wait, stop

hm? you look over to see jongho take off his coat and bunch it up before placing it underneath where your head would’ve been.

here, so your neck isn’t sore later from laying on hard ground

you smile at him and you hope it’s not totally evident to everyone else in the park the major heart eyes you’re giving him. down bad. no, down terrible

y’know if you weren’t such a grouch for affection, i’d totally kiss you so hard right now

you hear him chuckle before he lays next to you. maybe later

a few minutes pass by as you both enjoy the warmth on your faces. you turn your head to the side to see jongho’s eyes closed. kiss him. your brain must hate you.

do it, he’s sleeping anyways.

he’ll kill me

he loves you too much to kill you

i’m not gonna kiss him

coward

your brain really does hate you because next thing you know, you find yourself waving your hand over his eyes to see if he wakes up. nothing.

you’re not sure what in your right mind pushes you to do this, but you lift your head up and angle it so your hair doesn’t tickle him and wake him up. you scooch over just a little and. wow. you softly place your lips against his neck and give him the lightest of kisses before moving away to scan his face for any movement. lucky for you, he’s still aslee-

what was that?

or so you thought.

what? nothing. i thought you were asleep

just because my eyes were closed doesn’t mean i was asleep

b..but i waved my hands over your face, and you didn’t wake up

i was curious to see what you were gonna do. so i ask again, what was that?

you huff and roll back over onto your back covering your flushed (plus flushed some more) face with your hands. aphngshun

what?

aphnshn

take your hands of your face and tell me

you slide your hands off your mouth and let them fall to your sides.

affection

ew

and you can’t hide the heartbroken face you make when you hear that. sure he probably didn’t mean it, but it still hurt. maybe he really just hated you. if it was anyone else, or maybe someone in his past he wouldn’t feel this way. were you too ugly? or a bad kisse-

do it again

your eyes practically bulge out of your head and you almost snap your neck from the whiplash as you look at him.

what??

i said do it again

you prop yourself on your elbow as you reach over to feel his head. maybe we should go home...you feel warm.

or maybe it’d because it’s sunny outside and we’ve been laying here for 10 minutes?

your scrambling for words to say, but all your head is replaying at the moment is do it again, do it again, do it aga-

you can’t finish your last thought as you suddenly feel a pair of lips softly crash into yours. you feel jongho mumble against your lips, smiling. you took too long. his hands reach to pull you on top of him and you smile against his lips back. i love you.

i love you too baby.

i’m sorry, i guess it’s just been a long day

are you seriously apologizing for trying to stay up with me? i told you, it’s okay. we could be doing anything together. even sleeping

you huff sadly, but appreciative that he loved you so much that he would sacrifice his movie time to cuddle with you in bed. who were you kidding, you’d absolutely do the same for him.

mmm fine. can i have some chips though?

angel, you’re about to sleep and i doubt you have the energy to brush your teeth. no chips

please? at this point, you’re shameless, pulling out the puppy eyes and snuggling in even closer to his side.

i’m sorry baby but no. he leans down to peck your nose as an apology until you start moving. you find the motivation to get those chips and throw one leg over his waist so you’re practically straddling him. you push your hair to one side and bite your lip trying to pull off your best seductive face to throw him off his game as you lean in closer to him.

b bab..baby, what’re you doing

you remain silent as you look straight into his eyes seeing his adam’s apple bob up in down in equal parts confusion and arousal. you lean in closer and closer till your breath mingles with his and you feel his grip begin to tighten around your waist. everything is silent as you stare him down like a tiger.

seonghwa?

y..yes?

you smirk. you’ve got him. you slide one hand up his arm to rest on his shoulder and you’re totally sure that he is not paying attention to anything but you. you use this opportunity to reach your other hand to the chip bag that has now been left unattended. your hand inches towards the chips, your face inches towards his.

a..angel?

yeah, baby?

you’re really sexy right now, but you’re still not getting any chips

you stop a moment, confused?

what?

you hear the loud crinkle of the plastic bag as it gets pulled away from your grip. seonghwa slides you off his lap and heads to the kitchen to put the chips away leaving you emotionally and physically frustrated. you plop yourself to lay on the couch starfish as you watch him walk away.

you hear him put a rubber band around the bag and place it in the pantry as he walks back with a smile on his face. he leans down to kiss your forehead and offer you his hand.

you almost got me i will admit, but you do need some rest. you can wear one of my shirts to bed and take one for while i’m away

and if those chips didn’t motivate you to do something, that promise sure did.

networks; @ateezlovenet

you rolled your eyes unlocking your phone.

