#would suck

the way britta having the unique position of ‘guest who isnt an eligible bachie’ lets her see behind a bunch of old traditions in the tower

the poor scollbow kids not allowed to eat and being forced to serve all their food to their guests

the fact that part of the reason britta figures this out is bc she can draw from her own experiences in relative poverty (or taking a sharp turn from ‘very well off’ to ‘shop working class hidey hole shop)

‘pompous old goat’

this isnt related at all but im listening to a playlist while im typing this and i really love every time we touch

how ready britta is to rip into collin but eventually realising he was working against centuries of tradition and it would be hard even if he hated it

the fact that collin followed through and stole the sunrise pearl you go boy

just let me adopt the twins ill take care of them :(

my life would suck without you is also a fantastic song

the reveal that larsett had come to illica two years before stealing the staff hell yeah

Oooh! A piece of cheese just for me?!? How enticing :D I sure hope no one captures me and puts me into beautifully tied bondage but not in a sexual way so I can appreciate the years they've spent honing their art form to craft such a beautiful way to restrain me.

It's hard to say... I mean it's possible I would have found my own way struggle bussing through New York. I'm pretty resilient. I don't want to completely write off myself at that time but when I think about the person he met, I was lost and hurt.

I was a person with a lot of big ideas (still am) but I didn't know where or how to focus that energy in any sort of productive way. Self doubt was a giant monster in my life and at that point I'd sort of resigned myself to what I had was good enough. There was a lot of bitterness boiling inside me and I didn't know how to heal it nor how to manage it most of the time...

I was also ready to leave on a dime. My youth was not a stable environment so I always had a plan b, there was an escape route in almost everything I did. Commitment to anything, was not a strong suit because that's how you got hurt.

Nikolas came in and shined a light on all the little cracks in me and helped me repair them. Helped me be stable and believe in myself, never overstepping in his role as cheerleader and confidant. I grew so much in getting to know him and loving him that considering a life without him, is hard to envision.