#whyrezwriting

I feel quite good about myself in general. My self-esteem is quite good lately and as I keep sorting out my physique and keep looking after my appearance I can be attractive. I don't want to just be a guy she's attracted to.

I am romantic, I know how to love – I understand romance – the bliss, the melancholy, the tragedy or the happy-ever-after. I know to give my girl little surprises and things to let her know that I care about her. I know romantic gestures, they're a part of my nature. I don't just know them, they come naturally to me. I don't want to just be the most romantic & loving guy she's ever known.

I have a strong character, I can look after her both physically and emotionally. I would fight the world for my girl if it came to it and I am a great listener and am comforting, patient and understanding - I can be a girl's rock and shoulder to cry on. I can give her the reassurance and advice she needs to feel better and safe again. I don't just want to be a good friend, shoulder to cry on and protection to depend on.

I would never cheat or lie. I am moralistic, considerate and have manners. I don't want to just be true, real and a gentleman.

[Censored my own personal Kama Sutra] I don't just want to be the best love maker.

I'm fun to be around and naturally social. I know how to have a laugh, connect to people, make a good impression and make good plans for good things to do together. I don't just want to be a fun guy to be around.

I'm different and I think outside the box. I'm expressive and don't mind too much if I'm acting in ways other people find unusual. I don't 'go against the grain' or try to be different from culturally normal things or ways of thinking but I understand different ways of looking at things. I've got an artistic mind and see things that way. But I don't just want to be 'weird in a good way'.

I have a fair amount of knowledge, can hold a good conversation, am a music producer and think a lot. I have cryptic mysteries and secrets hidden. I have a past and a vision of a future. But I don't just want to be interesting.

Most of all I'm a person who's always going to try and be the best version of myself and always learn. I make an effort to be a good person, it matters to me. I'm not writing these things trying to big myself up or make myself feel better - quite the opposite, I know I'm not perfect and this is why I want to improve.

I don't see why people get so arsey about sampling & royalties and shit... I'd never EVER complain if my shit was sampled, credited or not. If their shit got big I'd just sue them & prove the copyright without taking it public, like an avenging ghostwriter.

Naturally I will always be inclined to respect the composer as an artist more than the sampler, but I don't discredit the samplers. If you can take one piece of art & change it to make another & give other people a reason to enjoy it, that can't be bad. If the piece of art is different enough to become something new there is no place for credits. There're only so many audibly pleasing tones.

Living as if you’re already dead is equally important to success and prepares you for loss whilst ensuring you're always using your life in a way you would not regret retrospectively from death.

The ego, the mind, the theatrical self, the caricature, the ugly mug, the front, the facade, the act; it’s a defence mechanism but it’s another tool to keep you comfortable. You have to attack it whilst simultaneously exceeding boundaries and forcing out of comfort zones so that you have the experience to be your true self, in the eye of how you’d see yourself with the freedom, courage and experience to be so.

For a good couple of years now I have been experimenting with changes in my diet (through cutting certain foods as well as trying to eat more of things) to:

improve vitality and energy

improve overall health

reduce risk of cancer and other disease

promote a healthy digestive system

properly nourish the body to aid my training exercises

One of the key battles I had was with grain intake. I have read in countless articles and literature, as well as taken advice from many friends who train that grain intake was bad - it turns into sugar in the body, causes water retention, puts on weight, damages the lining of the gut, is toxic, isn't in line with human consumption because palaeolithic  man didn't eat it and many other negative aspects of grain consumption. I bought into this quite a bit and even went on a full gluten-free diet for a period of time. The main spur of this was because I was experiencing a lot of bloating and stomach cramps at the time and backing off gluten seemed to help, for a while.

Once the gut discomforts cleared up a bit I started experimenting with eating different grains again to see which of them were causing me an issue and which weren't. Naturally when I found lager wasn't causing too much of an issue (except being a key habit of mine which prevents me from losing my abdominal fat), I started drinking that again. Other than that I kept off all pastas & breads and used rice as my carb choice when I ate meals at times I needed carbs. I was trying to keep to a fruit/veg/meat rule as much as possible but didn't limit myself to only those things as when I did I felt I was either not eating enough or was burning out a lot, probably because I needed the carbs as I was training.

After a few months of staying away from grains, another problem popped up. My stools were getting hard and the size of them reduced as well as the volume of a movement. I couldn't work out what was causing this so I tried to up my intake of fruit and vegetables for the fibre and train more and I just couldn't battle my gut to work the way I am comfortable with it working. This caused me stress which made the issue even worse.

Eventually, recently, I started adding an amount of bread daily back into my diet and my bowel habits have gone back to not far from what I consider normal. So rather than cause me issues, grains (and their 'natural protection against humans' causing them to be dispelled from our bodies) actually help me with my digestive movements. 

Is it possible all these people who believe grains to be bad and our bodies not having time (evolutionarily) to process them, or that they secrete toxins which harm our bodies, are wrong? Ancient civilisations like the Greeks and Romans ate grains. People during the world wars ate grains and many of them have lived into their hundreds.