulnerable with another person—no matter how you do it.

and to be completely honest with you, i'm still struggling, and is probably gonna be that way for a while. but i am doing a little better than when i started. it is not a linear process—we take this life by its proverbial leash and keep trying one step at a time.

i'm always here to talk whenever you'd like—as a nonnie or through my inbox. also, something i always try to keep in mind, and i'd love for you to do the same, is that nothing is messed up without purpose. what's coming is better, because you are better too.