[me]: and what makes you think i’m going to go with you?

[pretty boy choi <3]: wait you’re not going to? :(

if you really don’t want to it’s okay. i’ll just go by myself then…

[me]: you’re such a baby. give me 5 minutes

[pretty boy choi <3]: hehe love youuu

you couldn’t stop the smile on your face as you rolled out of bed and grabbed your sneakers and a hoodie when you heard your phone ping again.

[pretty boi choi <3]: say it back meanie >:(

[me]: or what?

[pretty boy choi <3]: ...no hugs? for a week! >:(

[me]: that would hurt you more than me and you know that

[pretty boy choi <3]: ...fine

but are you cominggggg. it’s cold

[me]: i’m coming i’m coming

and indeed, upon entering the 7/11, your mountain man was wearing shorts and a sweater while standing in front of the freezer trying to get a drink.

no wonder you’re cold san

he turns around at the sound of your voice.

YAYY YOU CAME FOR ME

i came for the food, relax

he pouts and it’s so irresistible. you want to lean in and kiss the pout off of his face but then again - you’re in a 7/11 with cameras in every corner. not the best place to let your emotions flow.

it was always like this. secret hangouts, fleeting touches, warm smiles, eyes lingering on lips for a bit too long. it pained both of you but it was what was best for the group. it wasn’t like either of you were oblivious to each other’s feelings. like you said, clearer than seonghwa’s glass, but you had to think of 7 other people. it wasn’t fair for you two to be selfish just because you harbored not-so-secret feelings for each other. you were still able to hang around each other this way without drawing too much suspicion even though sometimes all you wanted to do was kiss each other senseless in the practice room or after a stage or after a win.

you followed san to the cashier and headed back upstairs to the lounge so you could both eat in peace. it was silent but not a heavy, awkward silence. more like the kind of silence that brings comfort. san scarfs his food down as the soup gets all over his face and some dry vegetables end up on his lip. you laugh and set your cup to the side, grabbing a napkin.

you eat like a child

he looks up with bright eyes as he watches your hand near his face.

maybe i do it on purpose so you can baby me

you don’t have to do anything on purpose for me to baby you

and there’s the silence again. a warm silence that embraces the two of you as you wipe his face gently. you can tell he’s staring, but you don’t mind.

hey

you feel him grab your wrist as you begin to pull away. he takes the napkin from out of your hand, crumpling it up and placing it on the side.

hey?

you look at him with big eyes startled at the sudden action. gosh he loved your eyes so much. you feel him move his hand from your wrist into your hand interlocking your fingers together.

you know i have feelings for you right? that’s never changed

i know. and you know i have feelings for you right? that’s never changed either

i know...it’s just...i don’t know, i feel bad that we can’t really act on it because of the company

he looks down at the table. the silence feels sad now.

yeah...it sucks for sure...you chuckle bitterly and try not to get too emotional in front of him. you don’t want him to feel worse than he probably already does, maybe in another place, or time, or universe even, we’d be free to fall in love

it takes a minute, but san looks up smiling.

that’s okay

it is?

yup, he looks over at the microwave clock. 1:49 a.m.

you hear his chair scrape against the floor before you feel him pulling you. let’s go. you scramble all the trash together throwing it away as he starts walking towards your dorm again, and it’s not long before you find yourself in your dark room, the only light source being the moon from those really clean windows, wow.

okay...um...goodnight then?

no no listen, you said that maybe in another place and time maybe we could fall in love right?

yeah, but i don’t get what that has to do wi-

so how about here and now?

what?

another place. another time. your room. 1...he takes a peek at his phone...57 a.m.

and you finally realize that he’s been holding you in his arms this entire time with his arms around your waist and your hands on his chest, foreheads as close as ever. and maybe you’ve fallen in love with a genius. you smile at him with that smile he would die for.

