#widowersmind

I came across a video from a youtuber by chance and it brings into the conundrum it presents to the living:

An event happens and you think of the person and then you miss them. The thing is it make you sad because they are no longer with the living. Eventually you get tired of the pain it causes and avoid those events from happening, to shield yourself from the roller coaster of emotions that fall out. There in lies the problem - you know it hurts less each time, but it still hurts and like all things in life you move away from the pain.

It’s an ugly cycle.

The fighter part in me says to never give in, but I grow tired. Things are just not that clear anymore.