#winnerisback2018

brief description: mino had a really tough week and negative thoughts have been sucking his positivity off of him. knowing that he had a hard time recently, you suggested to have a movie night with him over at his place.

Unknown words rolled off the actors' tongue quickly and confidently, on par with the korean subtitles that were flashing on the screen as the movie continued. You laughed when the actor failed to capture the actress' attention as he tried to pour out his feelings to her. It reminded you of what your boyfriend did when he first tried to convey his feelings for you through a poem, but ended up failing because you received a call halfway through his recitation. Which was way before the confession part of his poem.

You noticed Mino has been shifting around his seat, letting out a soft sigh once in a while though his gaze was fixed on the screen. Is the movie boring him out? You thought to yourself before giving his hand a gentle squeeze.

"Is it boring for you? We could change it." You smiled softly, trying to lighten up his rather dull mood.

"Nah, it's okay. I'm enjoying the movie." He replied, his gaze softening when he looked at you. "Really." He added, trying to reassure you that he was fine.

You hit pause to stop the movie before turning your whole body to face him on the couch. You grabbed both of his hands and squeezed them tightly, your face had a look of disapproval with his reply.

"Something's up," You said, frowning. "Spill it."

Mino's eyes shifted, avoiding eye contact with you.

"Come on," You shook his hands a little, hoping that he would get whatever that's in his mind out so he would feel better.

"Am I..." He paused before looking right into your eyes, his gaze seemed sad. "Am I tough to love?"

You stoned for a moment, trying to register what he just said. You have been together with him for a good 1 year already and it's the first time he had ever asked this question.

"You're easy to love, silly boy." You giggled before reaching out to give his cheeks a little pinch.

"No," He grabbed your hands again, firmly this time before he continued on. "I'm being serious right here, y/n."

"Why are you asking this suddenly?" You asked, feeling very uneasy.

He let out a deep sigh and runs his hands through his hair.

"It's just... I'm an idol. You're my girlfriend. Our relationship is never and will never be officially publicised because of who I am. Hardly anyone would know that you're mine. We can't go on date publicly. We can't eat at restaurants comfortably. We can't hold hands in public like the rest. We can't do this, we can't do that. We always have to be secretly doing this and that, like right now." He stopped to catch his breathe.

"And-" You cut him off with a long kiss before he could continue to ramble on and on.

"Stop," You pulled away from him slightly. "This relationship might be tough but because we love each other, any hurdles can be overcomed. We have been through so much, we can definitely go through this together until things are ready. Till then, we can do whatever the heck we want."

He looked at you, touched by your short yet assuring words of comfort before pulling you into his arms for a hug. Things have been going through his mind recently after looking at how "normal" couples could hold hands publicly and go out on a date — things that he wished he could have done with you but he couldn't because of his status. He felt selfish and felt that you deserve someone better than him. Someone who could do such things for you.

You patted his back gently, trying to reassure him that everything was okay. You like how it is right now, though there were indeed times back when you first started dating that you were upset you couldn't do what other couples would do together outside. But still, little moments like this makes you happy and blessed too, regardless of what others can do and what you guys couldn't.

"I love you," You muttered, burying your face into his shoulder. "So, so much."