this works

you lean in a little more closing the gap and press your lips against his own letting your arms hook around the back of his neck. you can tell he’s smiling as he hums into the kiss. and for a few minutes, neither of you care about companies, or images, or even how your breaths smell like msg and spicy noodles. all that matters right now, is how freeing kissing each other feels.

today was no exception. there was a proposal for a new group to be debuting under his label, but there was no album concept, no group concept, and no debut song picked out for this group that the public was eagerly waiting for. some people would say he was unfair about the proposal’s due date, but two weeks is definitely more than enough time. if you put in the work at least. 

it took everything in jongho not to burst vein at how his employees were treating this debut. opening his eyes and peering at the red numbers on his desk clock, he decided to call it quits for the day. 10:00 pm...earlier than usual. grabbing his coat from the back of his chair, he leaves the room making sure to stop by the secretary’s desk before heading to the elevator. 

if mr. lee doesn’t submit his proposal on my desk by tomorrow morning, be sure to tell him not to come into work tomorrow

the secretary can only give a tight-lipped smile back.

yes mr. choi

thank you

one of the only upsides to jongho’s job was that he was able to buy a rooftop condo with his money. it had a gorgeous view of the city, allowed him to wake up 10 minutes before work started, and housed 2 of the most beautiful girls in his life. 

before he could even walk out of the elevator he could hear the soft pitter patter of footsteps and the trail of water left by wet hair.

APPA! YOU’RE HOME!!!

that sound. jongho had many favorite songs, but his daughter’s voice surpassed them all. squatting down with open arms, he waited for the soft impact of his 4 year old daughter’s body to hit his chest.

appa’s home princess! where’s mommy?

kitchen! i wanted dino nuggies!

is it possible for a heart to grow bigger? the grinch did it. jongho picked up the small human in his arms and walked towards the kitchen.

dino nuggies this late at night? mmm...is this what you and mommy do when i’m not home?

she shook her head rapidly.

mm mm. mommy reads me a story and then she kisses me goodnight.

ah i see...mommy gives the best kisses right?

her tiny arms spread as far as they could reach almost hitting jongho in the face, the best in the whole wide world!

jongho walks into the kitchen to see you taking the dinosaur chicken nuggets out of the toaster oven, blowing on the tips of your fingers to cool them off. he begins to laugh letting his daughter run over to you.

MOMMY! are the dino nuggies done?

you look back almost dropping the last chicken nugget as your daughter’s voice scares you. 

OHMYGOSH, sweetie you almost made me drop your dino nuggie

i’m sorry mommy. appa’s home too!! can we eat dino nuggies with appa?

you place the last nugget on the plate as you take them to the kitchen island, your daughter trailing next to you. 

well i don’t see why not. but i think your appa has to give mommy a kiss first before he can eat with us? what do you think?

jongho lifts your daughter into her booster seat as you lean your head on one arm staring at him. he stares at you back with an eyebrow raised. he feels his daughter tug on his arm rapidly.

appa appa mommy says you kiss her or no dino nuggies. kiss mommy so we can eat dino nuggies please

he gives his daughter a look before walking around the counter to place a hand on your waist, leaning in and hovering over your lips smiling.

hey baby

hey

you smile back at him before kissing him softly. it never seems to get old. though you’ve been married for 7 years, kissing him felt the same as when you met him when you were 25. 

jongho pulls back a little just to place a kiss on your nose to which you scrunch your face.

you both turn your head when you hear your daughter start to clap.

