#work check

36 has been an adjustment year.

Going into 37 with gainful permanent employment, even if it’s not what I envisioned, is a pretty good start.

3 map parts (oh no! / hapsburg lippp / toh reanimated) and 3 commissions (2 busts / 1 lip sync)

im almost done with my oh no part [will post wip]

i was awarded the founder award at our promotion ceremony tonight at work.

the ceo doubled my equity in the company and said some of the nicest, kindest most genuine things i’ve ever heard said about myself. in a room full of people i admire deeply and greatly.

the ceo said if i ever started a company she would invest in it because she felt that i had what it takes to lead a startup. and honestly, i feel like i was born for this moment.

they recognized my leadership during good and bad times. they said i truly treat this company as if it were my own. and i really do. they said i always help everyone with a smile on my face. they said i’m an incredible leader. it’s unreal. i feel so so blessed to be in a place i love and be recognized for my hard work. thank you god, thank you universe. i am so happy to be here.

i had a 1:1 with my boss (the CFO) where i presented a development plan for myself and my department, 18 months out.

he asked me what position i wanted to be in in 18 months, i said “director of customer support”

he said “i think it’s more like senior director of customer support, moving towards VP of customer support”

and i almost fucking choked. me? a VP at 30?

i was working to wrap my head around director / senior director.

i feel fucking blessed. i feel shocked, but sister reminds me i shouldn’t be shocked. this is who i’ve always been.

i’m shocked because i took risks. i quit a safe, stable job to be unemployed. and 5 years later, i could be a fucking VP…. that shit blows my mind a little.

but i should remember that every bet i’ve placed on myself, i’ve won. my path is unique but it’s mine and i was destined for great, unimaginable things. so i will keep my head high and remember who i am, what i’ve built and what i’m worth.

holy shit. a VP at 30… if im a VP at 30, where will i be at 40? at 50? shit, at 60 i better own a damn country 😂

borderline gutted

to pour everything, really everything you have into something

requires an incredibly deep level of dedication

and to have it constantly thrown back in your face

in every way that things aren't perfect

it hurts so deeply

i will always try and do every thing

that's who i am

but it is difficult to keep standing tall

keep giving so much

and get so little thanks in return

it really does hurt

i know that's part of it

but it does hurt

but i'll keep standing tall

keep doing me

keep trying to lead with integrity and heart