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Let go of the lighter. Inhale the rush of nicotine. Blow out smoke. Watch the smoke curl and expand around me. Mm, typical routine.

"You should stop that, ya know." she tells me. I shrug and take another drag, releasing perfect wisps of smoke from my lungs. I stay quiet.

Don't wanna. 

She wrinkles her nose at my lack of response and from the corner of my eye, I watch her mouth pull downwards into a frown. 

"It's gross." she begins to lecture again, turning her attention to something more worthy; the dark, overcast sky.

Then don't stay. Go.

I tap the building ash off of my cigarette before resuming the process. My lips twist into a wry smirk as she looks back over at me.

"Y-You're just killing yourself." she tells me, her voice is quieter than before. I take the final breath out of the cigarette before throwing it down and putting it out under my shoe. She looks relieved until I stand up and take another one out of the carton, walking away as I light it up, repeating the routine.

I'm so happy for the other two (even though one is staying close[r]) because they're following exactly what they want to do, as are N and I. But I can't help but be extremely nervous that all of this is just going to fade. That we won't be close. That it's going to end up like all the other friendships I've had.

Yesterday, during lunch, a bunch of dumbass Seniors and underclassmen had a food fight in the cafeteria. It got messy and kids were scrambling to get out of the cafeteria to avoid to storm of food. Some kids [like my friends and I] had a concert that night and were told to wear our uniform shirts to kinda promote the night and what not. Some kids had their shirts stained, some had their yearbooks or textbooks covered in various sauce and liquids. Overall, it was gross.

This was apparently our "Senior Prank." [SP]

Anyways, 12 students were suspended and the Seniors within those 12 are not allowed to walk at graduation next week. Students and parents alike are furious and are signing a petition and blah blah blah. Honestly, I could care less. Before you pick sides or call me heartless, let me explain why.

We are HIGH SCHOOL STUDENTS, NOT KINDERGARTEN BABIES. Seriously? You couldn't have thought of something less destructive for SP?  More than that, if you participated and HONESTLY thought that you weren't going to get any consequences for that, you're pretty stupid. Seniors at my school complain all the time that we are "young adults,"  not children, and they were punished like "young adults." What makes me laugh the hardest are the parents. "This is high school, they should be having fun! This was a harmless prank." I'm sorry, do YOU want to pay for the textbooks and yearbooks that were ruined? Yearbooks are running at $60 this year and textbooks at $75. We are 17-19 years of age. I don't know about you, but having disgusting food in my hair and on my clothes isn't exactly "fun" for me. Your children need to grow the fuck up because these aren't things they are allowed to do in the real world.

One parent of the 12 commented and said, "...if this had happened a month ago, graduation wouldn't have even played a role in their punishment." You're right. It wouldn't have. You know what would have, though? PROM. Tickets were prom were expensive as shit and if they would've taken prom away from your child, you'd still be sitting at your computer, on Facebook, bitching away at how unfair our school district is, when really, your child is the problem. Take a seat and shut up.

They suspended your students. Suspension, in the HANDBOOK, says that the ones who are suspended may not partake in school activities. They're still getting their diplomas, they just can't walk. They're still going to take their finals, they just have to do it after school [because you're suspended, not allowed on campus unless authorized.] It's really. Not. That. Big. Of. A. Deal. It seems, harsh, yes. They could've just been punished with cleaning up the cafeteria, I understand, but they're the perfect example for the underclassmen. Don't fuck up, there are consequences. I just wish some of the people in my senior class knew that.

Also, here's me being sarcastic and an asshole for a moment. Someone who wanted me to sign the petition said "Don't act like you don't care. You'd be pissed if you got suspended too." WRONG. If I had partaken in your childish games, I KNOW I would've gotten in trouble and that graduation walk would be threatened. It's LITERALLY that predictable. In fact, my friend and I KNEW that someone was going to threaten graduation as punishment. Those consequences are LOGICAL, so I don't understand why everyone is so surprised. I'm going to act like I don't care because I REALLY DON'T. Less names I have to sit through next week on graduation night.