DINO NUGGIES!!!

you smile as you both dig in while jongho watches the both of you. he wishes he never had to leave either of you. every time his day starts to take little pieces of his patience and sanity away, you two are always there to fill him up with the perfect amount of love again. your names are permanently etched on the blank line titled my heart belongs to ______

APPA! EAT!

yeah appa, eat

you smile as you hold a nugget towards him. 

these were the moments where he wishes that he could write all the reasons why his heart belonged to you two on every blank canvas in the world. 

that should be a lyric for his new group’s debut.

juyeon - the boyz

i love the beginning arch from the floor, it was different and unique and set the breathiness and lightness of the rest of the performance

his musicality is amazing, in hitting every piano key, his performance rely less on the core and the power and instead rely on subtlety and airiness

the short beat drop in the middle was pretty good, but i do feel like the choreo felt a little off for the theme

the silence was great, but the part where he like chokes?? himself?? (idk the bg is red) i feel like there could’ve been a little more drama and power at that point

his initial movements from that point on could’ve been driven with a little more sharpness and power, but the flow through it all was still great

overall - i think he did amazing and i really enjoyed the fluidity of it all

lee know - stray kids

okay contemporary pull through

the isolations are incredible

the beginning is already so incredibly structured, from the use of the wolf’s howl to demonstrate fluidity to the beats showing the intricate isolations MM yes

the main powerful performance is really amazing too

it doesn't feel rushed or like the choreo doesn’t belong

similar to juyeon’s i feel like there are some parts where the choreo and power could be heightened to add drama or this sense of urgency and attack

again though, the musicality is really really amazing

the part where the beats speed up and its like (pardon me) DUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUN and he’s doing a lot of things really fast, i do feel like that could’ve been a little clearer and sharper

overall - this performance is amazing, from the musicality to the power in a contemporary style,, loved it

san - ateez

if there’s one thing this man will always give it is face

and from the get go you can tell how his performance doesn’t rely on technicalities but on story 

his musicality and power from the get go is already BOOM just right there

i love the fast/slow play - it really heightens the performance but really does give him room to play with facial expressions

there’s some points of choreography that i feel could’ve been a little better or changed to fit the music better - i see this a lot when the really fast beats come in, the choreo feels like it doesn’t match the intensity of the music at times (not just with san but with the performances in general)

he did look like he was gonna fall out of his scorpion (that thing where he pushes off the ground to stand up - pls be careful bby)

the big beat drops at the end where it goes DUN...DUN...DUN...DUN - i would’ve like to see one more bit of choreo before he walks off (but that’s probably just for him in get in position for the flower) 

i love the kick at the end, especially how the camera moves with it, i think it really just seals this performance

overall - definitely love the story he gave through his facial expressions and through playing with the fast and slow parts + the intensity and power through his movement

minhyuk - btob

okay lyrical come through

he definitely is taking a more contemporary, lyrical approach to the performance which i do enjoy seeing

i do feel like there are some parts lacking a bit in power

the jump in the middle feels a bit out of place

i really love the extensions of his body though

he flows through the music and doesn't forget the gentleness of each step

it was short :(

i do enjoy seeing a good contemporary piece, and i think the music fit this perfectly

i would’ve liked to see a bit more power come through for him and maybe a bit more intensity

overall - i though he did really great with his extensions and lightness of the choreo nd i would’ve loved to see more

taeyang - sf9

the beginning already - hi sir who are YOU

UGH THE CONTEMPORARY

his turns were spotted and controlled and then the drop to the half split - the silence there is breathtaking i love it

oh my gosh this intensity in the breathing in the song but also how his movements literally break through the air like they’re sharp breaths

OH THAT BEAT DROP

his musicality is amazing, every tic is a new movement

OKAY ILLUSION (that thing where is leg is up in the air and his head is grazing the ground and he’s on one foot)

this musicality is insane im losing my mind here

i love how the breaths in the song are chances for him to really go and take those dramatic breaths for himself before he goes into another set of choreo

HE DOES A 540 OHHHHHHHHHHH (the turning jump he does towards the end)

oh and the ending pose

overall - wow, this performance blew me away, from the contemporary to the musicality, it was incredible, loved it so much

donghyuk - ikon

okay smiley

i’ve seen donghyuk as a dancer through who’s next and all the yg shows

honestly, i do feel this is a little lackluster for him

maybe it’s the choreo or the style or the robe

but some of his moves feel a little repetitive

there’s a lot of arm swirls i see which do fit the song quite great

but there’s not really a lot of choreo i see to be honest

akajfl i don’t want this to seem like im crapping on him, cause i know he’s a great dancer

the scorpion and jump feel a little out of place

hhh, i do appreciate his power and intensity in his performance but i just feel like it’s not quite there