#withoutchemicals

lmao i dont see that very often. except for in glee sets. but all glee fans hate glee

ahhhh i'm seeing her in 2 weeks! Super cool!

2. Talk about your first kiss

My first kiss sucked. The Make-a-Wish club at my high school was hosting this glow dance to fundraise money and it basically turned into this huge hook-up party. I was following my buddy Sam around and he saw a girl that he liked and started dancing with her so I started dancing with her friend. The next thing you know Sam is sucking face with that girl and after an awkward 20 minutes I decide to go in for it too. It was awkward, sweaty, and it lasted like 5 seconds. I was 15 and it was the time in my life where all i wanted to do was get it over with and follow the crowd. Horrible experience.

22. Talk about your worst fear

I would say my worst fear is not having control over things. Especially the future. If I had to tell you a physical fear it would be bees/wasps/hornets. Basically things that sting you. Fuck that, man. I ain't about that life.

33. Talk about what you do when you're sad

2: Talk about your first kiss.

I’ll tell you about my first "real" kiss. It was sophomore year, and I just met this foreign kid on the school bus (seriously) and he lived in the neighborhood right next to mine, yet we had never really spoken. He was always on his blackberry or on his DS playing mario kart with random kids on the bus (I’m serious, but you wouldn’t believe me if you knew him). One day I ended up sitting next to him and we started talking, and he got my number and we kept texting and talking. A few days later it snowed and we didn’t have school, so we hung out, and he came over and we watched a movie and cuddled on the couch. He kept like shifting so that our faces would be closer and I kept shifting awkwardly because I had no idea what to do about the weird angles. The first attempt, we banged teeth and it was a hot, hysterical, mess. We figured it out though and we dated for a little while. 

12: Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.

I have these really vivid dreams sometimes that I have a chance to stop my brother from getting abused again, but I can only watch from the outside, or I’m too slow to reach it. It’s like I’ll try my very hardest to run and get back to him but I can never run fast enough and it gives me this pressure in my chest because I want to run and move quicker but I never can. It’s horrible. 

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

Back when I used to self-injure, a girl saw my scars, and made sure I knew that she saw them. Later that day, she looked at me, in a very frank way and said something like “Amanda, I know. And I know you can’t promise me anything, but I want you to know that I know and that I will not let someone I see hurting to keep hurting alone. I will be there to listen, to make eye contact, to nod at the right time, whatever. I get it and you aren’t alone.” I got help not too long after that. We never really spoke about it, but she was always there. 

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.

This guy had a nice dong and he used it nice and talked to me nice and sometimes talked to me bad if I wanted. He had a nice dong. 

SO. It was an....interesting film (spoilers) I'll try to keep them minimal incase anyone actually reads this